Chapter Eight - It's Hard For Me To Say I Love You
Am I Engaged ?
I dropped the letter at the floor, terrified. I gulped and closed my eyes. Yookwon be strong, be strong. You do not want him to leave. You lo - lov ... I cannot say that. I called to my mother; she did not answer her phone. I tried to call Sunhwa and failed. I must do something, must... Must stop… Minhyuk... From leaving. I do not want him to leave. I sighed and took a deep breath.
"Hello?"
"Siwan Hyung.."
"Yookwon - ah, what happened? Everything's good?" He asked anxiously
"He's going to leave," I said and I bit my lip
"Who?"
"The one that .. That day... Restaurant ..." I said awkwardly
"?The one that kissed you"
"Yes"
"Ah, I see. Where is he going?"
"He's going to go away and never come back," I said, my voice breaking
"Where is he?"
"He's at the airport and I do not know if I get to see him- "
I'll take you to him," he said and hung up"
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"Hyung" . "Yes, Yookwon?" Siwan replied. "Can I ask you something?". "Yes" "Once .. Have you ever loved someone?" . Siwan sighed and continued to drive. "Hyung?". "Yes," he said, never taking his eye off the road. "What would you do to get that someone?" . "Everything" he said uneasily. "Hyung, I hope you will get that person." "I hope so too" he smiled at me quickly and then turned his gaze to the road.
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Hurry, I must hurry. That's all I thought. Hurry, run faster. It was 8PM and I had to rush to the airport. I ran quickly after I waved Siwan goodbye and thanked him for driving me to the airport. I ran quickly. Exhaling and inhaling. He is going to England. "Oh .. Sorry?" . "Yes?" Asked an old man with a suitcase. "Do you know in which direction are the flights to England?" I asked. "Yes, young man. Turn left and go down the stairs," he said and smiled at me. "Thank you, sir!" I smiled at him and he smiled back. I bowed to him and ran quickly to the left direction. I went down the stairs, panting. I have almost no air. I looked around. Minhyuk should be here. I looked around and did not see him. I kept looking. I went through the crowd. "Sorry, sorry," I said as I pushed my way through the crowd. Where are you Minhyuk?
An hour passed. But I was not discouraged and continued to search for him.
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"I promise you," said Minhyuk. "I promise you I will not leave you." I giggled and hugged him, "Awww Hyung it's so emotional" He hugged me back. "Look!" He said, pointing to the sky. We were out and the stars shone. "Huh?" I looked at the sky. Minhyuk surprised me with a kiss. "Hyu-!" . He did not let me speak. And I slowly closed my eyes, kissing him back.
I put my hand on my chest, where my heart is. "Idiot ... you promised ..." I muttered to myself sadly, still looking for him. "Ouch!" I gasped in pain when someone ran into me. "Oh - sorry," said a familiar voice. I lifted my head up, "Park Kyung!" I called his name. "Kim Yookwon, what's up?" He asked. "Where is Minhyuk?" I asked. "Oh ... He told me not to say if you will come here." "What!?" I yelled "Park Kyung, I swear if you don't tell me where he is I will revenge you." "You do not" he chuckled. "You want to see me?" I asked with a wicked smile and pointed at Kyung. "Help! Thief! Hel -!"."Shut up!" He put his hand over my mouth. "I'll tell you where he is," he sighed. "His flight leaves in 20 minutes, he is there," he pointed at a group of people standing further away from us. "Thanks Kyung" I said and bowed. I ran quickly to the same group of people that Kyung pointed at and started searching for Minhyuk. I noticed a tall guy with a sunglasses and a hat. His hair was dark brown and he was handsome. I looked at him. I felt that he is looking back at me through his sunglasses. I felt that the time stopped around us. Like... If we were alone, together. He looked at them and then looked down. "Minhyuk-ah" I called his name softly. My voice sounded so clear like.. We where there, just the two of us. He gave me a look and I approached him. I removed the sunglasses over his eyes. "Why?" A tear rolled down my cheek. "There's no point to me to stay," he said, seemed so far away. "Why?" I asked. "What's the point? I promised you that if you remember me I will go. You do not want me around either ..." He said his voice harsh and avoided looking at me. I took his hand and dragged him to an empty place in the airport. "I....." I looked at the floor, biting my lip, "I do not want you to go." "Why? There is no point to stay," he said again. "There's a point" I said "You are so selfish sometimes. You think you care about me, you think its good thing to me if you will go but basically you just want to run away. Every time you run away from me. You run away without telling me before many years ago and now you repeat on same mistake. Would you like it if I forget you again? Would you like it if I'll cry and I'll never forgive you? "I cried, " My heart hurts. I feel heartache when you're not with me. Every day I come home and see you I feel like I can be happy again, I don't want you to leave. Please don't leave me again, alone" I held his jacket tightly. "I will not let you leave! Do not you leave me?"."Tell me the reason. Tell me the reason why you do not want me to leave," he said. "I can't ..." I said "it ... It's hard for me." "The flight to England begins, please hurry up and get on the planes." Minhyuk started walking toward the exit, towards the plane. "No!" I held his jacket tightly as I trailed behind him. I hugged him, "I do not want you to go!" I shouted. "Why?" He asked again and stopped walking. He looked at me. "I want you to tell me the reason, why you do not want me to leave? If you won't tell me the reason I'll go" stiff voice hurt my heart. "I. . . I... do not want you to go because... Because... I ..." My voice trembled and stammered. He began to move back toward the plane; "I love you" I whispered and looked at the floor. He stopped and looked at me in shock. "Kwon-ah?" I cried harder "What did you say?" He asked me. "I love ... you ..." I said softly. And I fell on the floor. I heard footsteps going away. I did not want to look, I did not want to look at him go away. Go away and never come back. I hide my face with my hands and cried like I never cried in my whole life. I felt a warm hand pulling me and help me to stand. "Th - Thanks" I said without looking at the person who helped me. He hugged me. "Kwon - ah, you are acting like a baby." I felt the warmth of his body and two warm arms hugging me tightly. "H- Hyung?" I said, still crying. "The flight to England starts now!" The voice echoed throughout the airport. "I didn't know ..." He said "I did not know that you have feelings for me. I thought that you remembered me but... I didn't think your feelings were still there, inside your heart." "I guess my heart never forget you" I said, crying. "Come on," he said and carried me on his back, out of the airport
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A\N: I'm so sick T^T
I'm sorry for not updating and I'm sorry for the short chapter TT^TT
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