Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go my eyes are filling up with tears again.

07

Chapter

23 May 2014

❝ Chapter 06: Birthday

"You won't be stopping by, will you?" 

"I don't know yet..." Yifan spoke on the phone.

Cars continued to pass by, and Suho sighed as he walked. It  was rather late, the others had fallen asleep and the night was cool with a pleasant breeze, so Junmyeon had decided to take a walk. 

"But you are better, right?" he asked concern in his voice for the older.

 "I'm much better, yes, I know, I've screwed up a lot of the plans...for the concert..I mean, all the pre recordings, and the choreography but I just--i just couldn't live like that for much longer, Junmyeon, I felt like I was a wandering corpse, but that doesnt mean that I didnt want to be there, please help the others understand, I'm not a traitor..I had to do what was good for my health..that's-that's not selfish.." the voice on the phone spoke.

 "I'm trying, Yifan. Their, in denial, Its...think of it as the five stages of grief--"

he got cut off as Yifan promptly replies,<