[Siwon's POV]

What had just happened? Was Kyuhyun serious? I'm actually worried about him. I need to talk to Kyu about this, about us. I hope I'm not confusing things but he just said he likes me, well, he practically said that he loves me. And I love the maknae too of course; I loved him since the first time I saw his shy, scared face when he joined SJ.

But what kind of love is this? I care a lot about all the members and right now, I can't imagine how my life would be without them. They're more than friends to me, they're my brothers, and I would do anything for them. I try to be close to all of them. At first, I was closest with Eunhyuk and Donghae because our ages, but when I started to get to know the rest more, I discovered all of their amazing personalities and qualities, and I became close to all of them.

However, I think I have always had a soft spot for Kyuhyun. At first I thought it was only because he's the maknae, but I never acted as consenting with Ryeowook or Kibum as I act with Kyuhyun. And it is strange actually, because he's not excatly the sweet, innocent type that I like; he's pretty much the opposite.

He likes making fun of me, talking informally, calling me names, teasing me about my eyebrows or whatever feature he thinks is funny... but he also cares about me, I know he does. I've noticed him getting concerned when I'm sad and he always looks after me. Sungmin says that when I'm not around, he complains of how nobody can't keep up with him at games like I do, and that he gets grumpy. He always says that I'm the most handosme on the group, and he even said that I'm one of his 3 most loved band mates. But does all of this mean that he loves me, more than a friend?

I don't know myself what exactly I feel for him. Like I said before, I had always liked him and loved him as a friend, but is that all I feel? Is this what he really means to me?

All of this thinking is befuddling me. I need to talk to him before making my mind, in fact, I think it would help...

I couldn't take Kyuhyun and his call out of my head for the whole day, though. I was so anxious to know what he had really meant. I was sure I was freaking out over something that really didn't mean much for him. Maybe he is just joking as usual, maybe he wanted me to buy him something, or maybe he had too much wine...

Whatever it is, I must find out tomorrow.

[End of POV]

Kyuhyun was taking a bath early in the morning. He hoped that the warm water would help him sort his head out. He was nervous and expectant. He was curious about what Siwon was thinking or wanted to say. After the call, Kyuhyun felt like such a loser. He couldn't belive that the almighty Cho Kyuhyun had just confessed to a man, most importantly a band member, most importantly Siwon.

He blushed as he remembered their brief conversation but he couldn't take anything back now, and he didn't want to. He loves Choi Siwon and it's time for the other to know.

Kyuhyun got out of the bathroom and as he was putting on some jeans and a blue V-neck, he heard voices from downstairs. It seemed like that others were greeting somebody. Crap.

He started to walk from one side to his bedroom to another. His heart was beating fast and he could feel his mouth drying out. He was so worried about what Siwon could say that he totally forgot to think about what he would say.

He stopped in front of the mirror and looked at his reflection. This is it, it's now or never. He was about to talk to Siwon face to face, he was about to spill his heart and expose it for the other to take, or reject.

Kyuhyun opened the door with shaking hands. He peeked at the corridor to make sure no one was near and he sighted in relief when he saw nobody. He turned around to lock the door when he felt a slight tap on his shoulder.

"Min, I was just about to go downs...."

"I'm not Min, Kyuhyun-ah"

Kyuhyun could feel his heart beating like crazy, like if it wanted to escape from his chest. A drop of cold sweat traveled his spine and he closed his eyes. Siwon was there, ready to get an explanation, and Kyuhyun doubted he was ready to give it to him.

"Are you ok Kyu? Are you feeling sick?" - Siwon's concerned voice said, rubbing little circles on the maknae's back.

"I-I'm ok, hyung... l-let's just talk, ok?" - Kyuhyun stuttered as he opened the door to his bedroom.

He sat at the edge of his bed, not able to face Siwon. A lot of things were running through his mind and he couldn't get hold of himself. He wanted to tell Siwon everything he feels for him and how much he loves him, he really did, but no words were leaving his mouth.

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