LUCKY
LUCKY
Chapter 6: 5 WAYS TO MOVE ON
Amber's POV
Moving on.
That word.
That damn word.
Why can't I move on ? WHY ?!
I just found that tears were already flowing from my eyes.
I want to move on. No.
I NEED to.
But how ?
How can I move on ?
Baro: Noona, dinner's ready.
I didn't noticed my brother's presence.
I didn't even noticed that he came in to my room.
Me: ( Didn't answer him. I just stood up from my chair and went to sit on my bed. )
Baro: (went near me) Noona, something wrong ? I noticed you're very pale today. Are you sick ? (concerned tone)
Baro really knows me.
He really knows when something's wrong with me or not.
I love him for being like that.
Baro: (sits beside me) Noona !~
Me: Baro, tell me, have you ever tried to move on ?
I looked like a dumb for asking my younger brother that kind of question.
I know he was surprised.
I know he'll definitely say no.
Baro: Hmmm.. yes I did. (looks at me and smiles)
Amber: You have ?! (my eyes grew wider)
I was more surprised on his answer.
As far as I know, he never had a single girlfriend.
Baro: Yes. When a girl I really really like had a relationship with someone who is really important to me. I have to let go of the girl and forget my feelings just to make that person happy because that person is more important to me. (the smile that was on his face earlier was now .. gone)
Me: Then what did you do to move on ? (I curiosly asked.)
Baro: Well.. just had fun.
Me: FUN ?! (I don't know what he means with his answer.)
Baro: (shifted his gaze) Ne~ I just tried my best to forget everything about her. I hang out with my friends..Recreational things. Just tried anything that will let me forget her.
Me: (murmur) I see.
Silence filled the room.
I looked at Baro's face and saw the sadness in his eyes.
It's the first time I've seen him this.. sad.
He used to be the cheerful and caring brother who always smiles.
Sometimes I doubt if he could also feel sadness or loneliness.
That moment, his cute baby-face was covered with sadness.
Baro: (looks at me again) (smiles widely) Ohh.. come on downstairs noona. Mom's gonna be sad if we let her eat dinner all by herself.
Me: Ahh.. ne~ You go first, I'll just do something.
Baro: Okay. (smiles) (stood up from my bed and was going to go out from the room)
Me: Thanks !
Baro: (turns back) No problem. (winks)
Baro never fails to make me smile.
But the Baro I've seen tonight was way too different from my younger brother.
Maybe he's hiding something from me.
After dinner.
After finishing my meal, I immediately went upstairs.
I went to my room and locked the door.
I sat on my chair and took some papers and a pen.
Me: (drops my chin on my hand) Aishh.. What should I do ?
After almost 5 minutes of thinking.
I sat up straight and begun writing.
" 5 WAYS TO MOVE ON"
Yeah. I seem like crazy.
But if it's the only way for me to be able to move on, I don't care if I look or act like crazy.
Me: I'll start you tomorrow. (stood up from my chair and went to bed)
Me: (lays on my bed) Goodluck Amber.
I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
Morning.
As I opened my eyes, the first thing that came to my mind was the list that I made last night.
Will I really do that ?
That 5th way, can I really do that ?
I'm really out of my mind.
I should erase it.
I rose from bed , stood up and went to the study table.
I took the list and pen.
Just when I'm gonna erase the #5 way written on my list, a part of me says not to do it.
I don't know why but there's really something that keeps on saying not to erase it.
I'm confused.
Me: Okay.. (sighs) (placed the list and pen back to the table)
I went to the bathroom and took a shower.
After shower, I wore a simple white shirt and blue jeans.
I heard my phone ringing.
It was on top of my study table next to the list.
I took it and saw Henry's name on the screen.
Me: (thinking) Maybe he's still worried about last night.
" Hello Amber ? How are you ? You okay now ? "
Yes, I was right. He is still worried.
Me: Yes. I'm better now , don't worry. I'll move on, promise.
Henry: Move on ? You sure you could do that ? (doubtful tone)
Me: (looking at the list on top of the study table) Just trust me.
Henry: Okay , as you say so.
Me: Uhmm.. bye gotta go.
Henry: Going out ?
Me: Yes.
Henry: Where ? (curious)
Me: To have fun. Byee~ (I already hung up)
I put the phone inside my pocket.
And went downstairs to have breakfast.
I head to the dining area and saw Baro sitting.
Me: Good morning. (smiles) (sits on the chair)
Baro: Good morning. (smiles widely) (cute eye smile) Seems like you're in a good mood today.
Me: Yeah, I'm just following your advice.
Baro: (curious) Advice ??
Me: You know , the move-on thingy. (grins)
Baro: Ohh.. now I get it.
Afer eating breakfast , I went out.
I was standing outside our house.
Me: (thinking) hmm.. Let's see. What can I do to have fun ? (crazily asking myself)
I really don't know what should I do today.
Ugh. Amber, why didn't you think first before making a move ?
Anyways, i can't just stop what I have just started.
And who knows, this might work.
Besides, I made a promise to Henry and I don't want to break it.
I don't want to fail my besfriend.
-- End of Chapter 6 --
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