January,2017

It was a cold and chilly day in London, a bit warmer than Seoul, but still cold. I haven't returned to Seoul ever since I came here in 2012, which was  5 years ago. Its not that I don't want to return, or not allowed, but my schedule was so packed that I can't go back to my hometown. Yes, I've debuted as a model 3 years ago, earlier than iKON, as Selene, my english name. Even though I didn't keep in contact with them, I still keep an eyes on them, like watching Who Is Next, Mix&Match, etc. I'm really thankful to Jiyong oppa for keeping his promise, taking care of them, especially Hanbin oppa. He must've had a hard times, having the responsibility for himself, I even hear that he was depressed for months and tried to run away to Busan, and Hanbin oppa never run away from his problems. I did listened to their debut album, and there's this one song, that I can't stop listening to, the song he made for me.

Stop for a moment, if we keep this up
We won’t ever see each other again after the airplane leaves
I’ll be good, you be good too
If you say that and leave, you think I’ll be fine?
Stop pretending to be calm, there are tears in your eyes
I see a sadness like you’ve lost the world
Stay one more day, unpack
Let’s go watch a movie later, I’m crying right now, please

La li la di dada la li da
I hate the sky for wrapping around you
La li la di dada la li da
I hate the moon for revealing you
La li la di dada la li da
Because I don’t wanna let you go like this
This is the saddest melody in the world

Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment, it’s raining
The wind is blowing, it’ll be dangerous if you go now
Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment, there’s a lot of time
There’s tomorrow too so let her come off or let me get on
Just one more day, just one more hour, just one more minute, just wanna say one thing
Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment

You left behind a light smile
Left with a smiling face
Pretending to firmly believe in our promise
I should’ve done everything to make you stay
Then I wouldn’t be living in regret, girl

I’m gonna miss your presence for all my life
Just fall into a deep sleep in my arms
I’m looking up at the cruelly beautiful evening sky
Tears are coming because it’s the last time I’m seeing you, please

La li la di dada la li da
I hate the sky for wrapping around you
La li la di dada la li da
I hate the moon for revealing you
La li la di dada la li da
Because I don’t wanna let you go like this
This is the saddest melody in the world

Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment, it’s raining
The wind is blowing, it’ll be dangerous if you go now
Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment, there’s a lot of time
There’s tomorrow too so let her come off or let me get on
Just one more day, just one more hour, just one more minute, just wanna say one thing
Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment

Do you have to go today? Can’t you go tomorrow?
I don’t wanna let you go, when will you be back?
I’m scared of getting far away from you
What if we naturally break up?
Just one more day, just one more hour, just one more minute

Stop for a moment, it’s raining
The wind is blowing, it’ll be dangerous if you go now
Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment, there’s a lot of time
There’s tomorrow too so let her come off or let me get on
Just one more day, just one more hour, just one more minute, just wanna say one thing
Hey Mr. Airplane
Stop for a moment

Today I'll be flying with airplane again, but this time, I'm not leaving you, but I'm going to you instead. Wait for me, Kim Hanbin.

Today, the long awaited day, I'm finally coming back to Seoul! I'm so excited but nervous as hell. I'm staying there for quite a long time because I got a project there, they've been saying how famous I am in South Korea, . I went to the airport, different from last time, guarded by about 5 bodyguards, and a lot of people circling me, screaming my name. I'm so glad that a lot of people like me. I board on the plane with my manager and sat in my first class seat.

After flying for almost 21 hours, my body are quite sore, and was quite jetlagged because of the time difference, glad I slept almost the whole 20 hours so I was feeling quite fresh ariving in my hometown. My manager took care of everything including my luggages, so I just followed my bodyguards to my cars outside, using the back door because they said its too dangerous to go out using the front door, too many people are there like zombies waiting to eat me. I really want to meet everybody, but my bodyguard forced me to use the back door. sighs.

After arriving at my luxury apartment, I took a bath and changed my clothes after 20 hours wearing the same clothes. I was so excited to visit YG entertainment, its been a long time since I saw Jiyong oppa, Jiwon oppa and Jinhwan oppa, and of course Kim Hanbin. I wonder how is he doing right now.

I drive to YG using my white audi car, thanks to my agency CEO who gave me this car so I could travel anywhere myself. I was so excited that I could crash to another car in a second. I parked my car infront of YG and called my brother.

"Oppa? which floor are you in?" I called my brother without even saying hello first.

"Ya! Kwon Ahyoung, where's your manner?!" He replied, probably pouting right now.

"Sorry." I giggled. "But seriously which floor are you in? I'm about to go up right now." I continued

"I'm in the lounge, 2nd floor. You know the way right?" I can sense a bit of sarcasm right there, Kwon Jiyong-ssi.

"Okay, I'll hang up." I pressed the red button in the screen.

I went up to the lounge at 2nd floor using the elevator to meet my annoying brother. I saw him playing games with BigBang oppa-deul. I don't actually really miss my brother since he always take his time to visit me in London, especially when he have a concert there. My parents basically visit me more than him, they visit me like 200 out of 365 days. 

"Oppa!" I jumped to him to hug him, and thankfully he gladly catch and hug me back, or else that would be embarassing. "The last time I remember, you weren't this old. You're almost 30 now, what to do?" I act shocked which earned a hit on my forehead. "Aish." I glared at him while rubbing my probably red forehead. I hugged BigBang oppa-deul, and we talked quite long, about 2 hours. "Oppa-deul, I'll