I entered the room slowly, with the warmth of Yongguk’s hand wrapped around mine, I felt safe. My gaze stayed on the wooden floor; I bit my bottom lip as memories of what happened in the afternoon replayed. I could still feel how their hands had traced over my body, how his lip moved against mine, how his tongue had every corner, tasting me. I remembered how he kissed me with urgency, being rough all the while.

“Zelo” Youngjae whispered as he pulled me into a hug. I buried my face into the crook of his neck, trying to erase that memory. I felt him pull back before dragging me towards the couch and sat me between him and Daehyun. Yongguk’s warmth lingered where he had held me. I glanced back at him and noticed how he shuffled around awkwardly before sitting on the floor on the other side of the coffee table with Himchan and Jongup. I let my gaze settle upon my hands as I played with them nervously, disliking the silence that had enveloped us.

 I sighed in relief when the sound of the doorbell filled the once silence room. Himchan let a wide smile spread across his face as he stood up and dusted his pants. “That must be the food,” he said to us in an excited tone. I raised an eyebrow at him before I heard a soft chuckled from Jongup. I smiled softly before I felt Youngjae moved closer to me, and whispered, “Took your sweet time with your boyfriend.” I grimaced before I playfully smacked his chest as I could feel my face heating up.  “Now you talk to me. Look who was taking their sweet time now,” I whispered teasingly back. He shrugged his shoulder where we both soon glanced up and watched in amusement. Himchan had just walked back into the room but his cheeks were unusually big. We all started laughing as we watched him choke on the food he had tried to eat without us, Jongup was the only one who wasn’t laughing, and instead he had a worried expression where he kept enquiring if Himchan was okay while patting him on the back.

After he got over his coughing fit, we all relocated over towards the kitchen table where I was between Youngjae and Himchan while Daehyun was seated across from Youngjae and Jongup was across from Himchan, leaving Yongguk to seat across from me. After everyone was eating and chatting amongst themselves, Himchan leaned over towards me and pouted before whining to me, “Zelo can you please pass me some of that chicken over there?” I could see how his eyes briefly flickered towards Yongguk and Jongup where both of them watched us with narrowed eyes. I bit my bottom lips as I tried to hide my smirk as I lean over the table and stabbed two pieces of chicken with my fork before I placed them in front of Himchan. He grinned before he began to lean forward as his mouth opened.

“Ow…” Himchan whined as he glared at Yongguk who was glaring back at him. Himchan stuck out his tongue at him before he quickly ate the chicken. Yongguk stood up and furiously stabbed some more pieces of chicken with his fork and shoved them roughly into Himchan’s mouth with one hand while the hand was holding the back of his head. Jongup had stood up in between the childish quarrelled trying to get Yongguk to calm down before Himchan started to choke again, the rest of us began to burst out laughing at the three. After a while we settled back down to a comfortable atmosphere. I had a soft smile on my face the whole as I realised just how natural and right it felt just to be with them. It was like we knew each other forever although I just met all of them today. I was on my spoon when I had glanced up and spotted Yongguk staring at me. Despite what he told me before, I couldn’t help but want to get some reaction from him as I let one of my leg briefly brushed against his. I watched slyly as he stiffened in surprise as he probably felt it. My eyes widened in surprised when I realised that he just pouted at me. He pouted! My mouth hang opened as I was astonished by him, he smirked at me before I felt something rubbing my legs ally. I squeezed my eyes shut as a soft moan made it past my lips. I felt Youngjae lightly pat my back as he whispered in my ears, “Zelo…Why did you just moan?”

I pulled back from him and sent him a tight smile. “Err….that cherry tomato I just ate was so good,” I breathily answered. He nodded, seemingly satisfied with my answer. I glared at Yongguk as I moved my foot teasingly up his legs. He gasped quietly as he felt my foot rubbing against his manhood. I smirked as I continued to do that, noticing how he was growing harder as my legs played with it. I bit my bottom lips to prevent the many fits of giggles that threatened to appear as I skilfully slipped off my both of my socks, and placing them on my lap. I continually ate normally as I let one of my bare foot slipped underneath his pants, rubbing his leg. I felt him shiver slightly. I watched him and was amused as of how he did nothing to stop me but instead kept on eating. He kept his face hidden though as I smirked when he had stiffened as I brought my feet up towards his thighs. I massaged around the area of his manhood as he would shift and twitch in his seats every now and then. Slowly I placed one foot on the floor while I rubbed the other softly against his junior. He dropped his fork in surprise, before quickly picking it back up before anyone noticed his strange behaviour.

I could feel him being completely hard by now as I paused briefly to let one of my feet fiddle around, looking for his zipper. As I began to pull down his zipper, he abruptly stood up from the table and ran out of the room. I smirked in his direction while Himchan had chased after him screaming, “What’s wrong?”  The rest just shrugged, as they were too preoccupied with eating.

After a couple of screams from Himchan, he walked back into the room and sat down beside me quietly. We all raise an eyebrow questioningly at him as he just kept picking at his food. A couple of us had asked him what was wrong but he refused to answer us as he kept his head down while his face was furiously blushing as it looked like he was biting his bottom lip to prevent himself from laughing. Yongguk finally returned to the table after almost all of the food was eaten. He finished the rest quietly as he was also madly blushing. I bit my lip as I realised why Himchan and Yongguk were quiet. It must have had something to do with Yongguk and me playing footsie.  

(A/N: I’ll let you guys decide what Yongguk was doing when he disappeared)

“Yongguk? Why did you walk off earlier” I asked softly. He sent me a weak glare before he began to move the dished over to the sink. Everyone chuckled softly at his reaction as we all began to help pack up.

By the time we were finish cleaning up, everyone was seated back in the living room while watching a show running. It was a nice quiet. I couldn’t help but let my mind wander, as I realised that I didn’t mind having them around me. It felt so…so natural, just being here with them. I pouted as my thoughts deepen, why was I like this with them…..I could never had make myself comfort with any amount of people I just meet. The sound of laughter broke my thoughts as I quickly glanced around the room, confusion swimming in my eyes until I realised they were laughing at something from the television.

It was afterward before anyone spoke. Daehyun started to complain to Youngjae about his change of number. Everyone smiled at the pair before Youngjae let out an annoyed sigh and pulled out his phone. He handed it to Himchan, causing more shouts of protest from Daehyun.

“Put your number in,” Youngjae muttered as he watched his phone being passed around as their numbers were being shared. I turned around, startled as I noticed Himchan hovering over me. I smiled back at him with my eyebrows raised. “Zelo, can I have your number as well … Since you know we’re friends and all now…” he asked. I nodded and grinned back at him as I slid my fingers into the back of my jeans to pull out my phone. I felt relief cruise through me as my phone was still intact despite what I was put through. I started to laugh as I noticed the other boys who had finish putting their number in Youngjae’s phone began to crowd around Himchan, as they waited for their turn. After putting his number in and passing the phone to Jongup, Himchan handed me his phone. I quickly grabbed it and punched in my number. Soon people began to hover around me. Himchan chuckled as he realised. “Want me to just send them all your number?” he asked. I nodded as I sent him a relief smile, sparing my fingers from the pain of having to type my number on all of their phones.

We stayed together, with the television becoming the background noise, late into the night. It wasn’t until the sound of Youngjae’s ringtone calling for his attention that we realised how late it was. He walked swiftly out of the room where his mumblings can be heard. I bit my bottom lip and glanced at Yongguk from under my fringe. We all turned back to watch the television but with our ears focused on Youngjae. Himchan muted the TV when Youngjae treaded back into the room. We all glanced at him questionably as he sighed and motioned me to stand up. I stumbled my way across the room until I reached him.

“So my mum just called to tell us to get our asses back home,” he chuckled loudly while he wrapped his arm around my waist. The rest of the boys jumped up and gave us a tight hug as they said their goodbyes and soon we were crowded in the hallway, exiting the house.

I breathed in deeply and laced my fingers with Youngjae as we began to walk away from the house. The other boys were still at the gate, as we strolled down the dark silent streets ourselves. “Zelo….I’m sorry,” Youngjae whispered softly towards me as his voice cracked. I tightened my hold on his hand and whispered back in an equally cracked voice, “I know…..I know Youngjae….”

We stayed silent for the rest of the trip to my house. I knew he felt guilty because of how he was unable to fulfil his promise but I could never be angry at him. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply as I strengthened my mental barrier that had blocked those traumatising memories of early today. Soon, just a bit more and I can cry again….just a bit more and I can break down completely, I thought desperately as I longed for my bed after the reminder.

My house was dark and no lights were on, I could tell that my parents were asleep already. Youngjae gave me a quick hug as he said his goodbye and turned around to walk towards his house. He lived directly across from me, and I smiled fondly at his back as he crossed the street. I entered quickly and locked the door. I took my shoes off and left them near the closed door as I began to silently jog up towards my bedroom. I franticly ran to my bathroom and violently tear at my clothing before stepping into the shower, not caring whether the water scalded me. I have to burn those clothes later, I thought disgustingly as I eyed the pieces of materials on the floor.

I bit my lip as I started to violently rub against my reddening skin, trying to erase the memories of hands touching me everywhere. I began to pant as broken sobs made it pass my lips when I realised that instead of forgetting, the memories became stronger.

I turned off the water and quickly dried myself as I realised that the shower was pointless, instead of cleaning me of the memories, it only got rid of those physical reminders. I left my shredded clothes and stumbled towards my closet as I was still trying to silent my broken sobs. I didn’t want to wake my parents up and worry them anymore than they already have. I yanked on my briefs and sweat pants before crawling into my bed. I pulled my old stuffed rabbit towards me and cuddled it tightly against my chest. I started to continually heave and cried into it, finally allowing myself to release all the emotions within me. I didn’t know how long it was nor did I even remember falling asleep as my conscious finally left me, allowing my sore eyes to rest.

Zelo's Suffed Bunny :)