~~It has been 5 years since the time that I last saw him.

Until now, I don’t know where he is or what he’s doing.

I always felt guilty about it.

If only I have loved him with my whole heart at that time.

If only I became true to myself and don’t care about what other people said.

If only I treasured him as much as he treasured me.

But what can I do? I am blinded by my love for another person! I hate my heart for that! What a stupid heart! It only realizes the true importance of a person when that person is gone…

But now, my heart is aching so badly… I want to see him again... I want to tell him the words I am not able to tell because of my weaknesses and lies.

Actually, I have loved him the first time we met. With that cute face, those sharp eyes that pierced my heart, his tricks that made me excited and of course his smile, a smile that can take away your pain, although it took some time before I saw that smile… How I wish I can still see that.

And yes, how can I forget… His voice…Something that I will never be tired of hearing. His voice is very precious to me. And the first words I have heard from his mouth… I have never forgotten those words. It was the first time that someone said those words to me.

If only..

If only..

If only he is not my brother.