Because I Don't Know How To Love

Characters: CN Blue | Jungshin | Eunjung 

Story: Sad/ Weird/ Social Life

Writer: Selina Boice

Teaser:

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The you I love, is leaving me
Though I haven’t yet said a word in my defense

The you I love, says she wants to be happy
I haven’t been able to say a word in pleading

Always, looking at your sad expression
I neglected you under the pretense of being busy
Because I was a wretched fool

I didn’t know then
Because I didn’t know how to love
Because I didn’t know how to hold you warmly

That a soft heart
Would collapse and fall, I didn’t know
And without thinking, I turned away from you

I didn’t know then
Because I didn’t know how to love
I came to leave you alone

Even saying sorry seems awkward
So I’ve passed you by again, pretending not to know

Even if you meet someone else,
He’ll probably be better than me
Because of this, I’m sending you away

Even if I meet someone else,
It’ll never be you
Because of this, I can’t erase you

All that’s left is a sorry heart
All I have left to say is goodbye
Even though my heart knows

I didn’t know then
Because I didn’t know how to love
Because I didn’t know how to hold you warmly

That a soft heart
Would collapse and fall, I didn’t know
And without thinking, I turned away from you

I didn’t know then
Because I didn’t know how to love
I came to leave you alone

Even saying sorry seems awkward
So I’ve passed you by again, pretending not to know

Even though I know now
Even though I know how to love
The person whom I wish to love isn’t here

A love that has given only tears
I hope everyone will forget and be happy at all costs
Everyday, while crying, all I do is pray

That in my next life, I won’t have a young love
When I really understand love,
If I meet you then, I’ll take you into my arms
So that we’ll only have happy dreams

Even though now, I’m sending you away

"Ham Eunjung.... This is for you... I'm sorry...." The man inside the TV held the microphone tigtly and his eyes were connected with the camera. 

"Because I didn't know how to love... But since you left, I just found out about my bad action to you... I.... " he turned back to see the slide which was showing in that time.

"Hello.... The winter is coming soon and today is your birthday. I know I made you angry yesterday. I'm sorry.. I... " she was holding camera and taking video by herself while she was walking on the road's side. 

"However Jungshin, I hope you will like my gift and we will return good together..."

Waaaaaaaa............... Bang.....

Suddenly the camera was fallen down on the road with much blood on the camera's mirror. 

Flashback

"I passed it... I passed it...  Eunjung...." the tall man jumped happily after he received a confirming letter from FNC Music.

"What...? FNC?"

"Yes... I will train in FNC Music..."

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Years later

"Why are you sitting alone? You looked so sad.." the girl came to sit near the tall man at the riverside.

"What to do? Tomorrow, FNC will choose 4 members to form CN Blue... It includes me..." He said

"Really? You will be an idol soon..."

"No... I am in trouble now. They are asked to choose between me and Kwangjin. I'm afraid if they leave me..."

"Don't worry.. You are the best.." she held his hand tightly.

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"What happened to you? You'd better take a rest. It's too night..." the girl brought a tea cup to the tall man who was sitting and writing music note stressfully.

"Go out. Don't bother me...!" he moved her cup a little bit.

"It's so cold for tonight... you'd better drink a hot tea..." she pushed it to him till the tea accidently released to his paper.

"What the hell you are doing? This is wet right now.. Do you have brain? I said I didn't need it" he threw the cup away before he yelled at her.

"I'm sorry.... you can have it later. Just call me.." she kept smiling in front of him .She picked up the broken cup and left sadly. No one knew how she calm. 

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