"never be afraid to fall apart, because it is an opportunity to rebuild yourself the way you wish you had been all along."

dara's pov

im enjoying the night when i saw a familiar face walking towars me...

"hi..there gorgeous.. " i didn't know how to answer him .. 

"ohh my bad.. im siwon and you are???" he extend his hand.. i try not to laugh

"dara" 

"ohh really.. i have a friend.. named dara.. and she's also pretty and kind.. "

"yah!!! it's dara.. sandara park. choi siwon......... it's me.." i wait for him to react.. 

"no way?? what happened?? you changed.. a little .. haha i mean your still the same right??" he said without pausing

"im still me.. but something really changed and it's for you to find out.." i smirk.. we walk toward the bar, i sit but he's standing closer to me.. 

"i don't know you like clubs.. " he said whisipering on my ear..

"ohh !!! i like it now, and i think this will become my habit .. " i said leaning to him .,.

"by the way ..!!" 

"what???" i asked,, the music is getting louder and louder.

"i saw seunghyun here.. " 

"who's seunghyun." i said in a  icy tone

"ohhh hahaha -i get it!!!.. don't worry i can take his place.. "

"hahaha better yet .. let's dance ... "

"ohh wild one huh " 

the night is getting deeper and deeper, and i can now feel the effect of the alcohol..  i stand up for a while when i bump into someone.. 

"sorry.." i look up 

"hi dara " jiyoung is grinning

"ohh, hi..."

"i never thought i'll be seeing sandara park in a place like this,"

"ohh.. " i don't really know what to say to him .. were not really close you know.. i don't know why ..

"im sorry about hyung" he said. " i know that he is wrong , but are you just going to give up like that , because some bom get on the picture.?? " 

"give up??? ohh im not giving up ji,, im letting go , in fact im happy that he shoo me away, i realized that theres more to life than focusing on seunghyun who in the first place didn't really consider the things that i've done.. " i said and  started to walk,

"but hyung is just comfuse, besides, who told you to slap bom.." i stop when i heard him

", you knew who i am, what i am capable of and you also knew that im not the kind of person that slap someone especially if that girl is my friend.. look the situation is simple.. but what did he do???  he make it complicated . so stop pestering me because of that jerk cause im already done with it .. " i walked towards the door ,, and walked to dark hall , when i met siwon who is really drunk right now.. 

"siwoon ahhh .. who told you too drink too much,, i can't carry you.. your heavy.." i sit beside him

"im not drunk" i cut him "your not drunk ,, ohh so your just intoxicated" i said smile, he pat my head like what he always do ..  and minutes later i found myself kissing him.. but before i can push him someone grab my hand and drag me outside living siwon dumfounded

"what the hell" i burst

"really??? what are you doing here?? " 

"non of your business.. .." 

"your drunk, i'll take you home.. " i nudge him

"im not drunk, and who are you to tell me what to do,and were not even friends.." i said and start to walk but he grab me again. "can you stop, and just go back there...  " 

"tell me are you here in this club to make me feel guilty, and make me see what your worth huh.. !! stop this ok , your being childish and right you look like a wearing that kind of dress.. and kissing guy you barely know...  i want to make it clear to you nothing will change even if you changed your appearance" i can't take it anymore ,, i slap him,,  

"huh??? do you really know what your talking about..??? " i said in cold tone .. " im not here for anybody, and for sure not for you.. and if this dress make me look like a , then what about your girlfriend,, who by the way making up with a guy on the back of the bar..  is that make her ??? huh,, i guess this is the end of everything,, i don't really know your problem, but you don't really had the right to say things like that.. and even if i kiss or make up with that guy, it's non of your ing business, and who told you to dragged me out of the club, and act like a jealous boyfriend.. it's you .." i paused and look at him in the eyes, 

"now your making story for us to break up.. "

"why would i lie??? i don't like you anymore,, seunghyun.. and even if you two broke up i don't care..  that particular night, were you say hurtful things, and didn't even bother to listen to what i say..  tsst., do you think i will still love a peson like you .., i dought it... there's so many man out there why would i stick with you,,," i walked away.. but again turn around " well good luck to you and to your girlfriend ,," i yelled and smirk..  and on que my tears fall  down on my face,, 

i thought this is my lucky day to begin a new life, without  him  but i guess not.. i didn't expect seeing him, and i didn't really expect him judging me, calling me a .. now,,  untill this day,, i will surely forget about him ,,, everything about him ... 

don't worry i will move on and this time, i will really make him regret that he throw me away just like that,, 

end of dara's pov

seunghyun's pov

"i think i need a drink " i stare i just stare at dara.. 

and yes she look stunning.. and of course she's 10x better that bom,,, and i can't accept that fact that she's flriting with that guy .. im really piesed right now, i don't really care about bom, where she is or what she's doing.. all i care right now is to get dara home . i take another zip of vodka, and i remember everything.. remember it clearly, the days i spend with dara.. everythign just keep on coming back ,,  especially that day were i take her to the beach.. .. and i realized that it's all in front of me.. everything i need is just in front of me,, 

im just denying everytime i will have the answere , and yes maybe in not really in love with bom, maybe jyoung is right im just attracted to her,, maybe the one that i really love is  dara, 

all this time, the missing piece that i've been searching i already in front of me, but ignore the sighns ,, i stood and searched for dara

only to find out that she's kissing a guy... my eyes went black my body moves to it's own ... and now im with dara outside the club.. 

"tell me are you here in this club to make me feel guilty, and make me see what your worth huh.. !! stop this ok , your being childish and right you look like a wearing that kind of dress.. and kissing guy you barely know...  i want to make it clear to you nothing will change even if you changed your appearance" i said and right at that moment i want to take back all of the thing s i said to her but too late.

"huh??? do you really know what your talking about..??? " i said in cold tone .. " im not here for anybody, and for sure not for you.. and if this dress make me look like a , then what about your girlfriend,, who by the way making up with a guy on the back of the bar..  is that make her ??? huh,, i guess this is the end of everything,, i don't really know your problem, but you don't really had the right to say things like that.. and even if i kiss or make up with that guy, it's non of your ing business, and who told you to dragged me out of the club, and act like a jealous boyfriend.. it's you .."i now it's wrong and it's a mistake but i don't what im saying right now.... im angry and a little bit drunk

"now your making story for us to break up.. "

"why would i lie??? i don't like you anymore,, seunghyun.. and even if you two broke up i don't care..  the particular night, were you say hurtful things, and didn't even listen to what i say..  tsst., do you think i will still love a peson like you .., i dought it... there's so many man out there why would i stick with you,,,"  she walked away .. am i too late??? is it really over ... i want to chase her but i don't know what will happen next,, i just walked back to the club ,, and yes i found bom making out with a guy.. but it doesn't hurt me at all .. i ignore bom and walked straight to where jiyoung is ... 

"wrong move" his welcome word

"i know" jiyoung take a zip .  "give me a bottle of vodka and tequila" i said to the waiter,,

"just go on and drink .. but remember put the alcohol on your stomach and on you head.."

TO BE CONTINUE 

sorry for the grammar,,, 

.. this just a short update.. 

thanks ..