It was as if i was in a different world. I look around the city at night. It is so familiar to me, yet it feels so different. The feeling was building up inside of me as i keep streering the wheel to the hospital. For other people it was just another night when they can rest, watch televisions, play cards, drink all night, but it wasn't , at least for me.

Only for now than i realise I was all alone. I am fighting this alone. Those people didn't know, those people didn't feel. Only on this night, the first night in this week i can think "clearly".

I arrived at the place i used to fear the most. But it wasn't anymore. It's more of like a stairway to heaven for me. I'm going to end all the pains, all the suffering soon. I just need to get it all clear, I just need to tell them, to keep it with them then I can go.

I walked out from my car, tighting up my coat as I walked inside the building. I greet the security men. Most of them doesn't even recognize me as i put up a very nice disguisse. I walked towards the room. They are always there. They are always there, at the right time, to help.

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"Miss, are you sure you want to sign this?"

"It's for the best, isn't it?"

"Then, please do."

I took the pen as i signed on the paper. Just a sheet of typical paper like i signed every time at the fan signing it seems, but it's not. It's between life and death. It's between the earth and the paradise.

I bowed to everyone, saying thank you for the last time, for their help. As i walked away, I turned back to them to take out a piece of envelope from my jacket and hand it to them. Written on it, 'Open the letter when the stairway to heaven takes me in'.

The elevator take me down to the first floor. My feet brought me to the streets. I inhale the night air once again. Tomorrow, the world will be a different world. Tomorrow, everything will end.

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The girls came back after the concert. It was in the morning already. They stayed up all night outside, taking care of Taeyeon, going to the headquarters and such. They are really tired. No one even dared to speak. They were so speechless. They were crying.

It feels empty. A dorm with one member missing. A life without a sister. A group without a leader. Forever. It feels weird. It feels as if they were in a different place. Tiffany's eyes was puffing red. Leaving all the other girls at the living room, she went inside Taeyeon's room and sat down on the chair behind the table. That's when she recognize something. A video camera. She opened it up and a video was played.

She dared herself to look as she took a deep breath.

"Uhm.. hello guys. Hello to my eight sisters. Uh, what to say? It's really awkward talking to you like this... (laugh)"

Tiffany cried. She just can't hold it. Her smile. As if she was there. As if she were talking to her, to them.

"When you see this you probably have sent me to the heaven, to my home, right? It was the night before? I can tell~ I'm a fortune teller just like i told you. Yah, Tiffany yah, Sunny yah, Yuri yah, remember? I was the fortune teller. First to Sunny, you remember when i can tell that you will be the shortest girl in our group before we debutted? haha just kidding. And too Yuri, you.. i told you, you were going to be an actress soon, now look at you, girl! And to my baby Tiffany, there are too much, i can't even tell. (laugh). So yeah.. enough with the introduction and we'll get to the point. First of all, to Girls Generation, my sister, the 8 sisters i love."

Tiffany prepared herself. She wasn't sure if she's ready to listen to it or not, but she can't hold it back anymore.

"Thank you for being my strength. Thank you for walking this way with me from before the debut. It has almost been 10 years since we are together. All those times, we went through hardship together, happiness, sorrow, and joy times together. I would like to say thank you for the last time. There were times that i forgot how improtant you are in my life, but when i wake up to my sense, i just can't stop crying. I'm sorry if I'm not as good as how a leader should have been. All i can do is just keeping you guys beside me. And to Jessica, to my vice-captain. It was nice to know you, honey. The first time I met you, I thought you were the cold girl that will speak to no one. I remember how afraid I was to approach you and as I know you better, you're really fun to be with. I share a lot of tears and stories with you. You shouldn't forget me, okay? (laugh) I know you won't. Sunny-yah.. Uhm, thanks to you I'm not the shortest on in the group (laugh). I'm just kidding, okay. You are one of my best best best best friend Sun-ya! I call you patbingsoo all the time back in those days, remember? I just love you so much and i love patbingsoo so much so yeah, you shouldn't get mad at it. Thanks for supporting me and always be there for me whenever i need you. Thanks Sunny-yah! And do follow as i say, you should get a boyfriend soon! this is the leader's command (laugh)! To Hyoyeon, ah you... ah you.. what to say? How come you're so good at dancing? Seriously Hyo, if you were a guy, i would fall in love with you. You are so y, so elegant, so cool and funny. Thanks for teaching me how to dance. Thanks for being the coreographer of most of the Soshi songs. Do you remember the off air performances we used to do before we debuted? Yeah it was all your suggestion and I'm sorry for suspecting bad things to you. Anyway, cheer up girl! And to.. who's next? Yuri! ah Yuri. I have a lot of things to thank you, to be honest. Even though the fans doesn't have the so called YulTae couple, i know it does sounds weird, but i do think we actually match up well? haha... what is this. Oh anyway Yul, I'm so happy for you. You are casted in dramas and you do a lot of CF recently. I got to be honest, you are getting ier! Woohoo! Thanks a lot for cheering me up. Thanks a lot for introducing me to new people. Thanks for taking care of me and be a good member, a dongsaeng, a friend. I will never forget you and all your kindness, your playfullness, so you shouldn't too. And you... Choi Sooyoung! One sentence for you, don't eat too much! (laugh) I'm joking, don't take it seriously. Oh no, you should. But that's not the main point. You know Sooyoung? thanks for helping me in Japanese. I was so nervous that day i don't even know what to say. Thanks for whispering the words to my ear. Even when i said those words, i don't even know what that means, until today, actually. (laugh). Thanks for always being so cheerful, Soo-yah. Thanks for all the hardworks. I really learn how to love my parents even more from you. From now on, since i can't clean up your room anymore, clean it your self (mehrong). To Yoona... ayoo, my beautiful sister. I hope you got a boyfriend soon! How about Donghae? or Taecyeon? Or Seunggi? Or Siwon? Or Geunseuk? Or... well there are too much. Just choose one nice guy. I'll be judging from up there, so choose well! The fans notice a lot of YoonTae moments lately, right? I would like to have more. thanks for always being the nice, cheerful, happy, and dilligent dongsaeng of mine. You're seriously the best yoona-ya! Need me to say once more? Yoona-yah! you're the best in the world! Unnie loves you!! and to Maknae Seohyun. My message to you is same as to Yoona; get yourself a boyfriend! How can you stay so innocent after all this time? It would be good if i can see you getting your boyfriend one day but it seems like i can't be there for the party? Haha. Anyway, thanks for following my every words. I love you. We are forever the Girls Generation. And oh, the last member, Tiffany. My precious heart. The other part of me, Stephanie Hwang. We have always been together since the trainee days. We would always live together in one dorm. I remember those sleepless night when you always told me how much you miss your parents and I could do nothing but to listen. Tiff, there are  a lot of things i need to say to you. I'm going to say it to you in a way, somehow. I went to the hospital two days ago. I asked to them about my condition and they said it's time to say goodbye and somehow i have to agree. I sign a paper in the hospital. It was about me knowing about the thing. You know the thing. The death. the illness. You can check to the hospital. There are a lot of things you should know. It's too long already now.. OMG almost 10 minutes! So yeah.. to wrap this up, tell all the SONE in the world that i treasure them so much. Thanks for the 6 year of support. I'm sorry for not being able to be there for the 6th year anniversary party. I love you all. This is the last video from Kim Tae Yeon. Right now is Girls' Generation, tomorrow is Girls' Generation, forever Girls' Generation! Farewell."

and the screen turns black.

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Hello guys! The last chapter of this story will be Chapter 6!