February 2012;Chloe   My phone rang again. It was the thousandth time this week, "hello." I finally picked up the phone after it's insistent ring.    "Chlo. Why don't you come over for dinner today? We can order your favourite pizza." Jeremie sounded anxious, it was because I stayed at home all week. I didn't even went to their gym, though I've been itching to go.    I was writing and composing hyesung's songs, and finishing Venus, it proved to be a difficult feat, composing the music. I'm not used to composing a different genre. I texted Eric oppa a few days back, saying I need more time for the title song. He seems to be okay with it, does it take that long for his other song writers too? I was very upset with myself when I couldn't get the tune right.    "I can't Jeremie. I'm busy. Please stop calling." I hanged up the phone immediately. Putting my phone back on the table, I saw Minwoo oppa's hoodie, lying on the couch.    I've been mulling over him the past few days I've spent alone. He's not for me, he's a famous singer, I'm just an ordinary girl that lives in my own world. I came to a decision after having difficulty sleeping for the past nights, his hoodie never left my hands nor my sight.    The decision—avoiding him, as much as I can. All at once, a stabbing pain swept through me, it was almost hard to bear. I breathe through my tight chest, focusing on my shallow breaths to dull the pain. I didn't realised I was clenching my fists, I let go of them and close my eyes, clutching the hoodie closer to my heart. "You have to do it." I repeated this in my head until the pain eases.   I sat there for hours, just focusing on breathing. My brain and my heart had conversations in the dark, until baby came and knocked me out of my trance.    "I guess it's dinner time." I finally managed after a long pause, carrying him into my arms, I went into my kitchen to make his dinner.    I heard their laughter that evening, Minwoo oppa was here again today, he was here yesterday too, despite several calls from my brothers, I didn't went thr