*DING DONG*

I was started from my work, the lastest volume of "StarLight Manor" wasnt gonna organize itself i remeber telling Suho as our work tripled because of the rising popularity of the manga , they said after a few more volumes it might even be adpated into a anime. When it first came out i got my own copy but wasn't much interested in the plot myself so i gave it to chen who then gave it to Luhan who proceeds to harras me and ask to me the author any chance he sees me. "It not even that great its just a basic drama" i said as i sat across from them a week later celebrating new years at a small hole in the wall resturante. "EH?" his eyes got big and his mouth hung open "how can you not like the main cast or the blooming romance or or HOW MUCH SHE LOVES HIM" he whined dramatically as i calmly drank my tea across from him with a static expression "you know its not re-" He cut me off by shoving a cookie stright into my mouth while patting my head and giving me and eye smile saying "don't ruin my fun kyungsoo" he cooed at me while i just ate it and went with the flow. Chen all the time just snickered at us from beside luhan looking up from his drink every once in a while and eatting here and their, things had gone well for him. After the caroling and present exchanging in which he gave luhan a beautiful ring with the phrase "你我的一切" engraved in it. I can't read chinese but i did as Luhan after dinner that day what it meant and he blushes and pulled the scarf around his face tighter and just clung onto Chen as he held him closer. Im sure it means something good i thought as i saw them walk off together. 

"Here you better give this to Luhan before he starts hounding us for it" he said putting first copy on my desk. "Yeah yeah" He sat down from me "You know i actually kinda like it" he said as he started to read the first page , scanning each detail , endulging in the story. "Your just a big kid" i sad as i put his hat on and gave him his coat, "Tell me if you find any errors in their or any smudges or you know what i mean" i said as packed his thinks for him since he was too into the book to really do anything himself, although he did break away to give me and hug and wave goodbye as he walked out the door and reminded me to "go home soon and do the rest of that stuff later". And so i did but as i was starting on it suho called me and said it was all fine and to just order the 500 copies instead, and as i just hung up with them and was about to start going over more work when

*DING DONG DING DONG*

"okay okay im coming" i said as i hastily tried to  put on some decent clothes before heading to the door and opening it to a sight that was seemlingly errie like when you go to school and get called to the principals office being stared at from the sad eyes of your parents, in this case two makes in uniform where stating before me with a envelope, they said "Are you Do Kyungsoo?" I nodded numblying feeling this mornings breakfast already start so slowly climb its way up my throat. "Partner of Park Chanyeol?" Even though they hadnt said why they were hear i had already started to tear up not caring how i looked anymore i just held my face in my hands and ignored what they were saying , their small pats on my back did nothing  for me. They put the letter on the counter and just walked away, of course though what else can they do , they just told me my world was gone without even saying anything. All these years of waiting , gone useless my life has been nothing and will never be anything without him i wailed and cried and banged on the floor but nothing seemed to be anymore. I just layed their, i don't know weather i was sleeping or not or what time it was at this point, i hadn't bothered to showere or eat. I think i stayed on the floor for 3 days straight , until suho came over worried sick once he saw my state and called a ambulance to come get me it was then in the hospital i told him what happened. He asked with caution what the letter said but i told him i didn't have the heart to look. Who wants to read about some army being thankful for what your husband did if you never undstood the whole war to being with or why they were so secretive and why they didn't keep him from dying. It just made me more and more mad the longer i thought about it

A few days went by and i just stayed in the house never going to work or bothering to clean, suho had covered for me in saying i was "greving" and Luhan and Chen had tried to stop by but i never answered the door but they always left stuff when they did come.I started to hallucinate and star seeing him around the house calling my name, smiling at me, holding me but in the end i would snap out of it and wake up. It was still their untouched, the letter on the counter no one had brought it up anymore after the hospital and i never had the courage to open it but i figured it would clear my mind and help me move forward "he would have wanted that" i hold it in my hands and read accross the address and return, it was bleak and looked like it was printed by a machine and not even hand wirtten as i suspected, i shook away the thoughts and grabbed the letter opener. 

The loud sound of tearing paper echoed across my worried empty house and i opened it and felt my hands alot the edges of the hurt that would soon come to me. When opened i made sure to read each sentence as slowly as possible and take in everything at once so i wouldn't have to read this again. In a formal and robotic nature it said the following , "We the national army are sad to inform you of Park Chanyeol's dissapearance, we issues a recon a few days ago at 700 hours on the 20 of November and was suppost to take 2 weeks to do but has since then taken much longer than needed. We went to send troops to search for him but no such luck after 3 weeks of searching and has been deemed Missing in Action (M.I.A) be sure to pick up his belongings at XXXXXX...". My breath stopped and i just stared at the words before me "missing in action" so their was still hope, he isnt for sure gone. A smile crept onto my face as my body was filled with such warmth. It didn't last long as worry and doubt just fell from the ceiling and landed on my head at full force make all these thoughts in my head get louder and louder "where is he? is he hurt? what happened to him? where did he go? will he come back?" i thought about waiting and i thought about how much i have already waited.

In all my years i didn't think i would ever be able to make a descion like this one, you might think its insane and pointless and others might applaud me or you may be just in different on the whole thing but as i was packing my things and heading walking out the door i wrote one last letter to the man i love/loved. "Dear Chanyeol, i got your letter in the mail today, i've decided to come to you instead so don't worry about waiting cause im coming to you alright. Sincerely - Kyungsoo" i put the letter in the box and sit it on the bed instead of putting it on the shelf this time. I make sure to leave a seperate note for suho or luhan (whoever would break into my house first) explaining my decision and why to them. I walk the streets until i reach the bus stop and load my things in. I look at the sky one last time and think "what would you do if you were me?"

Later that same Evening

Heavy footsteps can be hear coming up to the door from inside the apartment a odd but familiar sound is happening a old friends meet each other , the key and the door. A man with curly hair pulled up in a pony tail pesk his head in and called out a name once common to the place. "Kyungsoo! hey kyungsoo im back" he got no response so he ventured in deeper and scaned the room, laying down on the cough and breathing in the fresh air and smiling brightly into the darken atmopheric place. shouldnt he be home by now? he got up and walked around the place and started searching for a note or something. He found one addressed to Suho, Luhan and Chen in the kitchen sayin how he has left for go find me. "that can't be right , im right here? why did you go?" He saw it finally by the stand in the bedroom the note the army sent laying on top of a box on the bed, once open he say hundreds and hundreds of notes upon notes each one dates and from kyungsoo himself even the last one he wrote to him. He didn't have time to read them as he ran out the door though. To the place where they made their last fairwell

You don't have to wait anymore okay?