Present day...

i've never been to a place like this ...

Well someone of my status in society and someone of my profession would never be seen in this place.

But I have no choice ...

My body , heart and mind  wants me here!

I have waited so long for this... And If i prolonged this , I might never have the chance to  get him back...

or even to have him forgive me....

The investigator i hired said he's here.  Tuesday, friday and Saturday nights, from 11pm to 4:30 am.

The place was mostly filled with women - the young ones seems to be in their late 20's and the oldest reaches until 50 years of age. Homouals are also present.

it's what you should expect in this kind of bar - where men dances to entertain.

I never really pictured him to be in a place like this...

But what do I know?  

It's been  9 years since i last saw him. And I kept replaying that day over and over again almost daily in the beginning. The day I left him and made him believe that i don't care for him - that I didn't really love him.

I shook my head trying to dispel his image that night - because even until now it never fails to make me cry.

i took a sit at the bar area and watched as the guy on the stage finished his performance. The audience are going crazy , giggling and laughing with their companions.

I turned to the bartender and ordered a non- alcoholic drink - he looked at me funny but i knew i have to be sober for this.

i knew how he looked like now.

I've been looking at his picture every night since last month - it was included in the reports the investigator submitted to me -any information he was able to get about him.

I settled every commitment i have in the States so i can focus all my attention and energy in this. No other distractions - just him. All about him...

The guy made an exit and the song changed...

It was a hiphop song...

(picture "like mike" the movie -channing Tatums dance)

When a guy stepped out , i knew it was him even if his face is partialy covered with his cap...

He always danced with so much passion and power - and it seems like it never changed .

i felt my time slowed down a second time just watching him. 

He hypnotized me with his very move - like he always have.

When he removed his cap and I saw his face - his picture didn't give him justice.

I still see the traces of his boyish features when he was 17, but now it was more defined and chiseled -  reminding myself that he's not a boy anymore but a man.

He smiled at a woman in front of the stage showing his dimple- and it seems like he wasn't satisfied with how they screamed for him - he bit his lower lip and winked at her.

The audience grew wild - And the shouts and hoots did get louder . I was having a hard time staying on my seat because i want to  go to him at this vey moment.

Pull him away from the stares those women are giving him and take him somewhere else with me.

I was jealous... 

Because I never stopped loving him...

But i don't have the right...

and it hurts because i know it was all my fault!

and now I must ready myself for the pain -   because I know he hates me and i

deserved it...

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Here it is!! 

I'm planning for the first chapters - "The past" where it all began...

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P.s. I might need a co-author for a scene only - i feel like it would be needed. But i never tried having a co-author before...hmmm...

ok then!

PYONG!