Not seeing your face with the rest, it doesn't feel right.

Despite not being a leader but as the oldest, I feel responsible.

I may not look like someone with authority and not as tall you to be intimidating, I still have a responsibility to look out for the ones younger than me.

I think I've let you down the same way you have let us down.

 At this moment, no one's thinking right. Emotions are scattered all over.

There's so much going on and all I could is give comfort.

I wished I could have prevented this.

I don't blame you. 

You have your reasons. I don't know what they are because I'm you. 

I understand that, but I know you could have ended things a little better.

Afterall.... 

You were our leader....