LOOSING CONTROL

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Summary: Woohyun's dad died when he was still just a baby. Few years later, his mother remarried and Woohyun got a brother - Kim Sunggyu. However, his new family members didn't like him and so at the age of 8 he was forced to leave his country and was put for adoption in the U.S. His adoptive parents were abusive and so 16 years old Woohyun had to return. The story is about him coming back to his mother, trying to survive with a brother who hates him to death. Can they make up or will be Woohyun forced out again? 

Characters: Woohyun, Sunggyu

Genre: drama, angst, hurtxcomfort, AU (alternative universe)

Warnings: grammar, misspelling, some graphic scenes of violence (the chapters will have special warning) 

Disclaimer: I own nothing but my writing style and muse. 

* inspiration for this story (including some specific ideas) comes from korean dramas: High School Love On, School 2013 & 2015; korean movie Fashion King.
* quotes and certain thoughts are mostly influenced by authors: Khaled Hosseini, Haruki Murakami; and lyrics mostly by: Tablo, NELL.

 

 

Foreword

 

"Can't you open your heart just once?"

 

TEASER

flashback

"Why do you always follow me around? I don't even like you."

"That's okay. In family we don't have to like each other but we are still a family."

"No, we are not."

"We are! Our parents married so now we are brothers."

"You are not my brother!"

"But I like you hyung. Can't we just be brothers?"

"NO! I hate you and I will never accept you as my family! Leave me alone!"

 

***

 

“Children aren't coloring books. You don't get to fill them with your favorite colors.” 

“It was only a smile, nothing more. It didn't make everything all right. It didn't make ANYTHING all right. Only a smile. A tiny thing. A leaf in the woods, shaking in the wake of a startled bird's flight. But I'll take it. With open arms. Because when spring comes, it melts the snow one flake at a time, and maybe I just witnessed the first flake melting."

 

***

Woohyun POV 

I love you, yet you hate me.

Can I endure your abuse?

How long do I need to keep hurting?

Hyung... don't you see?

For you... for you... I would do anything.

The things you get everyday are way too special for me.

 

Sunggyu POV

Why can't you disappear?

After everything... how can you still smile?

Why don't you fight back?

You used to shine so brightly... what happened to you?

Can you forgive me?

Do I even want to stop hurting you?

 

 

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7nfinite #1
Chapter 10: Should have read this earlier. I've subscribed this long time ago but I didn't dare to read it because I was worried about the angst. I'm glad that I finally decided to read it. You've done an amazing job in writing this. Thank you so much for the story :) I'm gonna check out your other woogyu stories now ^^
AfrinSunggyu
#2
Chapter 10: It's so GOOD!!! I usually don't like to read stories even if it has slight angst but this story is something totally on a different level...It's so well written...How much I loved this story I can't express in words.
tinydream
#3
Chapter 10: Waah nice enclosure dear author-nim /claps/

Thank you so much for wrote this story. Thank youuuu
Drhr13 #4
Chapter 10: I really wanna know what could happened next ( i _ i )
marieah
#5
Chapter 10: it is all and much more.
they've found each other mirrored .
give and take, to form the perfect image.
beautiful in all its gore.
CaithyCat1992
#6
Chapter 10: I'm not sure what to call their relationship, but I think, in the end, the fact that sunggyu's eyes were opened to what his desire for control did to woohyun, that's enough for me to be reassured that they'll be ok. Thank you for this fascinating story, it puts love in a whole different perspective.
kindaluvu
#7
Chapter 10: Oh i've been up and down with this story, in the end everything made sense... and well i dont know how to call their relationship but as long as they still find their reasons in each other then they'll be happy. Thank you for creating this story <3
gula-gula_getah #8
Chapter 10: I didn't expect it to end so soon...but mostly I'm glad gyu doesn't hurt hyun anymore.....I want a sequel!!!!(or not??)I'm afraid of the sequel.what if u make gyu abusive again???oh no!!!!definitely not a sequel...
himemiya
#9
Chapter 10: Omg it's the end already???!!! no!(T_T)