Kim Hyuna POV:

This is ridiculous.. I cant do this. I pace around my room frantically with all my Super Junior oppa's posters and pictures watching me do so. Im a mess, this is-- just retarded. I flop onto the bed violently and almost crack my neck, I flip around and start kicking the air to show my frustration. Summer vacations have just started almost 2 weeks or so ago, yet I miss him already. And I hate myself for doing so.

"What have you done to me..?" I murmur to myself and fight the urge to cry.

*knock knock*

"wae..?" I answer lifelessly.

"Hyuna-Ssi!? What happened here?!" My mom shouts at me upon seeing the mess I made while destroying my room in frustration just a couple moments ago.

I glance at her with tear filled eyes, I tried not to let them fall. But-- I cant do anything right..not right now.

"Aigoo.. Hyuna. Why are you being like this..?" My mom says sadly as she places herself on the edge of my bed next to me.

"...It hurts again umma, I thought you said it wouldnt hurt anymore? I promised myself I wouldnt cry and get hurt again, why am I doing this again?" I whisper as it feels like my heart is lodged into my throat.

"It hurts.. Kim Hyuna. It hurts, because you love him." mom says to me with comfort

I glance up at her and feel my heart shatter itself again, and right when I thought I was fully composed and back to my senses..tears begin to flow harshly and I cant help it anymore-- I cant breathe.

"Hyuna, why are you crying again?!" my mom exclaims in surprise.

"Im crying because its true.. I love him but I cant have him. Im crying because no matter how much I tried it wasnt good enough. Im crying because I shouldnt have been so stupid to love like this in the first place.." I say breathlessly

I feel my mothers arm pull me into a tight, warm embrace. Patting my long hair with her hand like she always used to whenever I would fall apart inside. I missed my mom, more than anything. Even if she hasnt left I could hardly feel her around me anymore, I grew up and then I got hurt, and just like I did when I was 6.. Im back in her arms again crying like a baby.

~5 hours later~

4:00 AM:

I open my eyes, and it hurts like mad. I find myself lying my head on my pillow that has been almost thoroughly soaked with my tears, I feel tears flowing from my freshly opened eyes instantly. I cant feel anything, I feel hollow.. A bunch of thoughts crowd themselves into my mind, but I cant feel anything. Have I broke my heart beyond repair this time..?

Thoughts of the times I was once happy being by his side, smiling even though I couldnt have him run around in my head and a tear rolls down my cheek. I wipe it away and when I get to my feet and with less than 3 steps I fall to the floor and I cant move.. I cant breathe.

♪♫ Love..What To Do-Yangpa(Revised English Lyrics)♫♪

Just like the rain shower that suddenly pours
That person drenches me
Suddenly, without my permission
That person stole my heart

I can’t push that person out
I can’t take a single step
The person grows like a flower in me

I hope you will pass, like the passing wind
So even the memories won’t even remain
Just smile and promise not to cry
Don’t leave a single photo of us
Promise that we won’t make a memory

Suddenly, in case we really become like that
You make my heart tremble, you bad person

That person is making me smile
That person is so warm,
That person is becoming my day

I hope you will pass, like the passing wind
So even the memories won’t even remain
Just smile and promise not to cry
Don’t leave a single photo of us
Promise that we won’t make a memory

Don’t love me, don’t make me love you
Like the beginning, treat me badly
Don’t love me, don’t make me love you
If I become crazy with happiness at just the thought of you
What do I do with this love?

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Kim Ryeowook POV:

I jolt up in bed and feel a pain in my chest. I hyperventilate for a brief moment but I regain myself within a couple of minutes. I switch on the light in one swift movement and sit upright in bed, I reach over and grad my sketchpad. My sketchpad.. expresses who I really am more than I dare to. All the things that run through my mind, all the people that run through my heart.. find their way into my sketches. I flip through the pages-- Kim Hyuna..on almost every other page.

I run my fingers across the delicate paper containing a sketch that took me hours to create. Kim Hyuna-- I truly do miss her.. how is she right now? I shake my head sadly at the thought of our last parting..

-Flashback-

"Whatever.. just-- " I sigh frustrated

Hyuna's eyes glare at me with such intense coldness and heat I can t move. I stare at her back sheepishly, but I am forced to glance away to avoid her burning gaze. The fireworks suddenly start and I see Hyuna's face glistening in the fireworks light. With her hand touching the rim of her bottom lip, her hair flowing down to her back, but even so I sense her anger. I see her eyes trained on me with a look of pain and anger.

The rest of our friends discuss our next meetup and such, but nor Hyuna or I seem to be interested. The others continue chattering away and I glance over and find Hyuna staring intensely at the bright colored firework scene in front of us with tears in her eyes. Hyuna..please dont cry so much anymore.. I clench my hand into a fist and scold myself mentally. Its your fault Ryeowook, you are the one to always hurt her. I wish you knew how much I truly do love you--

I feel a girl grip herself onto my arm, and I glance over to find Heo Yijae beaming up at me. I stare at her coldly and shake her off my arm. I glance over to find Hyuna out of sight. I spin around several times in hopes of finding her but its no use.

"Where did Hyuna go..?" I ask Sohee curiously