unlike kibum, alexander tried to be as positive as possible..its just not like him to mope around anyway..that's what fans love about him the most..xander is naturally a happy person and he can make sad moments a happy one..

but when he is alone, xander can feel the emptiness of not being with his dongsaengs..the one he loved the most aside from his family and the kissmes...

he was kicked from ukiss but somehow he ended up staying with the company still..he feels bad alot about his other brother tho..and he too feels the unfairness of things...

"how are you son?" uncle A asked his son as they talked on the phone

"i'm not going to lie and say im fine dad but im not a wreck either..." alexander answered tying to avoid making his father worried..

"what's your plan?"

"well..i will do my best to prove to them that i am Alexander Lee Eusebio for a reason..."

"haha..that's my boy..just keep in mind you have us, you have your fans and most of all you have God..so don't ever feel like your alone..you can get through this.." uncle A encouraged xander who at the moment can't deny the feeling of missing ukiss so much...

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Alexander keeps in contact with his dongsaengs especially with soohyun...He knows soohyun is somehow having a hard time adjusting to having everything put on him since he is the leader now, but he also admire his dongsaeng for not giving up....

"hyung we miss you" soohyun said with a noticeable tone of sadness from his voice..one alexander knows that his dongsaeng is not smiling tho he can't see him

"i miss you too...how are the boys doing?" alexander asked

"well..kevin is still adjusting...eli and kiseop are ok..and dongho..well he has his moments especially when he misses you.." soohyun answered

"how are the two new ones? i hope you are treating them well..."

"neh hyung..we are treating them well..they are actually nice people..but you and bummie not being here just screams incomplete"

"soohyun ah..i know its hard..but we have to accept that me and bummie aren't part of ukiss anymore..but we are still friends..brothers....so just do your best..and do well...neh?

"neh...i promise we wont let you down..and i promise to at least be almost as good as you with leading the boys..."

"alright..give my hugs to the boys especially my kiseopie and my baby maknae..." that is how xander usually ends his phone conversations with soohyun...sending virtual hugs..tho he would prefer hugging them in person...

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xander continues to connect with his fans through twitter...something kissmes appreciate alot..so to give back...kissmes voice out their support for the former ukiss leader..

Xander Land...which is xander's dreamland is one of xander's ccreation that made him closer to his fans...to kissmes this is a place where they can be with xander..a place that is built in xander and all his kissmes...

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xander is a happy person..so his goal was to be happier..and to do that he promised himself that he will succeed..he will give all his best...

xander motivates himself often..to keep himself from breaking down..he thinks of happy memories..to avoid getting lonely..

"i am Alexander Lee Eusebio..i am who i am..and i will be who i am supposed to be..fighting!"