the house phone rang and sungyeol picked it up..

"oh..eomma..wae?" sungyeol asked

"sungyeol..you're home? since when?" his mom asked..

"a few days ago..sorry i forgot to call you...i'll come by soon" sungyeol replied

"do you know already?" his mom asked again

"know what?"

"do you know that sungjong left this morning?" his mom started to sob

"left where? he wasn't here when i arrived" sungyeol lied.. he didn't want to tell his mom that he found his brother and boyfriend in bed together

"he left... he said he wanted to be alone...sungyeol..i'm worried..you know your brother is sick.. what if..what if.." Mrs. Lee cried harder

sungyeol felt a little worry.. sungjong never came back since he left..not even to get some clothes.. but then again he remembered his brother's betrayal and at his current state he'd rather not see his brother either "sungjong is already grown up mom.. he can take care of himself.." he replied with an irritated tone

"yah! what are you talking about?! you know that your brother has a condition..what if he dies somewhere and we don't know!" his mom scolded

"he will not die okay.." sungyeol yelled back "i'm sorry mom i neeed to go..i'll call you soon.. bye"

sungyeol put the phone back in it's place..and proceeded what he was doing...

myungsoo came home from work ealry that night... he was worried sick of sungjong but he can't tell that to sungyeol..he has hurt the man enough and he promised to make it up to him.. he did call howon but the other said he didn't know where the youngest was...

he walked inside and saw someone's back cooking in the kitchen.. he was wearing the pink apron and his hair was tied back... for a moment myungsoo thought it was sungjong..and he walked quickly but stopped when the man turned around and it was sungyeol instead...

"you're home..dinner will be ready in a bit...go clean up..." sungyeol smiled..

myungsoo nodded and walked to where his room was...

he stopped infront of sungjong's room and opened it... he sighed and saw that it was still just like how sungjong left it... he closed his eyes and sighed... "where are you?" he whispered...

he closed the door and proceeded to go change...

unknown to myungsoo, sungyeol saw him open sungjong's room .. he wiped his tears and continued cooking..

"i'll take my place back..i'm here now..." he whispered to himself...

a little bit later the two were eating in the dining room...quietly...

"so...so how's work?" sungyeol asked

"it..it was a little busy but it was ok..." myungsoo said, scooping some food and eating it... he suddenly remembered sungjong's cooking...sungyeol was a good cook but somehow myungsoo thought sungjong's was better.. there was something different..

"myung....myungsoo...kim myungsoo" sungyeol repeated over and over till myungsoo came out of his trance "is the food that bad?"

"huh? ah no..it's good actually..sorry...." myungsoo quickly started eating again.. when he finished, sungyeol told him that he will was the dishes and just go rest...

Sungyeol walked into the room and found myungsoo was already asleep his back turned away from sungyeol's side of the bed..

He sighed as he laid under the blanket... "this is my place..i belong here...not sungjong...but me..." sungyeol closed his eyes, a single tear escaped from his eye...

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Four months had passed...

soon sungyeol and myungsoo's daily routine and relationship started turning mechanical..  there wasn't any of the emotions they had before...

they were both trying hard.. but reality was what they had was not there anymore...

"i guess this is the end for us..." sungyeol said that one day they went to walk at the han river together at night...

"i'm sorry yeol..." myungsoo said apologetically while holding sungyeol's hand...

"i can't blame you that much.. sungjong is one hell of a catch and it's not surprising that you will fall for him when i was away..." sungyeol sighed

the two looked at eachother and then hugged... "thank you for all those wonderful years together.. " myungsoo whispered

"thank you too...it has been fun...but i guess here would be the end of what we have..." sungyeol whispered back.. "now you have to go find him..."

they broke the hug and myungsoo looked at sungyeol with a confuse look

"what do you mean?"

"sungjong left...months ago...i guess he didn't want to hurt me anymore.."

"where did he go?"

"that i don't know..mom just told me that sungjong called her and told her that he had to leave and to not find him...after i sorted out all my feelings..i started to realize that i love my brother so much that i can forgive him... but now i am worried..you know his condition..." sungyeol began to tear up...

myungsoo cupped his face.."we will find him..ok?"

sungyeol nodded and they shared another hug.. one full of forgiveness and friendship...

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In Jeju...

"sungjong ssi...what are you doing there... it's a cold.. you should come in.." the nurse said as he put a light blanket around sungjong..

"thanks jaejoong hyung...i just wanted to watch the stars tonight..."sungjong smiled at his private nurse.. thankfully it was someone who was caring and can relate to him as the nurse is also a special case and has a son who is now in college with his husband.. "they are beautiful..."

the nurse sat beside sungjong and looked up " they are indeed beautiful..like you..and i'm sure that little baby will be as beautiful as you"

this has been sungjong's life..he stayed in Howon's rest house with his nurse jaejoong..he saved enough money for the baby when he was working although he wasn't spending any for him since howon said he'll take care of it..as his big brother and his baby's godfather...

he missed myungsoo...he missed his brother..so much... he still cries everynight...

sungjong held his tummy ...

"i hope they fixed everything...and are happy...i'm sorry baby, i promise someday maybe you will meet your daddy..."

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A/N: how is it? and yes i just had to put jaejoong in there ^_^ i'm still contemplating on the ending.. on my other myungjong fic i did two endings since it was supposed to  originally to have a tragic ending but most of my readers asked that it ends well... :P