Our relationship was more carefree when we were younger.

It was easier for us to be intimate and show our displays of affection in public. Afterall, it was only “innocent”, teenage girls’ behavior.

Even if people would misinterpret our actions, we didn’t care, it was only between us.

I think it was around the time when Amber was away, injured, and we were on a hiatus that we began publicly showing our adoration for one another.

We didn’t have our third musketeer around so we basically had more time for each other.

I was on cloud nine.

Not that I don’t love Amber as well but their “brother” relationship sometimes trumped ours which made me jealous.

Furthermore, when we were away filming f(x)’s Koala, just having each other made it easier to be away from home.

At this point I wasn’t as afraid to be a little less stiff around cameras and my heart would constantly call for her attention.

I wasn’t sure why but I was becoming more needy not to mention possessive.

It became evident to me the night in Hong Kong when she pulled me under the bed sheets and held onto me.

In that moment, I wished she’d never let me go and that it was just us in the room.

It didn’t help when we were playing around and we had to give each other pecks on the cheek.

Sure, it wasn’t that big of a deal but for some reason my heart raced a little faster when she kissed me.

I really wanted to make sure she felt my kiss back but I also knew that I didn’t have the courage to give her anything more than a little peck.

So I held onto her chin and just went for it.