"mom , dad please let me do a part time job..pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" sungjong was currently convincing his parents to let him have  a part time job

"no sungjong ah..you are already getting tired in school..you can't be tired working too..it's not good for you" sungjong's dad said

"but dad.. how can i train myself to get stronger if i don't even do any work..plus it's just as a cashier, it's not like i'm running around the cafe ..and howon hyung is working there too..pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" sungjong pouted his best puppy dog pout..

"sungjong ah..listen to your father please.." mrs. lee said but the younger one pouted even more..

"what's happening here?" sungyeol said as he came in from school one night..

"sungjong is insisting in getting a part time job" mrs. lee replied

"sungjong ah..no! that will only make you more tired" sungyeol said as he sat across his parents

"that's what i said" their dad quipped

"come on..i'm not a kid anymore..i want to be able to do things on my own..buy stuff with my own money..." sungjong whined

"sungjong..if you need something or want something, you can just tell us.." mrs. lee said

"it's different..i want to be atleast half independent..to atleast assure myself that i can do something without relying so much on you...it's not like i'm gonna die punching out orders on the register" sungjong pouted...

"stop talking about you dying!" sungyeol yelled which startled sungjong a bit "sungjong ah..we're just thinking about what's best for you.." sungyeol sighed as he hugged his brother in apology

"hyung..if you keep thinking that something will happen to me, you will never be able to do anything for yourself.. i want to be independent so that you can also do the things that you are meant to do..like that internship!" sungjong argued

"what internship?" mr. lee asked

"it's nothing dad" sungyeol waved it off

"no..there is a good internship opportunity for hyung in the states, he is very qualified but he refuses to apply because of me" sungjong said, his hyung glaring at him

"is it true?" mr. lee asked and sungyeol nodded..

"if you keep holding things back for you because of me, i might as well kill myself now" those were only words to sungjong but because of the high emotion he had he suddenly felt pain in his chest and he suddenly lost balance and fell on the floor clutching his chest..

"yah sungjong!" sungyeol said reaching for the drawer beside the sofa, mrs lee running for water and in no time sungjong took his medicine and began feeling ok..

"you see, i might even die sooner worrying and feeling guilty about you not being able to do that internship or anything you like for that matter.." sungjong said making sungyeol just shake his head and sigh

"fine, just promise me that you will stay alive.." sungyeol said knowing his brother just had him convinced already

"yay... oh by the way, i already sent your application.." sungjong smiled while he ran to his father's lap

"why you little prick..you had this all planned!" sungyeol said as he glared at his brother

"yup pretty much except the attack, i so didn't plan to have one at the moment hehe" sungjong smiled scratching the back of his head...

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few weeeks later a letter from the Business Company came and even if it's a good news, sungyeol won't feel really happy...

"hyung! hyung!" sungjongl ran to his brother "there's a letter for you from the company!!"

Sungyeol sighed as he took the letter from his brother.. he opened it as sungjong eagerly waits not even sitting down..

After reading sungyeol folded it and didn't say anything...

"so?" sungjong asked .. when sungyeol still refused to talk he snatch the paper away and read the letter himself... "oh my God!!!" sungjong squeeled "eomma, appa!!!" he screamed

"ya sungjong calm down..your heart!" mr lee scolded his son as he and his wife came out from the  kitchen

"hyung was accepted! he got the internship...i knew it! and they are flying him there, all expenses paid for by the company" sungjong explained as he handed the letter to his parents..

"that's a good news..congratulations son" his dad smiled proudly at his son

"thanks dad...i guess" sungyeol sighed looking at his brother... he still didn't like the idea of leaving sungjong..heck he could leave anybody even his parents or even myungsoo for his ambitions but he can never leave his brother.. what if something happens while he was not there...

"hyung..you promised..." sungjong pouted "i know you want this too"

sungyeol sighed.. sungjong was right.. he did want it..it was his gateway to the business world...but his brother

"stop that!" sungjong glared at his brother  "you are so thinking about me again!"

"sungjong ah... i just don't want to be away from you.. be where i can't protect you or i can't go to you right away..." sungyeol replied

"so? you are just going to let me live with guilt all my life about the things you weren't ab;e to do because of me..i'll probably just die of depression then" sungjong crossed his arms and he was already tearing up

"fine..just promise me..take care of yourself..don't do anything that will harm you..don't do anything that will tire you out and harm your heart..." sungyeol said as he hugged his brother "and call me anytime..if you want me to come home, i will immidiately do that..."

"hyung..you leave two weeks after your graduation and that's 3 months from now..we can do that drama of farewells later...today is a happy day neh?" sungjong's smile came back.. sungyeol shook his head in amazement..he was really in the palm of sungjong's hands..but he loved his brother..so much.. that if this makes him happy then he will do anything..

now he just has to tell myungsoo....

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"congratulations!" a few classmates yelled at sungyeol as he was walking to the university cafeteria where he will meet sungjong, howon and myungsoo...

"congratulations yeol..damn you are awesome" howon said as he nodded at the older lee as he sat beside his brother...

the congratulations still continued from passers by even when myungsoo arrived..

"what's with all the greetings? got good news?" myungsoo asked giving sungyeol a kiss on the cheek

"uhm...howon you wait for sungjong here..i just need to talk to myungsoo for a bit .." sungyeol pulled myungsoo out to the university garden..

"i have something to tell you..." sungyeol said his eyes a little unsure...

"don't tell me you are breaking up with me.." myungsoo said nervously...

"here.." sungyeol handed the letter he recieved the day before and myungsoo started to read..

"when did you even decide to apply?" myungsoo asked

"awhile ago.."

"and you are only telling me this now?"

"i wasn't sure how to.."

"so you are leaving me?"

"it's a good opportunity..."

"how about sungjong then?"

"we already sorted that out.."

"so, i'm the last to know?" myungsoo was angry now.. "you are seriously leaving ?"

"myung... it's a great opportunity..and being able to be selected for this out of hundreds of applicants..that's just something i can't pass up, especially when sungjong's has assured me that he will not do anything stupid that will harm his heart.. you know i only didn't go to japan because of sungjong"

"so if sungjong wasn't sick you're definitely going?" myungsoo carefully asked..he was hoping he was reason enough for sungyeol to stay

sungyeol looked away.. he loved myungsoo.. but he had dreams too... big dreams...myungsoo was right..if sungjong wasn't sick, he's probably in japan too now..

"i'm sorry myung.." sungeyol looked at the ground,

"when do you leave?" the younger asked, probably feeling defeated already

"two weeks after graduation..."

"we're not breaking up are we? you are still going to come home and keep in touch right?"

"of course..."

myungsoo hugged his boyfriend...not another word was said..