Kim Hyuna POV:

/sigh.. i scratch my head in frustration as I stare at the letter than is in front of me at this moment.

"Kim Hyuna, why are you still doing this..? Didn't he hurt you enough to wake you up from this hopeless love..?!" I mutter to myself, before I begin to read the letter one more time..

" This letter-- is pointless. The damage has been done, and we both know we can't change what has happened. If you didn't know how much I loved you.. it was so much more than anyone expected me to.. I got hurt once from loving too much, and I prayed to god you wouldn't do the same. Play the game that no one really ever wins, make a girl fall with no intentions of catching her. It's a game I was part of too many times, but its my fault I didn't learn quick enough.  Forgive me if I smile, it's just to hide my fears. Forgive me if I laugh, it's just to hide the tears. It's all I can do, pretend it doesn't hurt when in reality I'm getting torn apart and it's driving me crazy. and as desperate as it sounds I wanted to be the reason, you wake up smiling and be the person you fall asleep thinking about.. but that wasnt the case and I get it now, and even after all that, It's hard to walk out on someone you love but its even harder to walk back in after you have been hurt. It's stupid, why do I run back to you only to get hurt again. What did you do to make me love you this way, why can't I leave no matter how much I try..? It's amazing how stupid you can be when you are in love. But I wonder, did you ever love me? Was I ever the last thing you thought about before sleeping..? Did you struggle through the day just to see me, like I did with you? did you cry yourself to sleep because no matter how hard you tried, that one person would never love you the way you loved them. did you wait for that one person that meant the world to finally return your love? did you get your heart broken seeing that person love someone else, then disregard your heart completely..? I did. I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to say. So much I wanted to tell you, ask you.. so here it is. everything I think of everyday, go on and read this.. read me, read my thoughts. Love is a cycle. You love, you get hurt.. then you hate and you forget. You start to miss the person, and eventually you fall back in love. I learnt that when I met you. I tried so hard to move on and forget you and give up on this unrequited love-- but I couldn't, i still cant and i don't know what scares me more; that you will never start loving me, or that I will never stop loving you. this is my fault isn't it, my fault for loving a friend I couldn't have.. I was setting myself up for a broken heart and buckets of tears. I knew I couldn't have you, no matter how long I waited and how hard I tried. But-- even so, I'll still wait&try even if it takes forever..then maybe then-- Will You Ever Love Me..?"

How did I fall in love with you?
How can it hurt like this?
I’ve never wanted anyone this bad
Can I touch you if I say I love you a thousand times?
Can you know my heart if I cry and beg in vain?

Should I try hating your name a thousand times?
Should I count all the resentments?
Although I know this love has already grown too much
Because you aren’t me
You won’t feel the same way as I do, will you?
Yes. It’s me who likes you more

Even if my heart is wounded 9 times
It’s okay if I can smile once
Because being with you is my happiness
Even if you seemed unfavored just once
I’ve never taken it easily
I did everything you told me, whatever it was

Even if my waiting is as long as one thousand years
It’s okay if I can see you
One day, one month, one year
Though I know you won’t come
I toss and turn endlessly
And fall asleep as I wait for you, wait for you

When can I see you in a comfortable way?
When can I get rid of this greed to have you?
I want to know everything about you
From when did you live and hide inside my heart?
It has become a deep thorn that I can’t even take out

Even if my heart is wounded 9 times
It’s okay if I can smile once
Because being with you is my happiness
Even if you seemed unfavored just once
I’ve never taken it easily
I did everything you told me, whatever it was

Even if my waiting is as long as one thousand years
It’s okay if I can see you
One day, one month, one year
Though I know you won’t come
I toss and turn endlessly
And fall asleep as I wait for you, wait for you

I wanna keep you
Can’t give you to anyone
To me there’s only you, if it’s not you
being alone is more comfortable to me
Again, like yesterday, at this place
It’s me waiting then waiting for