[december 25th 2013] 

My only wish that Christmas was to see her alive and happy again. 

Merry Christmas, Jangmi. 

written and burnt in the fireplace on january 31st 2014

[december 27th 2013] 

I was still there. In the clean white room. Everyday. Without fail. I'd be there for her.

Gazing at her. 

Longing for her to wake up. 

Wanting to hear her sweet voice fill the room. 

Instead all i got was the steady beating of the heart rate machine. The fact that she could survive was a blessing. But when was she going to wake up? 

I don't want to spend Christmas alone again

written and torn up on february 10th 2014 

[december 28th 2013]

I had decided to take a walk in the neighbourhood that we once had played and roamed around in. 

Unknowingly, my feet brought me to the familiar sandy place. But for some reason, this place didn't give me the chills i thought it would. Instead, i felt a presence. Something warm and welcoming. 

"Jangmi?" 

"I'm not Jangmi. But you're close.

Say, Wonwoo, is it? Would you like to make a deal with me? 

I'll let you go to heaven to see her. 

If she remembers you before your time runs out,

She awakes

If she doesn't,

You leave, alone" 

A voice asked. 

And with that, a deal was made. 

A deal i might regret. 

written and tucked into my pillow on february 12th 2014