Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go my eyes are filling up with tears again.

09

Chapter

30 JUNE 2014

❝ Chapter 09: Sorry p1

Yifan cleared his throat, trying to not be obvious or create attention, thought that's what he assumed was taken as by Luhan, who was across the room full of backstage crew, cameras, celbrities, singers, actors, performers, instruments and many other things. 
They were all getting touch ups with makeup for the film and drama awards show held in Beijing this year. All year Yifan had acknowledged Luhan's presence in the film and acting industry but he had done his best to, not really avoid, but not run into his former band mate. But as time went on and the year came closer towards its end, he realized it seemed the other was trying to run into him. 
Except now that they wer so close, the younger boy didn't even spare him a glance. 
It'd been months now since he'd left Exo, not even left, the Korean High Court had ordered him to mediate with SME, bt so far, SME hasn't been flexible much less willing to negotiate. Mediations turn into ping-pong rallies on and on with nothing getting accomplished. 
The artist finishes, and shows him his reflection to which he nods, giving a small smile and moving to stand--in the process his foot gets caught in the chair and he stumbles just a bit, but manages a smooth recovery. 
That's when he catches sight of Luhan glancing at him and he feels his face heat. 
'You're not the leader anymore--' he reminds himself to cool down his warm face, praying the other didn't see his small mishap just now. He moves awway, not wanting to cause any friction, and with cameras everywhere he knew he wasn't allowed to talk or cause any commotion with Exo, under an agreement with SME while mediation was still ongoing. 
So he stepped out to find himself a seat in the area designated for the actors and actresses, the entire hall was filling up with people slowly, cameras being set up and a