Sungmin’s POV

Why did he push me out of the washroom like that? It almost felt like he was scared of me. Recently, he’s been acting very weird. Yes, I was angry and upset about him stealing my first kiss and it weirdly seemed like he’d do the same a while ago back there in the washroom. But strangely, that was nothing but a fraction of my stupid thought.

And he’s not as bad as I had initially thought him to be.

Those comforting hugs and the caressing, gentle shoulder he gave me yesterday to cry on and spill everything from within my heart really did help me calm down.

Neither have I seen him angry recently, nor has he been giving me a hard time. He’s been very calm and understanding towards me after umma’s death despite me giving him cold shoulder most of the time. I think I should stop feeling scared or upset around him.

So what if he’s gay. So are Donghae and Doctor Hyukjae. That doesn’t make them abnormal and me more normal.

But he did steal my first kiss…

Should I really think about that kiss even after such a long time has been passed? It’s not like thinking about it and being upset will return that lost kiss back to me, can it?

Umma, what should I do?

And what about Siwon-ah? We cleared out the misunderstandings long back but I still can’t help but feel like he does like me in a way a guy shouldn’t like another guy. Am I thinking too much? May be I am. This doesn’t really make sense. There is nothing in me that can make others fall for me. If that were the case, then I would have had a girlfriend by now.

Yes, I’m thinking too much. I should really stop thinking about non-existing things. Life will be much simpler that way.

I should rather cherish what I have now. Life is simple, though weird but I’m finally starting to get the hold of it.

Umma, I’m living well, right? Don’t worry about me. Nari-ssi and Shindong-ssi are really taking care of me as good parents. And Donghae really is a very good and cheerful distraction. But he gets out of control most of the time due to his hyper activeness. And not to forget,

They are super weird…

But I love them already.

Speaking about that kid suffering from ADHD, never in heaven I ever thought he’d turn gay… or bi maybe. It was just yesterday that he was talking about liking a certain girl back in his high school days and how he had a big crush on her but was rejected due to his childish behaviour.

And what about that other time he told me about a girl back in his college who had tried to flirt with him but he was unaware of it and gave her a cold shoulder unknowingly but realized only after one of his friends pointed out the obvious? And he had been too distressed about that because he was nearly going to get his very first girlfriend.

And just a while ago, I saw him making out with Doctor Hyukjae….

Is it really so simple to change ones ual preferences?

And if I remember it right, Doctor Kyuhyun was not gay four years back. According to what Shindong-ssi told, he turned gay just recently. I wonder what made him change that.

Sungmin-ah, Stop thinking about others! It is not your business about whatever gender others chose to fall in love with.

I should probably hurry back to the bus stop or I’ll miss the bus and miss my evening snacking. Recently, my stomach has been getting much less attention and umma will feel bad if I don’t get back to my old routine.

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No one’s POV

Kyuhyun was back in the bar he had stopped coming to. He desperately needed to get wasted tonight. He had to vent his frustration out on something or someone and he wanted that someone to be none other than his ultimate love rival, Choi Siwon. But since that wasn’t possible, all he could think of was his beloved tequila shot. He knew he couldn’t get wasted on wine alone and he definitely couldn’t get wasted in his expensive house when some foreign delegates were busy being taken care of by his professional parents.

Yes, that particular alcohol shot didn’t taste as sweet and elegant as his wine collections stored in his cellar back in his luxurious house. But it definitely helped him get intoxicated and let his mind wander freely.

Taking his nth shot, he was still not free of the images of Siwon smirking at him upon holding Sungmin’s delicate and soft hands. He himself had touched those hands just a few times but it was never with Sungmin’s own consent other than that very first meeting two months back. The happy glint in Siwon’s eyes when he entered the hospital with Sungmin, that look filled with nothing but love towards the shorter male that Siwon was giving to Sungmin when entering the hospital, that distraction Siwon deliberately did to prevent Sungmin from seeing Kyuhyun, they were all constantly invading his thoughts. And the daydream he had when he was locked in that washroom