The green-eyed monster has really taken over me in the past year.

Every little thing was feeding it despite my greatest efforts to control it.

Sometimes I feel like she was too lovable for her own good. Everyone wanted to be around her and to protect her.

It just made me jealous.

I tried not to show it but I’ve never been the best at controlling my emotions.

I often wondered if she knew how I felt when she talked about Jiyoung, her other best friend; or when Amber took her role as big brother so seriously that she ended up calling Amber “oppa” instead of “hyung”.

She had a different type of relationship with each member of the group but everyone knows that she and Victoria unni had a very close bond.

Victoria unni is probably the only one who knows more of her secrets and inner thoughts than I do.

It wasn’t Vic unni’s fault I guess since she did mother us. I too went to Vic unni when I couldn’t go to her.

In the recent art film shoot for our comeback, she had a strange kiss scene with Vic unni where their heads were cloaked.

I didn’t understand it.

It made me a little upset.

I couldn’t watch when they filmed it and just thinking about it gives me pangs at the bottom of my stomach.

Wasn’t it already bad enough that she had a bunch of kiss scenes with Minho oppa in the drama?

No, I didn’t like it one bit.

But worst of all, her image changed a lot for our Pink Tape comeback.

Between the two of us, I always carried the y image while she was the cute one.

This is no longer.

When I saw her outfit for the First Wisdom Tooth video for the first time, my jaw dropped. She was hot!

I loved it and hated it at the same time.