Do listen to this piano piece when you read, it helps to build the mood.

Yiruma - A River Flows In You (animefreakz91) 

A melodious tune echoed in my ears as I danced my fingers smoothly and swiftly across the piano keys again and again, playing with utter precision.

There was no need for a music score because I knew the melody by heart. Its every note and every chord was deeply engraved in me, like the shadow of your figure that is imprinted in my mind.

I could still clearly remember the days that I have hated playing the piano and dreaded concert performances because they were obligations I was forced to comply; to train, perform skilfully and become a pianist like my parents.

To follow the path in life they have set for me

To live up to the hopes and aspirations they have for me

To fulfil the dreams they had lack to accomplish  

But after I met you, everything changed. You’ve changed me. I started looking forward to every Saturday afternoon music lessons we have together because I enjoyed every minute and every second I spend with you, playing on the piano.

I admire the seriousness on your face when you are absorbed in your own world, creating wonders with your gentle touches, producing melodies full with emotions;

Happiness

Sadness

Blissfulness

Remorse

Love

Hatred

Serenity

Glee

Sorrows

Emotions that expressed your purity and simplicity

Emotions that expressed your sincerity and guilelessness

Emotions that quivered my tender soul

 Emotions that leaves me vulnerably at the verge of tears

I like the way, your slender fingers roamed over the keys as you guided me through a piano piece and the broad smile that curls up your lips when we got praised by the teacher for performing an outstanding recital.

You led me into the world of music

A world painted with endless possibilities

You taught me how to appreciate its magnificence

Making me slowly fall for its beauty

The beauty of music

That has no boundaries

That surpasses any language

That goes beyond words

You made me fall in love with playing the piano

Just like how I fell deeply in love with you

I could never forget the first piano piece you gave me. The first gift I’ve gotten from you.  I was on cloud nine when I received it; an indescribable ecstasy took over me. Every day without failed, I would settle myself silently in front of the grand piano, playing the music piece until my hands go numb and fingers go stiff but it still couldn’t stop my desire to practice and practice until I memorise the tune by heart, until the melody bore in me.

I’ve played the music countless times; more than the number of days I could ever live in lifetime but it was never enough. It was never enough for me.

Because I love the melody

Just like how I love you

Listening to the soothing melody resonating in the air, I feel your breath caressing my cheeks. I hear your sweet whispers in my ears. I hear your voice telling me once again that this melody was meant for us.

 It’s a melody that carried my love to you. A melody that gives you the courage to face every obstacle ahead of you, no matter where you are because you know I will always be there for you, like the river that brings life.

The river flows in you,Taemin.

The river that parts its way into my heart is you.

Only you

You’re the river that brings joy and laughter to me

The river that carries away my grief and misery

Without you, I can’t survive.

You are a necessity I need

Because you’re a river that brings life

Gazing at the wall filled with numerous pictures of us, grinning happily after every successful piano performance. Pictures of us standing together with the trophies we won from various piano competitions in our hands. Tears started streaming down my eyes, staining the pure white keys.

I wouldn’t hold back my sorrows knowing that I could never hear you play anymore. I could never hear the melodies that pulled my heartstrings; melodies that had changed my life forever. I could never see the joy on your face when you are playing on the piano anymore.

We could never go back to the good times;

The simple times we shared

Practicing hard together

Supporting one other

Competing with each other

It would never be the same anymore

Everything will never be the same anymore

“Taemin..........”

“Taemin, are you not going to sleep. It’s already 12 midnight?”

A low subtle voice jounced me out of my trance.

Knowing it was you, I frantically wiped away my tears, afraid that you would take notice that I’ve just cried. Cry for you again because;

It breaks your heart when I’m in tears

It makes you drenched with regrets

It sinks you with guilt

Guilt that weighs you down

 Like the anchor of a ship

Into the depth of the sea

“Later, hyung. I still want to play on the piano awhile longer.” I gasped, suppressing the tremors in my voice.

“No, you should rest.”

“um.....araso.......” I answered hastily, bothered by the austerity in your voice.

Inhaling a deep breath, I regained my composure to gaze into your concerned eyes gawping at me. You were nipping on your lower lip, forcing a faint smile. But within those two eyes, I can clearly see the pains you are hiding from me, the pains from protecting me.

 “Minho hyung, are you having those sudden cramps again?” I asked anxiously, reaching out to your arm that was flexed rigidly against your chest. I couldn’t help noticing your wrist and fingers twitching incessantly despite your futile attempt to hold it down and it made my inside cringed.

Ignoring my question, you pulled me into a hug with your free hand. Burying me into your chest; using your warmth to melt away the fears clouding in my heart. “No, darling. I’m fine. I’m just not used of the coldness without you sleeping by my side. You should sleep too, tomorrow is your big day, remember? My brilliant pianist......”

Yeah, tomorrow I ‘m having an interview with the author and editors

Who are going to write and publish my biography

The biography of piano prodigy, Lee Taemin

The genius that took the musical world by storm

The amazing son of international renowned pianists, Lee Jinki and Lee Soon Kyu

I should be happy, I should be glad of my accomplishments

But why do I only feel emptiness in me?

Why am I filled with loneliness and sadness?

Why does everything seem so illusory?

So unreal?

Why?

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               This is the first chapter done. Hope you enjoy it. Please comment and subscribe, it always motivate me to write on. Thanks.