Characters: Kim Myungsoo, Hwang Tiffany, Krystal Jung, Kim Jonghyun, Hoya

Quote:  "You will never miss the water till the well runs dry."

Prologue

The papers flew and spreads all over the floor making a huge mess as Myungsoo releases his anger, his frustration and his stress. I watch the room that I cleaned up just a second ago turn into a post-war battle site. I stood there, still and silent, and observes him. I knew that this would happen, it has become a part of my daily routine now. To clean the room and watch him mess it up all over again, try to comfort him, fail and then a lecture or scolding would come my way... from the almighty Top Spy in the ITSSF.

Sighing, I bent down and pick up the papers from the dark green carpet floor. Piling them together, I press it up against my chest tightly. I knew not to place them back onto the table, as Myungsoo would just knock them off again.

“Myungsoo-ah.. Hajima.. Calm down.” I call softly. I knew that my soothing voice would have some kind of effect on him. As soon as he heard my voice, his breathing starts to slow down and he turns silent.

I walk up to him and slowly wrap my arms around his waist. Holding on I whisper into his ears softly. “Myungsoo-ah. It’s alright. Everything would eventually be solved. You need to calm down now, you need to stay calm in order to solve this case, you know that.”

Suddenly I felt his heartbeat accelerating again, it was coming. But why? What did I say that had triggered his emotions? What was it this time? Normally, I would know what I did wrong, but today I had no idea. My mind's blank and I wait for him to speak.

Myungsoo shook off my arms violently and I felt myself falling backwards, loosing my balance. Fortunately, a desk was right behind me, I grab on to it and regain my balance. I stood up straight and wait for him to declare what was wrong with what I said. More like I waited for him to denounce me.

“Miyoung-ah! How many times do I have to tell you? This idiotic case is hard! And I can’t calm down, even if I do, it won’t work! I’ve been through… no more like WE”ve been through this a million of times. You know! So why are you still trying to use this stupid method of yours to calm me down! You know it doesn’t work, so why?! Why do you do that and make me mad! UHH So annoying and useless!”

I stood there, shocked and startled. My mind's still blank as I had no idea how to rebut, how to reply him. I knew that he felt that sometimes, but he never directly told me that, he had lectured me before, he had scolded me before, but it was never about this. Never about how annoying I was, it was usually about how I hadn’t packed the right papers, sent the wrong email to him, didn’t help him enough. Never had he ever said that I was useless… useless… really? Did he really think that? An urge for tears start to rise inside me, but I kept it in. I’m used to this, I can get through this. Hwang Miyoung just stay strong. You’ve been through this for 8 years now. You can get through this. Everything will be fine.

“Talk! For goodness sakes are you a mute!!?? When you go and meet with your friends, you talk a whole lot. When I actually need you to talk, you just stand there like a mute and say nothing! Seriously Miyoung! Speak Up!”

My heart sank and I felt like sinking to the floor and crying my heart out, but I can’t do that… I have to hold it in….have to.

“S-Sorry” I said half choking. Tears were already half way there, I knew that. But No, I can not let myself go, not in front of him.

“Mian? Is that the only word you can say! Look, if you can’t do this then just go back to that police station that you used to work in. Ok? Go back there and have a good and stable life!” Myungsoo yells frustrated.

I couldn’t believe what I heard. Didn’t he know about what happened at the police station that I used to work in? He knew what happened, so why is he bringing that up? How can he say that, how can he remind me about that horrifying moment…. The moment of my own parents dying right in front of my eyes… and the reason they did leave me was because of... me.

Luckily, Myungsoo decides to walk out of the room just that moment. As soon as Myungsoo had his back to me, a tear rolls down my cheeks and I start to sob uncontrollably.

Suddenly a loud “BAM!” could be heard and I knew Myungsoo had left the room.

I stagger to the chair nearby and sits down. I place my arms around my own shoulders and began to cry. My parents… those hurtful words that just came out from .. him. It wasn’t from anyone.. it was from him. The guy that I had been with for the past 8 years. The one that I cherished, I protected, I looked after. How can he do that to me?

I cried and cried into my arms. I stayed there in the silence all by myself as the sky turned dark outside. And I fell asleep right then and there.

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Breathing In the fresh air, I finally calm own. Now that I have calmed down, I might be able to figure out this over complicated case. Suddenly Miyoung’s guilty and sad face appear in front of me. Those words that I said, wasn’t it too harsh for a girl like her?

I knew that she was a strong, fearless girl, but still wasn’t reminding her of her own parents’ death, especially in that situation a bit too harsh for a girl like her? My consciousness made me realise how cruel I was. All these years, the yelling and shouting and blaming, it wasn’t all that of course. We had our good memories too, the time when we fished together in the river, and we ended up being soaked from head to toe. Just thinking about that, and that huge smile that Miyoung had on her face made me feel happy. Then why? Why had I acted like that to her? All these years? I myself did not have an answer.

Oh well.. I guess its already a part of our daily routine. I’ll just treat her to ice cream later, like what I usually do. By then, she probably will have forgotten everything, and things will go back to normal.

I sat down in front of the computer and start to reinvestigate the case, forgetting everything that had just previously happened. It was all washed away as the case sank back into my head.

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Myungsoo thought it was all alright, and that everything would go back to normal. Little did he know that Tiffany’s heart had already began to crack. There were small chips and fractures around her well built confident heart. She was already on her way, gradually on her way..... to giving up…