A/N: This is written in Katrina's POV

Chapter 2 - i miss you

I sat up to see the quiet angel next to me, Esme... I touched her forehead , feeling a burning sensation that got taken away with a layer of sweat. My poor baby is getting sick.. I watched as her slow breathing caused her chest to rise and fall in rhythm . I shouldn't have yelled at her last night, her make up now tattered her face, always holding onto her ipod for dear life. It was the thing i loved about her. Her innocence, how sometimes i wanted to take it away but conserve it as long as i could. I knew she cherished the same memories we shared, but lately i feel as if she hasn't taken me into consideration. We’re close right Ez? i picked myself from the bed and continued out the door, still hearing her quiet snores. i smiled to myself.. so cute..

I quietly tiptoed down the stairs, i always felt us as a married couple even if she called me her grandma. I'm not even OLD enough for that to even be true! I giggled at how she can make me scowl at times just thinking of her... i walked into the kitchen preparing the pancake batter and glanced at the clock. 9:30? What time is she supposed to be at school again? I shook it off until i saw her phone on the kitchen counter and saw about 10 texts from Ricky.

Babe: Morning baby

Babe: We still on for Friday?

Babe: want me to pick you up from school?

Babe: Are you okay? Kristina told me you weren't at school and called me to see if you were over, what is going on?

Babe: Babe call me when you can. I love you! ♥

I locked her phone at the sight of that last message.. Why am i even mad? she isn't mine.

i slumped over the counter and left her phone where it was and continued to cook her pancakes. I guess Esme isn't going to school.. I smirked then realized i made each pancake into hearts. i giggled and grabbed the tub of nutella, set it on the tray and the plate of pancakes, set a knife and fork with only 3 prongs on it. I know this fork...

Flashback

I put on my apron and as i watched her poke the baking desserts to see if they were cooked, i must have missed an ingredient.

Esme:THEY WERE HARD AS ROCKS!

Esme laughed and pulled out the fork to only see 3 prongs left on it. We fell on the floor giggling, i loved spending time with this girl, she always knew how to fix all the bad endings, if she couldn't she would definitely make me smile..

End of Flashback

I was brought back to reality, shook my head and sat the fork down smiling. I put orange juice on the tray and began my journey back up the stairs, i walked in to see Esme spread out on the bed trying to find as much space as she could, her leg was the only thing covered by the sheets. I smiled, sat the tray on the bedside table and plopped onto her hips, “ Ezzy-poo!” i kissed her nose. i heard a quiet snore still coming from her lips, i began to giggle such a deep sleeper.. i kissed her lips softly.. if only you knew i loved you.. “Ezzy-poo, wake up sleepy head.” i began to shake her uninjured shoulder. She moved slightly looking up into my eyes still squinting and asked, “mama what time is it..?” I looked at my alarm clock and whispered, “10:30 baby..” Her eyes shot open and sat up grabbing onto her forehead. I kissed it as i heard her wince, “baby calm down.. you're too hurt to go to school, i'll call your mom once i get downstairs.” I think she just realized i was sitting on top of her as she began to blush and push me lightly. I smiled,"baby it's my turn to make you happy, just like you do for me." I watched her cheeks glow with excitement, as i stepped off of the bed and grabbed the tray of food, " now let me feed you."

i began to spread the nutella over her pancakes, just as she always ate them and began to cut them, and put the pancake to , “come on baby open up for mama.” She replied still blushing , “MAMA! i can feed myself!!.” i kissed her forehead, “shhh.. baby.. open wide.” She knew i would beat her anyway and she stuck out her bottom lip leaning back, “then promise me you’ll eat the other half?.. have my other heart.. please?” I giggled and felt my cheeks begin to burn, “of course baby.” I fed her all that was on the plate except one, i began to cut the last one until i felt her hand on mine, “uh uh mama.” She took the fork and knife from me and began smiling and pushing the fork to my mouth. i opened wide, chewed and swallowed smiling wide, “ mmmmm.. mama makes good food, no?” I watched as the little girl looked down at the empty plate and giggled as she said, “well i don't want to hurt mama’s feelings.” I gasped, put the tray back on the bedside table and tackled her, “ YOU DID NOT JUST SAY THAT ESME CAPRICE! YOU DID NOT!.” She giggled more and i felt her play with my hair, “you are really pretty when you yell at me mama..” i watched her turn even more red and i settled next to her, wrapping my arms around her shoulders, “well i'm never getting mad at you just so you can get deprived of my cuteness.” She began to pout and sat in bed quiet until a little whisper came out of , “ So what are we gonna do mama? I'm missin’ you insane, but if i got with you, would it be the same..?” i don't think she knew i heard her and i began to blush and climbed out of the bed sheets, “ Come down when you're ready, i'll clean these and call your mom.” I walked out of the room still feeling the burning sensation of my cheeks.. Does she really love me?

i aimlessly started roaming around the house as i called her mom, “ Ai..uh... auntie this is Katrina, Esme has a fever so she is laying in bed, i'll take good care of her don't worry about it. I’ll bring her home on friday if thats alright?” On the other end of the line, “Katrina don't worry about it i'm out of town, she can even stay the weekend if she needed to, please take good care of her and if she needs to be home sooner call her dad. I trust you enough with that.”

I don't think she would have me in such good handling if she knew i loved her daughter. Esme is 11 years younger than me.. no wonder she called me grandma.

“Katrina are you alright?” i heard the voice on the other side of the line. “Oh i'm fine auntie, thank you and goodbye,” I said waking up.“Goodbye Katrina... the line cut off.” I continued back downstairs and washed the dishes we just ate from. Esme..i love you.. I looked down in disgust with myself. I felt arms reach around my waist and a light touch on my neck. “Mama.. are you about to cry?..” i heard Esme behind me. “uh.. no no baby... but your mom said you can stay as long as you need, and i can finally help you with that homework,” i said trying to keep myself in composition. “well whatever you say mama.. but i realize i left all my homework with a friend...” Esme began to pout again as i felt her chin on my shoulder. I couldn't help but smile and kiss her cheek, “How about we watch a movie for the day we have together? Watch one of those scary movies you love and then i can watch Pitch Perfect.” I felt her hold disappear and i turned around out of impulse, she was there giggling covering and stared at me with a smirk, “ are you sure you want to watch a scary movie with me mama?” What’s there to lose? a bad dream? thats what i have my baby for... i began to blush at the thought of her holding me and trying to protect me from all my fears. Suddenly i felt a tug and i was on the couch. This girl is too comfortable in this house. I smiled as the small girl disappeared up the stairs.

I watched her tiny bun pop out from the bed sheets, pillows and her laptop bag she was holding,the bun bobbed up and down as she descended. i couldn't help but laugh as she slid down the last few steps,She popped up abruptly, still only seeing her bun again and i heard her say trying to cover up her mistake, “ You didn't see that mama...” she will always be my lil’ baby. I giggled watching the bun approach me and dropped pillows and blankets revealing a tight packaged girl still dressed in her boxers and muscle shirt, but without knowing she fell on the floor rolling across the blankets. i looked at her confused, she looked up at me and smiled with a huge grin on her face, “ i still have to keep our first date exciting mama,” she continued to roll around, “plus have you seen someone fix their sheets like this?” She grabbed my wrist and pulled me on top of her. Did she just say first date..? she looked at me concerned, “are you okay mama?.. did i go too far?” She looked towards the window but i cupped her face in my hands so she was facing me, “i'm definitely fine baby.. i love you.. i miss you..” i felt my cheeks sting and burn, knowing that i must be the color of a tomato by now. I watched a smile play across her lips as she lifted me up and sat me next to her handing me all the pillows, “let me start the movie then.”

i watched her crawl across the floor and go through her laptop, it's showing everything on the tv screen when i see a title “Big booties” i giggled and tapped her shoulder pointing to it, “baby what is that?” her eyes opened wide and she blushed the most i've ever seen in my life and she answered me, “u-uh mama.. thats just uhma clip of.. what the title says and.. uhm... yeah..” she continued to scroll as i covered my mouth leaning back hiccuping on my laughs. Well, until i saw the title she chose, “Telephone” it's a asian horror about a woman who kills those she calls first. She would choose something like this... I felt her arms tight around me and pull me into her lap. This movie will be a piece of cake. It began to get cold in the house and we covered ourselves in a blanket, eating popcorn i popped before we started watching. i held her hand tight covering my face when needed still jumping in her lap. i know she was probably being entertained from just me jumping.

it started to get dark and i nuzzled into her neck, i didn't realize what i was saying but i looked into her eyes, “don't leave me okay baby..?” She nodded and kissed my forehead, i saw her grab the mouse and switched the movie to Pitch Perfect, she looked into my eyes and replied with a sigh, “mama no matter how much i enjoy you on me.. i don't like to see you suffer.” She is too perfect.. i wanted to kiss her lips so bad.. i.. might as well.. I leaned in close to her lips as they brushed against mine, feeling her breath against my lips i my own in anticipation. She closed the gap slightly giving me a peck on the lips, i pushed harder , she was now below me. She traced her fingers down my back and opened to say something but I kissed her again. She broke the kiss holding me close and she slid her hand through my hair. She whispered in my ear, “i love you mama.. no.. i love you Katrina.” my eyes began to water and she wiped them away from my cheeks continuing, “don't cry my love.. i know everyone won't like this but we love each other don't we..?” i nodded and she turned off the t.v.

We cuddled and told each other exactly how we felt, i traced her facial features and began to speak, “Baby.. i’ve loved you for so long, i just didn't know how to tell a girl your age that i loved you, i mean you are a girl and.. if i got rejected by you i wouldn't know what to do with myself. I don't even know if i could live with myself for telling you. You really are beautiful and you keep a smile on my face no matter how hard times are. Through all my break ups you were there making sure i was doing fine. Even if i found out about ricky the hard way, i don't blame you.. i don't blame you at all baby..” Esme shut me up with a kiss and held my hand, “Babe.. don't talk about Ricky, listen to this..” I flinched as i saw her pick up her phone. I read all those messages already, but i realized she dialed Ricky’s number. I heard her begin to speak softly at first.

“Hello, Ricky...?” i slightly heard the voice at the other end of the line, as i tried to keep quiet , “ Yes baby? is there something wrong?” Esme replied calmly, “Ricky i can't date you anymore.. i just don't love you.. i'm sorry...” The end of the line became quiet and i began to hear slight sobs, Esme hurriedly spoke, “Ricky don't cry.. i'll give you your stuff back and we both can move on peacefully, plus i already know your ing that college chick.” I heard his voice raise as Esme pushed the phone away from her ear, wincing and i remember she was still having headaches, “ NO! WE AREN'T BREAKING UP ESME! WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH TOO MUCH TOGETHER! THROUGH THICK AND THIN! YOU ARE CHEATING ON ME, AREN'T YOU?! YOU DON'T WANT TO HANG OUT AND NOW YOU ARE BREAKING UP WITH ME BEFORE DATE NIGHT?! SO ING SHALLOW.. you know what? nevermind. You were right, i am cheating on you with Kyla. She actually gives me something to love.” Esme looked down in disgust, she squirmed in her seat. so my baby is a ... She cleared her voice and replied, “Yeah, i'll throw your away don't call me again. Bye.” I watched her hang up, i sat there shocked as she began deleting everything about ricky off her phone.

Ez sighed with relief and just held me close, “ Well, i'm all yours now Kat.” She showed me her phone and erased Gmama and added babe instead, she pressed the save button, looked into my eyes and said, “done. now will you love me forever?” I smiled holding her tight, “ill love you forever baby.” She replied, “Well babe.. i guess i'm not going to go to school again tomorrow. We need another day to ourselves.” We cuddled on the couch drifting off to sleep as she hummed cute lullabies into my ears  as we both whispered our i love yous and corny jokes.

please just be mine forever...

My eyes opened to a mysterious figure in black, "what.. What is going on?" The figure replied back,"what are you doing to that poor girl..?" I squirmed as I listened to the figure in front of me. "I'm not doing anything wrong..." A woman popped up in my face and I screamed. I woke up to see Ez rubbing my back and she kissed my forehead, "don't worry babe... I'm here" a sweat built up around my face. "Th-that was a dream? Please tell me that was a dream..." Esme almost choked, I know she was trying not to laugh, "no babe, definitely not real.. I actually couldn't sleep so I've been holding you all night.." I looked up at her, "go to sleep baby, you need it a lot more than me.. But baby I also have work tomorrow.. I can't really call out either because... I did for today last night so I could be with you...." She looked sadly up at me, i didn't know what to do. She became silent, still holding me close and began to purr, “well i guess i'm going to school.” I felt her grip loosen and heard a slight snore, i couldn't help but continue to smile and laid my head back onto her. i really loved my baby.

I lifted my head and turned around to see a pillow, i yawned and looked around. Was.. everything just a dream? I looked down, and tried to find my phone but instead found Esme’s. I scratched my head and began to smell breakfast, what time is it? I pressed the home button to see a picture of a teddy bear winking, i giggled and saw that it was just now 5. I got up and slowly walked to the kitchen, dragging my feet then i heard someone singing, Esme? I heard a groggy voice, “ babe?” She poked her head out and smiled at me and began to speak again, “I'm making us omelets and then i'll go take a shower.” She began to place plates on the table, i looked at her concerned as i noticed she was shaking and trembling still. I wrapped my arms around her and placed my head against her back, “are you ok baby?” she rubbed her head and replied, “im great babe, lets get some food in you so you can go to work.” I couldn't argue with her. I really was hungry.

I watched her slowly leave the room, i had a bad feeling about Esme.. there was something wrong. I began to eat my omelet and sat back in my seat rubbing my belly, i looked at her phone again to see it was 5:30. Ahh...Esme’s phone. I washed the dishes besides her untouched omelet, then climbed the stairs to give her the phone. I heard the shower running and her angelic voice leaving me speechless, i stood in front of the door and listened. I leaned in closer as i heard her sing, the door swung open as my weight touched it. “BABE?!,” Esme began to yell, “ wh-wh-what are you doing?” I covered my eyes and began to blush as i ran out of the hallway and into my room. Then i heard another yell, “Babe.. i'm sorry.. it's just i'm not used to this.” I smiled and replied, “ It's ok! i'm going to shower in the master bedroom!” I continued down the hall and showered, got ready for work and stood in front of the door waiting for my little baby.

She lightly walked down the stairs, still looking weak as she said, “hey mama...” She hugged me and i felt her tremble at my grasp. She was still feeling sick, yet she looked so beautiful still having her hair in a bun. She pinned all her little hairs back and wore running shorts, her basketball t-shirt, her elites as she held her free runs. I continued out the door holding her hand and locking it as we went out. She slipped on her free runs and we went into the car. I kissed her before we took off, we showed up in front of her school right at 7:45 and she sprinted out of the car to her first period. God i love that girl... i pulled out and continued to work. All i could think about were her lips, her touch and her smile.

I pulled into the parking garage and jogged to the elevators with the coffee Esme made me this morning, i noticed a little note against the paper cup. “I hope you have a great day at work today babe, i saw you worrying this morning, it was just my hangover from so much love last night. I love you -Esme” I began to blush in the elevator as my twin sister walked in, “Ka-Katrina?” She smiled at me, “ Ohhhh did someone finally find a man?” Did i mention my sister is married and i'm chasing a 18 year old? I looked down, well i know that maybe this can lead to more, but i'll need to wait a little more. I raised my head back up, “No, just got told that i was cute before i came in this morning.” Aubrey laughed at me as i entered in my cubicle and said, “ Well, have a nice day sis, i heard you took care of Esme. I hope she is fine.” She left but i didn't think anything of it, she said her name.

Now all i can think of is Esme...