"i'm home" i said cheerfully as i reached the dorm

but it's empty. sigh they aren't home? well i have to prepare the food anyway

i open the refrigerator, look inside it and decide to make some kimchi stew

i prepare the food on the table and wait for them to get home, since i lost my cellphone, i can't ask them to go home early or ask them where they are, so i eat alone.

i hate eating alone. reminds me of the old day. i finished eating quickly then decided to take a shower

i had just finished taking a shower when they enter the dorm

"finally home" taemin complained

"yo" i greet them

"eo, min you're home. Taera told me that you'll be home late" key said

"yep, btw i made some food. It's in the dining room" i grinned

they rushed to the dining room with me following behind

"wahh.. This smells good!" onew praises

"geurae?" i smile happily

"yah min! you can be a good wife!" minho pats my back

"eih, what wife. I don't want to be married yet" i grumble "whatever, just eat it while it's still warm" i said and get the rice for them

"naee~" they answer in unison. i laugh, how can they be so silly.

they eat happily, then i notice, jonghyun isn't here

"where is jonghyun?" i ask

"dating" key answered. i can see onew looks slightly upset about it.

"ah, then i'll go studying first" then i leave them. onew looks kinda upset whenever we talk about them. maybe.. he likes sekyung too?

i open tae ra's book and start to read her notes. i stare blankly at her book. wth? i don't understand. at all. i sighed and cover my face with the book.

then someone come in, i put the book down and look at him. it's onew

"...i thought you're studying?" he puts on a stupid face

"err... yes, i'm studying. but this is kinda hard for me. i don't understand anything" i answer flatly

"may i take a look?" he sit beside me

"sure" i show him the book

he read it, and teach me the whole thing.

"so do you understand?" he ask

"eung! you are a good teacher! i don't know that you are a genius!" i said, amazed

"i am" he said proudly

"then you should teach me the other lessons too"i grinned

We have to keep moving, so I show him all the other lessons that i need to learn

he keep teaching me until it's midnight

"Finally done!" I let out a relieved sigh

"Good job" he smile and ruffle my hair

"What time is it?" I ask him because he's wearing a watch

"Whoa..it's midnight, for real?" He check the time and it's 12 o'clock

He walked outside. I thought he checked the time, then he go back to the room

"Where is he" he said angrily

"huh?" I didn't hear it clearly because I'm yawning

"Jonghyun" he said then he call someone. I think it's jjong.

"Ah, that guy" I yawned one more time "I'll sleep first then" i say and lay on my bed

"Don't you feel angry?" He ask suddenly

"Angry? why?" I ask

"Your fiance is staying outside with his 'girlfriend' somewhere" He said, still busy calling jjong

"It's okay, I don't give a anyway" I say without thinking

"Except when he left me for her" I added

He sighed "so, it's okay if he doesn't return tonight?"

"Don't return? uh.. well, at least he should tell us first where he is" I said after thinking for a while

"Aish, why are you so naive, this girl" Onew ruffles my hair

"Mwoya, that is what my grandmother used to say whenever someone ask me to go camping or staying somewhere" I scrunch up my nose

"Well, she is his girlfriend" he emphasize the word girlfriend

"So.. Staying out late means.." I finally get what he mean

"Yes, do you understand now why I am so worried?" He sit on the bed and bury his face between his palm

I decided to sit beside him and pat his back

"It's okay, he won't do it. She is different. You know that, right?" I said

Then he lift his face and stare at me "I'm sure jonghyun won't betray me, but what if she ask him? Jonghyun is really weak around her" He sigh. I can see he is really worried

"All of us have sacrificed so much things and opportunities that we had in our live to become like this, to become SHINee, to pursue our dream. And all those will be gone if he make the slightest mistake. What should i do now?" He look at me.

I become speechless. He is right. But I'm really sure that jonghyun will not do anything to her.

"I don't mean to be selfish or anything but this whole group's life is in his hand now. When the news about the two dating spread out, our fans will be extremely upset. And we will go through some hard periods, and the one that suffer the most will be him." he stopped and lift his face upwards. His eyes are teary

"You've been doing good. If anything happen it's his fault, not yours" I finally manage to say

"But I'm the leader, don't you understand?! I'm responsible for SHINee!" he shouted suddenly

I feel kinda scared and become stunned for a while

"Sorry, I don't mean to" he said apologetically

"I-it's okay, I'm just shocked" I said, I was scared actually

He sighed one more time, he look down. I can't look at his expression anymore, but I got a feeling....

He is crying.

He think that he screwed everything

He looks so troubled

My body moves spontaneusly to hug him

I his back slowly, like what mothers do when their child is crying

He looks so fragile, I never see this side of him. I don't even think that he have ever show it to the other member

He bury his face on the crook of my neck

I can feel his warm tears wetting my shirt

it's late already, everyone else is asleep. I can hear his sobs in the silence

I try to find some comforting words

After a while I said

"you know when you shouted just then i'm actually really scared. But you're right. Then this is your responsiblity. All choices is in your hand, actually you can do many things these whole time. You can just hurt sekyung, or ask your manager to break their relationship, but you didn't do it. Instead of hurting them, you help them to continue their relationship by hiding the truth. You did the right things oppa. You just have to continue what you did".

i stayed silent, thinking of the words i just said

I hope i say the right words. I don't want to burden him more, he already have too much burden on his shoulder

He breaks the hug and say in serious tone "min hee, please help me. You are the one who can help me, help us." he said

"Sure, i'll do my best" I say

"Please don't let her ruin our life, especially jonghyun's"

"What do you mean?" i frowned

"I have a feeling that she will. Remember that she ever dumped jonghyun?" he look at me

i nod "she left him for other boy" i mumble

"Yes she did, that's why. She's back because of something, and i'm sure it's not a good thing" onew hold my shoulder

suddenly we hear the door opens, we look at it together

it's jonghyun. "Jonghyun-a! where were you?!" onew hurriedly rushed to jonghyun

"mian, sekyung is kinda weird today. she want me to stay at her place"

*badump* i can clearly hear my heartbeat just then

it was right. onew was right.

"did you...?" i mumble

"i refused it. we aren't married" jonghyun answer, smilling

thank God. i smile too. "Yah, min-ah, why are you still up?" jjong look at me questioningly

"A-ah, i've been studying with onew oppa. We didn't realize that it's late already" i grin.

"Alright since jjong's back too, let's sleep. We have things to do tomorrow" Onew say

"nae" i hurriedly rushed to the bathroom and brush my teeth

i feel so relieved when i heard jjong's answer. i wonder why?

i walked out from the bathroom, and jonghyun rush to the bathroom and take a bath, onew is about to go to his room

"MinHee-ah.." onew called me. "eo?" i face him

"Thanks for earlier" he smile softly

"Ah, nae" i sheepishly smiled

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