Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go my eyes are filling up with tears again.

02

Chapter

17 May 2014

❝ Chapter 02: Start

‘Miss the days. Stay Strong.’

Thats what he typed, and before he could regret it, he hit send, watching the familiar 'Upload complete' show at the top of his cell phone screen.

Hair was now brown again, and he stared at the candle on the table with a small sigh. His smoothie was beside him, no bar tonight. He'd been holding back the urge to get a drink for a few weeks now, t was a paranoia that he'd become an alcoholic with the drinking as his way to cope with the stress that was weighing on him lately.

At least this was a small way, for the fans to get a glane behind the scenes and in between performances...to show that an idol was just as much a human as them...

Practice after practice had gotten to him. It was practically a routine to wake up earlier than everyone every morning, and be ready. Then get everyone else ready. He didn't care about getting rest anymore, it was something he'd given up on days ago.

So he focused on making the fans happy. Uploading pictures to keep in touch..

Little things were what made anything bearable these days..

He took another sip of his drink from the straw, watching as slowly notifications started hitting the photo. 1,633,717 followers, and almost all of them saying they love him. It was shame though that for some reason...this didn't satisfy him. It only made his mood sink more...

‘They don't really know me...if they did would that make any difference?’

The notes kept growing but he closed out the app, returning to the screen