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Realization
Flipping my body to the left side of the bed, naturally I extend my arm hoping to wrap them around the waist of the one I love the most - a habit of mine really, only to find that side of the bed empty. Instantly, my eyes snap open to confirm the absense. It's true. He's not here.... Again.
Again, yes. I don't know what's going on but recently my boyfriend has been missing. No, not missing like lost but missing in the mornings where our cuddle sessions are supposed to happen. Did I mention he avoids me like a plague too? Oh, and guess what, he returns like almost late for schedules. The reason why I didn't question him or anything is because I have a feeling he's planning something big for our anniversary this year. I know I know it's only April, but maybe right?
Pretending to once again get frustrated from his absense, I sent a " Where are you? " waiting for a reply.
No response. As usual. Okay maybe pretending to be frustrated might be a lie because really? Does he really have to completely ignore my messages?
" God, Baekhyun. I swear can you stop ignoring my messages and seriously answer your god damn phone for Christ's sake? "
Hoping this time he'll get the hint that I'm getting annoyed by his behaviour, I sent another one.
......
Nothing. Well, no luck today either. Honestly, how long is this going to go? My patience is wearing thin and I hate getting angry at something he's using so much efforts to plan for. But, god! At least speak a damn word to me!
" Chanyeol, the members and the manager are all ready, are you? "
" ....... "
" Chanyeol? Are you okay? "
I feel a hand touch my shoulder, an involuntary gasp escaped from my throat.
" Hey.... "
" Baekhyun. "
I watch Jongin's face switched from a relaxed smile to an expressionless face to a face of pure shock and horror. It's really comical, I would've laughed if it isn't for the fact that I'm feeling erratic at the moment. Then I realized. He knew. I feel myself getting agitated. I feel a digusting feeling of annoyance clouding my thoughts and I'm trying hard to push it down. Calm down Park, calm down.
" You knew " I voiced out my thoughts.
" Listen to me chanyeol "
" You ing knew...... Since when "
" Listen to me, calm down chanyeol "
" SINCE WHEN?! "
Jongin flinched.
I know my voice was loud, and I'm just venting my anger on jongin. I know that but I don't really care right now. Not when I'm hurting like this.
I can hear footsteps rushing up. Just nice. I want to know something.
" Hey we heared shouting... why- "
" Baekhyun... he knows "
..............................
Same looks. All the same damn looks again. They all know. All of them. ALL OF THEM.
............
" What am I to you guys? What does this even mean? So all of you know except me. WHY THE HELL? "
" We... want to.. protect.... you... "
" Protect? PROTECT? THIS? THIS IS PROTECT? HOW do you think I FEEL when all of the freaking world knows my EX-BOYFRIEND is cheating on me EXCEPT ME? Do you know what I feel now? I feel stupid. ING STUPID."
I couldn't even bare to speak anymore. My throat is hurting, my head is hurting, my heart is hurting, every single damn cell in my body is screaming in pain. Deciding I'd rather be outside than this stuffy room, I pushed my way through and escape out of the dorm. Heading towards
ANNNNNNND THAT'S A WRAP FOR THE FIRST CHAPTER!!!!!
Omg I'm so worried. What if people hate this story. What if the comments will be like THIS IS or something omgomgomgomgomg help I'm scared.
I hope people are kind in this site TT TT
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