Am I Not Worthy Enough to Be Yours?
Sing Me A SongAnother trembling scream escaped Jongwoon’s lips as excruciating pain took over his whole body and all the memories came rushing back to him when he saw none other, than Kim Heechul.
Changmin and Ryeowook’s fighting came to abrupt stop when Jongwoon’s scream pierced the somewhat quiet hall.
“J-Jongwoon.” Ryeowook said worriedly, quickly moving away from Changmin and reached towards his lover, but JongWoon let out another frightened cry, and scrambled away from the younger.
“Y-You’re in ‘Tuxes’.” Jongwoon whimpered, literally scooting away from Ryeowook on his .
Ryeowook froze and his expression darkened. He was really hoping Jongwoon would just accept it.
Accept that he’s a member of ‘Tuxes’ already.
He knew that the elder greatly disapproved of him being a member of a gang.
Heechul just glanced down at the dark boy in distaste as the other members of ‘Tuxes’ approached Changmin who was scrambling to run away.
“You remember everything.” Ryeowook whispered, though it was not a question, but a statement.
A bitter laugh escaped Jongwoon’s lips as he scrambled back up onto his feet, glaring at Ryeowook.
“I bet you didn’t want me to remember!” he snarled.
“No, Jongwoon! That’s not what I wanted!” Ryeowook said desperately, feeling tears stinging at his eyes under his lover’s hateful glare.
He didn’t want it this way.
This was not supposed to happen.
“Then why, Ryeowook? Why!?”
“I-I…..I want to stay in ‘Tuxes’, but I want to stay with you too, Jongwoon. I love you. I really do.” Ryeowook said quietly.
“Love me? Love me?! If you love me, you wouldn’t be so selfish!”Jongwoon yelled.
“Woon, I’m sorry.” Ryeowook cried, reaching out blindly for his lover, but the latter just slapped his hands away.
“I don’t want you to say ‘sorry’, Ryeowook! I want you to leave them!” Jongwoon said, grabbing the boy’s wrist and shook the hand with the silver ring at the younger’s face.
Ryeowook stared nervously at the silver band on his finger, to Jongwoon’s begging face, and then to Heechul who just stared back nonchalantly.
He wanted both.
‘Tuxes’ is his life.
Jongwoon is his love.
His world would be incomplete without either.
“I…….I can’t.” RyeoWook whispered, surprising his lover as Ryeowook gently pulled his wrist back out of the elder’s grasp.
Another bitter laugh escaped Jongwoon’s lips, except this time, it was filled with despair and defeat.
“I should’ve known.” Jongwoon laughed bitterly, almost sounding hysterical by now.
“I finally get it now. You weren’t afraid that you weren’t good enough for me. It’s me that’s not good enough for you!”
Ryeowook’s head snapped up immediately as he tried to find his tongue again.
“N-No! Jongwoon, No! That’s not what I meant at all! You’re perfect! Beautiful! Everything!” he stammered quickly.
“THEN WHAT IS IT?!” Jongwoon screamed, hot tears trickling down his cheeks. “If it’s not that I’m not good enough for you; then what is it, Ryeowook? Am I not worthy enough then? What is it you want from me, Ryeowook?! I’ve given you everything that I can!”
“No, please, Jongwoon.” Ryeowook sobbed, collapsing down onto his knees as if he was begging for Jongwoon to stop, and grasped the front of his lover’s shirt beggingly.
He wanted this to end.
He didn’t want to fight anymore.
“I gave you everything.” Jongwoon choked out, before pushing RyeoWook away harshly. “I don’t know you anymore, Kim Ryeowook.” He whispered, taking a couple of hesitant steps back as Ryeowook grabbed for him desperately.
“I don’t know you.” Jongwoon repeated, before quickly spinning around, and ran away down the hall.
“No! Jongwoon! JONGWOON!” RyeoWook screamed, stumbling after his lover, but was stopped by Sungmin.
“Don’t, he’s not worth it.” Sungmin whispered, struggling to hold the young boy down.
“No! Let me go! He’s everything to me!” Ryeowook cried.
His whole world seemed to crumple around him as he watched Jongwoon running figure disappear around the corner.
“What about ‘Tuxes’ then? What are we to you?” Sungmin said sternly.
Ryeowook said nothing and just collapsed against his hyung, crying uncontrollably.
He had no answer, for they both were his whole life and world.
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Yay~ new chapter!
We have.......around 2-3 more chapter's left of this story, depending on where I want to end the chapters........hm.......
anyways, poll for you!
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