please don't kill me after this chap :D

Nichkhun was preparing breakfast as Wooyoung was still on his dream land and seems no plan to wake any minute yet. nichkhun had decided to just prepare their breakfast first while thinking about the mystery behind the boy's existence. This thought always gives him no apparent answers and end up with headache for not having any specific answers and this added by another problem

Nichkhun had been trying to persuade himself that what he feel lately is just the result of his depression, that he was ual deprive that's why he got those feelings urge him to kiss the boy or turn him on if he caught any slight patch of the boy's divine skin. When wooyoung pout his lips he got tempted, very tempted to those lips to the point that he hit his head numerous times just so his mind work properly ignoring wooyoung's confuse look asking him if he was ok, nichkhun could just smile and excuses himself.

Nichkhun does not know what's happening to him, the last time he check he was disgusted by just the thought of boy loving another boy or boy kissing another boy or boy with another boy doing intimate things or whatever it was, he's disgusted but last night, he kiss wooyoung and he had the urge to feel more of the young boy and by means, he want to touch the young boy, though he was lucky enough last night he could still control himself and his lips only land on the boy's cheeks who seems shock at first then blush touching the part of his cheeks where nichkhun kissed him. It's good thing the boy was innocent and could only blink and didn't ask why he did that because nichkhun don't know what to answer either

Deep sigh of exasperation did by him, this boy was totally screwing him up, the thing he hated the most was now reaching for him turning him into complete mess but what's odd was he wasn't disgusted when he kissed wooyoung. Wooyoung was unconsciously glowing inside of him, touching his heart and took a hold of his soul yet nichkhun wouldn't let himself fall completely to the boy. He's straight, 1000000 percent straight and considering that the lad is still a total stranger, he couldn't keep him forever for himself because he knew somewhere in the part of this world, there's a family looking for the boy

Nichkhun startled as slowly there's a timid small arm wrap around his waist,head leaning on his back " good morning khun hyung " and there's a sweet after sleep voice ringing his ears fluttering his heart. This is another thing screwed him up, wooyoung himself was getting affectionate to him and nichkhun was sure he will lose this battle if this thing continue

Nichkhun turn a round to wooyoung and give him a cold look " woo..you shouldn't hug someone just like that " he said coldly as cold as ice, wooyoung show weary and sorry expression with various emotion, this was the first time his hyung look at him like that. The first time he had heard that tone. He doesn't want the sound of it because it makes his heart waver for something he couldn't comprehend, perhaps he was afraid that it meant the older was mad at him

" sorry hyung..I won't do it again " he mumble apologetically looking at nichkhun waiting for forgiveness. He's not sure but he already got the bad feeling soon as he wakes up that's why he hug his hyung after seeing him in the kitchen. He didn't mean to startled the older

Nichkhun sigh " its ok just don't do it again, now let's eat " wooyoung nodded and followed nichkhun in the table, his eyes were teary, even though nichkhun said its ok, his voice says otherwise. They eat in silent wooyoung barely move his food. He seems can't swallow the foods because of unpleasant feeling stirring up to him

Nichkhun once again release a sigh and spoke " after you finish your food get ready, I'll bring you somewhere " he said

thinking that it was a good thing, wooyoung's eyes lit up hearing that, he assume that his hyung will bring him in a good place or maybe in the park, he remember nichkhun promise that to him. He smile widely and nodded, finishing his food as fast as he can and dashed on their room to change

" You ready? " Nichkhun ask the boy, wooyoung nodded excitedly. Seeing the boy so excited and happy stung nichkhun's chest but he has to do what he thinks he need to do. two more weeks he's going home. He definitely can't bring wooyoung with him. What he's gonna tell to his parents, he find a boy and adopt him then he fall in love fall in love? no ing way, everything will screw up if he let that happen

Hours of driving, silent envelope the car. Wooyoung doesn't know why but he's wavering he feel that something is not good to happen. That his hyung will do something he's afraid or it was just his intuition. as soon they reach their destination, wooyoung's eyes narrow as they went inside of something he's not acquainted, everyone was wearing uniforms. Nichkhun gives him a bag and ask him to sit. He obey without questioning his hyung even he's scared, his hand was clammy as it start to shake

nichkhun went to talk to one of those men wearing uniforms and pointed at him. It takes a good 10 minutes when nichkhun return " woo.. You stay with them, they'll help you find your family " wooyoung's eyes widen hearing that and grab nichkhun's arm as the latter turn around " wait hyung..where are you going? " He ask wearily, his voice was utterly trembling, he feels like nichkhun was leaving him. nichkhun couldn't stand seeing him like that he prompted out of wooyoung's grasp " I'm going home, you'll stay here and wait for your real family " he said flatly, wooyoung shakes his head desperately " no..hyung, I don't have family..hyung I only have you please don't leave me here..I don't want here " wooyoung begun to cry, begging to nichkhun to not leave him there. As for Nichkhun, he has to swallow hard he already made his decision " woo you have a family, everyone has and probably they were looking out for you right now "

" But wooyoung only want khun hyung, hyung please don't leave me here, if it's because I hug you, I'm really sorry, I promise... I won't..do it again, I will sleep in the next room and I won't do anything you don't like " wooyoung sounds so desperate along with his sobs but nichkhun was determine to his decision " woo listen to me, if you don't want me to be mad at you, stay here and be a good boy " he pointed a finger on the boy then rushed out of the police station to his car, leaving wooyoung who could only cry calling him. He headed home as soon as he get in the car with his ears playing the sound of wooyoung's cry and his aching heart. This was the hardest thing he ever do, why it has to be complicated for him. If wooyoung wasn't stealing his heart he'll probably let the boy stay with him but that's the problem. Wooyoung gradually stealing the pieces of his heart

Just what nichkhun told him, Wooyoung stay in the police station and just sit in the corner hoping that if he behave and be a good boy maybe his khun hyung will come back and take him back home but the sun had already descended and his khun hyung was still not there, he ask those men in uniforms to help him and send him back to his hyung but they didn't listen to him saying they will take him with them if he want to but wooyoung doesn't like that " can you please tell me where to find my hyung? " He ask pleading " sorry kid but your hyung didn't leave any contact information. You know don't look for your hyung, it's obvious he doesn't want you, you can stay in my home if you want to then maybe we can find your family " one of the officer said " no..khun hyung is only family I've got, please help me find my hyung " he beg

" I'm sorry I couldn't help you I'm too busy here.." the officer show his symphaty " its ok hyung I'll find my hyung alone " he said sniping

" then take this, you might feel hungry later " the officer give him money and cheer him. He gratefully thank the officer then left the police station

He cross the street, cross the trees, cross the road, cross the cars, cross the people. he cross everything to find his hyung. His eyes were puffy from crying, his feet hurts from walking with no specific direction, his tummy grumble from hunger and the worst is his heart enduring all of that, that he might die if he don't find his hyung soon because his heart will stop beating soon

he saw an ice cream shop and look at the money the officer give to him. He went inside and give the money. The lady in the counter return his change and gave his ice cream. He sat one of the bench out side the shop. He his ice cream and remember the first time he ate ice cream, he share it with his hyung but now he's alone, he suddenly throw the ice cream no matter how he love it he wouldn't eat one if his hyung don't have one, he thinks it's unfair for his hyung

His feet begun to walk again and drag him to familiar place, he look at the place. he was in front of the place where nichkhun had brought him, he can only cry remembering how happy he's that day when nichkhun brought him into the zoo and how genuine nichkhun smile was but now everything was in contrary, nichkhun was nowhere to smile at him. he sat in the pavement in front of the place hugging his back pack tight, too tired to walk anymore. He watch as the people going and passed him, how he wish one of them would be his khun hyung. He sat there helpless. He'll wait there, he'll wait for his khun hyung to come on that place again