This is surely not what you thought it would be

I lose myself in a daydream

Soon, I was lost again in my own little world, wondering what would've happened if I just followed my heart and chose him in the first place. I can still remember that day clearly, it was the day—that both our hearts got broken.

*Flashback*

It was already late in the evening when I decided to write on my long-forgotten journal. I suddenly had the urge to write about the things that happened during the past few months. To be honest, I’ve been feeling caught up in a mighty whirlwind now that my life as a med student was almost beginning.

I was halfway done writing when I heard a knock on my window and I looked over, very much confused. “Isn’t Yong oppa away with his basketball team in Gangnam right now,” I thought. “He’s the only one to do such things.”

I still went over to check it out and to my surprise, there he was, sluggishly perched on a tree branch. By the looks of it, he was beyond drunk judging his slightly reddened face and disheveled hair but somehow, he managed to look at me intently with bright and piercing eyes.

“Annyeong,” he slurred as I shook my disbelief.

“Oppa, I thought we talked about this. You promised me that you wouldn’t drink any alcohol in Gangnam.”

“I-It’s o-okay, Hyun. I-I c-couldn’t help it! I-I’m heartbroken. M-mind f-fixing…it?” he said, while carefully placing his hand on top of mine and pulling me forward until I felt my hand on his chest, just on top of his erratically beating heart.

“Oppa…don’t go there.” I begged him. I knew that what he is about to say is not good, for me at least.

“You know that I-I need to t-tell you, Hyun. I c-can’t go on this way.” he sobbed as he placed my hand on his cheek, and I could feel a certain wetness dripping onto my hand—tears.

And it broke my heart the more to see him like this.

“Yong oppa, please. You shouldn’t…” I tried to stop him, but to no use.

“S-Seohyun-ah, I…I love you. So much, that it’s tearing me a-apart. I