It is 8 pm now. I’m sure my families are coming. I heard my uncle’s laugh just now and Halmoni has been knocking my door for three times. But what I could answer is silent. I think she gave up now. Christmas eve, white night, white sky, everything made me remember about him, and I’m too coward to face it, too afraid to know that he isn’t here.

*flashback*

I made small campfire in front of my house, too lazy entering house with my families. It must be warmer inside, but I do not want to join them. As an excuse, I said that I’m waiting for someone. I’m not lying, am I? I really am waiting for someone, waiting for him change his mind and willing to come, exactly.

Please come Hero Jaejoong, so I will not regret my decision to make this campfire outside with this ing cold weather.

One hour…… two hours…… four hours……. And the ing five hours! He is not coming!! It is midnight already

“Damn it!! Is it so damn hard to change his mind?! Aaarrggghhh…!!!! I can’t believe it Jaejoong!!!! I’m ing love you! I love you so much so why couldn’t you come just for a while, giving me your icy stare and cold smile! I like it, I like it so much though it is hurt me a bit!!!!” tears drop from my eyes. I don’t ing care about it anymore.

My fire had dim leaving the burning woods. My hope gone, I promise I won’t remember about him again.

Crack………

What sound is it?! It comes from small forest not far from me. Yeah, my grandmother wants to make a big garden, but it turns into small forest.

“Who is there?!!” I shouted “I said who’s there?!! Show yourself or I’ll come and punish you because I’m not in good mood!”

I bring a small piece of burned wood, it still has small fire. I can hear sound of cracking louder when I reach the small forest.

“Stop! Don’t ever dare to take a single step to me with your fire!!” I hear that sound, it’s really familiar. I turn the wood in front of my face to look who’s speaking and find Jaejoong standing frown about three meters in front of me.

“Ya!! Jaejoong~ah!!” I took a step closer, but he avoids me.

“Don’t ever come closer with your fire!!” he took two steps back, screaming frighten.

I throw the fire far from us and pull him to my hug. He is sobbing badly and hugging me back.

I tried to make him comfort in my arms, caressing his silky hair, back, and kissing his forehead, anything to