What am I doing?

I’m going to kiss a straight guy.

Something is wrong with me.

I pull back,

sighing. 

Luhan still grips my hand tighter.

I had a chance,

why didn’t I take it?

I was scared,

I guess.

I didn’t want to ruin what we had.

He would definitely reject me,

he wouldn’t come to my house anymore,

we’d fall out, 

we’d be strangers again.

I don’t want that.
He’s the best thing that has happened to me.

But he’s straight.

I’m sure of it.

Luhan puts his head on my shoulder,

sighing.

Now what? 

We could stay in this room,

like this.

If only it lasted forever.

Only us,

alone,

together.

“Sehun,” 

comes his soft voice.

“Hmm?”

“I need some advice.”

“Sure.”

“There’s someone I like,”

That hurt. 

It was like someone stabbed my heart.

“Yeah?” 

I croak.

“I’ve liked them since the first day we met.”

Another knife.

“They’re kind, 

adorable,

handsome,

and funny.”

“Handsome? A guy?”

I ask,

my hopes soaring.

“But,”

here comes that but.

“It’s only that one. 

I’m not attracted to any other male.

Just that one person.”

“And?”

“I don’t know if he likes me back.”

“Who wouldn’t like you?”

Luhan chuckled. 

“You’d be surprised.”

We fall silent again.

After a minute, Luhan whispers,

“You.”

Wait.

Hold up.

What?

“Me what?”

“It’s you,

I like you.”

“I… you… what?”

I’m at loss for words. 

My crush,

he likes me back.

Fate must be tricking me.

“Liar…”

I mumble.

He lifts his head from my shoulder,

looking into my eyes,

despite the darkness. 

He’s smiling,

I can see it.

He leans in close,

our lips only centimeters away.

My heart speeds up,

my face heats up.

“L… uhan…” 

“Please accept.”

Luhan smiles.