While Gulf was thinking about stargazing in Maldives with Mew, he suddenly jolted in surprise when he felt someone placing a blanket on his shoulders and when he turned around, it was New. "You might catch a cold. You're even wearing thin clothes." "Pi... P'New..." He softly muttered. New just gave him a smile before he sat beside Gulf.  "W-what are you doing here? Why are you still awake?" "Calm down, I will answer your questions. Just one at a time." New softly said as he let out a small chuckle. "I went down to get water at the kitchen and then I saw you going out and sat here all alone. I can't sleep, so I decided to sit here with you." "Ahh~ so you can't sleep as well. Thank you for this by the way." Referring to the blanket that New put on him. Gulf held the blanket and wrapped it around him as he could finally feel the coldness of the air. New hummed and nod as a response, then he took a glance at Gulf's feet dipped in the water. "I remember P'Tong saying that you don't like the water." "Yes, I like the ground more." He casually answered. "But you're dipping your feet like that. It seems like you don't really dislike water that much." Gulf glanced at his feet dipped into the water and he snorted. "Hmm, I actually started liking the water." "What makes you like it?" Gulf took a quick look to New before he shifted his gaze to the lake in front of them. "My fiance..." He smiled. "He likes the water so much." The clock read 12 midnight when First woke up from his sleep, he was about to close his eyes and went back to sleep when he noticed that Gulf's bed was empty. He looked around the room but there wasn't any presence of Gulf. He silently got off from the bed and went out of the room to find Gulf. Since it's his family house, he could help Gulf if ever he needed something in the middle of the night. He tried to check him at Mild's room and at the toilet, but Gulf wasn't there. He went downstairs, he checked the kitchen and living room, but still he wasn't there. And when he looked outside, he saw two people sitting at the edge of the pool. It was New and Gulf. He walked closer to the two, he wanted to ask them why they were still awake at that hour but he suddenly stop on his track when he heard New and Gulf's conversation. "You... have a fiance? And he, he's a man?" Once Gulf let out that word, New was surprised that he quickly turned his head to Gulf. "You heard it right." Gulf heaved a deep breath and looked at New with downcast eyes. "I had a fiance and he's a man." "Had?" "I lost him... few days before our wedding." "You lost him? Why? What happened?" He curiously asked. The memories of Gulf after knowing what happened to Mew on that night flashed on his mind. He could still remember how broken he was that he almost ended his life. Looking back at it, Gulf thought that their story almost ended like Romeo and Juliet where Juliet faked her death and Romeo followed her thinking that the person he really loved had died. "He died from a car accident." And that made New's mouth to slowly part after hearing it from Gulf. No wonder he could see sadness in Gulf's eyes. It's because he lost someone whom he's going to spend the rest of his life with. On the other hand, Gulf wished for New to finally remember something with that little information he gave. But if not, he's still okay with it. He didn't want to put too much pressure on New in remembering his past life. If he could, he wanted to tell the older that his fiance didn't die and it was none other than him. But Gulf didn't want to destroy what he slowly built, especially now that they've slowly gotten closer to each other. He could patiently wait for the older to come back to him. He knew that he's still in Mew's heart and mind, but he was just covered by the new people in Mew's life. "I... I didn't know that it ended like that." New said in his low voice. He felt bad for asking Gulf about it. It must be really hard for him after it happened. "I'm sorry if I still asked you." And just like what Gulf predicted, New didn't remember anything. "You don't have to say sorry. It's okay." "Then... can I ask if what is he like?" A smile slowly creep on Gulf's face when he was asked with that question. "For me, he's perfect." He said remembering how Mew was like, not only to him but to others as well. "He's kind, thoughtful, and caring. He takes good care of me. If I'm with him, everything will turn out great." "I'm a naughty kid. I always make a mess around, but he's always there to handle things well." Gulf continued. "And he's also very clingy and possessive, but I don't really mind it. I love it when he's clingy." While Gulf was busy talking about his fiance, New was also busy staring at Gulf. He never took his eyes off from Gulf. New smiled everytime the younger smiled. "You must love him so much." "I do. He's a lovely man." Gulf immediately agreed. "Okay, enough with me. How about you?" Hearing that from Gulf, First felt his pain. He recalled the time when Tong told him that Gulf's parents sent him in their province for him to unwind himself. He thought that the main reason behind this was actually Gulf's fiance's death. He knew how much time needed for someone to recover from it and he wanted to help Gulf cope with everything. Not only that because he wanted to be the reason for Gulf to smile again. First chose not to interrupt the two, he took a brief look at New and Gulf before he went back to his room and continued his sleep. He wanted to sleep more  because he planned to wake up early the next day to cook breakfast for Gulf. "Me?" New pointed himself. He was slightly taken a back when Gulf suddenly asked about him. "Me... I'm... I truely don't know who am I in the first place." He took a glimpse of Gulf's face, but the younger didn't even get surprised or confused. Gulf just raised an eyebrow, so New took it as a cue to continue his statement. "My name is not New, it was just a name given to me by Kaownah. Just like your fiance, I got into a car accident last year. But I miracurously survived the accident and it's because of Kaownah and his family. They found me on the road and---" "O-on... on the road?" Gulf interrupted him and he suddenly remember what Mew's mother told him. "They couldn't find any traces that Mew survived from the explosion." "Why?" New asked him back. He shook his head as he said. "Nothing, just continue." He was really curious on how Mew survived the explosion when the authorities told them that it was impossible. "They found me unconciously lying on the road. I was injured. I had lots of scratches and cuts, so they rushed me to the hospital. I was comatose for days and when i woke up, I already lost all my memories. I don't remember anything not even my name." And he finally understood everything. Mew was concious after his car fell off the cliff and he managed to climb back on the main road. He couldn't imagine how difficult it was for Mew to able to fight for his life eventhough he was badly injured already. Gulf was slowly getting emotional hearing the story behind Mew's accident. He tried not to make it too obvious for the older not to notice it. But deep inside, he really wanted to pull him into a tight embrace. "Didn't your family search for you?" "I stayed at the hospital for 5 days. But they said, no one came to find me. So they brought me here in their hometown." Gulf mentally cursed himself for not pursuing his plan to search for Mew in Rayong. If he did, everything wouldn't turn out that way. But it was already too late to regret, it was all in the past. "If you find them, d-do you want to go back to your family?" "It depends." "What do you mean?" "I'm starting to love my life here in Surat Thani despite of not knowing my past. If I happen to remember everything, I will try to consider it." It pains him. This was the reason on why he didn't want to rush things. Gulf was afraid that Mew couldn't accept his life before. The only thing that he was holding on to was their love for each other. Just like what First's planned the previous day, he woke up early to make a breakfast for Gulf. He proceeded to the kitchen right after he woke up and prepared not only Gulf's breakfast but also to the other people. He didn't want to be called a bad host by the others if he's going to make food only for one person. While he's busy cooking breakfast, he heard footsteps heading to the kitchen. He turned to see who was it and he was shocked to see Gulf woke up early than the others. "Aw! You woke up early." First said. "I thought P'Tong said that you're usually the last person to wake up." Gulf groggily walked towards the dinning area and took a seat before giving First a response. "I couldn't sleep well." "Why?" He asked, turning his attention back to what he was doing. "I don't know." He shrugged his shoulders as he answered. "Maybe... it's because the air condition is too cold. What are you doing?" "I'm making breakfast for everyone. What do you want to eat? I can make it for you." "Ohh~ so kind, it's okay. I can eat anything." First was making a western style breakfast and when he served it to Gulf, he looked at First and pouted. "No rice?" He sadly mumbled. "I need rice, First." Seeing Gulf's cute face pouting in front of him, he laughed before getting him a cup of rice. "I didn't know that you love rice that much." "Thank you." Gulf said and he started eating his breakfast. While Gulf was enjoying his breakfast, First was just standing across him, staring at him as he was eating. He remembered the things that he heard the previous night, and he wanted to ask Gulf about it. He then slowly pulled a seat and sat on it. "Gulf..." "Hmmm?" "I... didn't mean to eavesdrop on your conversation with New last night, but I heard that... you had a fiance?" When First said it, Gulf suddenly stopped himself from eating. He lifted his head to look at First and he said. "You heard it?" First gave him a nod as an answer. "How much did you hear?" "Not really that much, I went upstairs right away. But... I learned that he died from a car accident, did I hear it right?" Since First already heard about it and he trusted him as well, Gulf decided to tell First everything. After all, First would eventually find out the truth. He pursed his lips before nodding his head. "That's right. First..." Gulf looked at him straight in the eyes as he continued. "I will tell you about it if you want to know. But promise me, that you will just keep it for yourself." He was confused on why Gulf wanted to keep it as a secret, but since he wanted to know everything, he lifted his right hand and swore to Gulf that he would never tell anyone about it. "I promise." "Good." Gulf murmured, loud enough for First to hear then he continued eating his food. "So, you guys are supposed to get married before the accident?" "Yes, just only a few days before the accident." "What really happened? Why did he get into an accident?" "I dont know. Just... our families gathered and called me for a talk. When I arrived, they told me that he's dead already." "It must be torturous for you to see him lying inside a casket." He softly uttered. "Actually, I didn't see him in that state." Gulf shook his head as he said it. "His car exploded after it fell off the cliff." First turned silent afterwards. He didn't know what to say. He felt really bad about what happened to Gulf's fiance and he wished that he could wash away those painful memories. Hearing nothing from First, Gulf slowly lifted his head and saw First spacing out with a gloomy face. "Hey, you don't have to be sad like that. It's early in the morning, don't feed your mind with negative thoughts. It will ruin your day." "Aren't you sad?" He put on a sad smile with First's question. "Of course I'm sad, I almost killed myself because of that. But... people around me told me that my fiance won't be happy with what I'm doing with my life, so I slowly get back on my feet and try to fight everything. So, don't show me that kind of face. Here, eat your breakfast with me. We'll go to the mountains today, so you need to eat a lot." As Gulf and First were having their conversation, Kaownah accidentally heard everything. He went down to find an extra bath towel when he heard the two talking about marriage and accident. And as he listened to it, he felt uneasy when the description of Gulf's fiance's car accident was the same as New's accident. Instead of getting an extra towel, Kaownah disregarded that idea and silently went back to his room. Tong had booked a one day jungle safari tour and a lake tour in advance, just a few days before they went to Khao Sok. They were all excited, especially Gulf, who loves the ground so much and he couldn't wait to explore the mountains after being bored for spending two weeks at the beach. They trekked through the rainforest with a knowledgeable guide who always pointed out the fascinating flora and fauna of the area. For their lunch, they witnessed a traditional Thai cooking demonstration and enjoyed Thai dishes cooked in a traditional way. They visited some caves and they also encountered the magnificient Asian elephants, and they were all lucky to have a chance to feed the animals, not only that because they also learned about them through their caretakers. With all those activities, their energy were already drained except for Gulf who's still very active. But it didn't last long as he accidentally stumbled on the stem of a plant that crept along the ground while they were hiking going down of the mountain. Gulf unfortunately twisted his foot when he tried to balance himself, in order for him not to fall on the ground. Thankfully, Tong was fast enough to hold Gulf's arms or it could have gotten worse. "Are you okay?" Tong asked and he saw Gulf made a grimace. "I tripped my foot, Pi." Gulf said as he tried to endure the pain. "What happened?" First asked as he walked towards them and checked on Gulf. The others who were walking ahead of them, including their guide, stopped and turned to check on what was happening. "Gulf tripped his foot." Tong answered, loud enough for everyone to hear. "Can you still walk, Gulf?" Mild asked his injured friend. "We're almost there, we just need to walk for  20 minutes to get out from the rainforest and to reach your van as well." Their guide informed them while checking on Gulf's foot. "Looking at his reaction, I think he can't make it." Tong assumed. "Someone needs to carry him, until we reached the car." "I can carry him." Without thinking twice, First volunteered right away. "I don't think so. Gulf is taller than you." Run reasoned out while furrowing his brows. "And you're skinny as well. You can't carry him." "Run is right. Then..." Tong roamed his eyes around, searching for someone who could carry Gulf and his eyes landed to someone who's a well-built person. "I think New can carry Gulf." And they all turned their heads to New after Tong pointed him. Kaownah wanted to protest, he didn't want to see New carrying Gulf. But it was already too late when New agreed about it right away. "I can carry him." He agreed in his soft voice. New walked towards Gulf and bent a little for Gulf to climb up on his back. "Are you... sure you can carry me?" "Hey Gulf, you're asking him like that when he always carry you---" Boat wanted to say that Mew loves giving Gulf a piggy back ride back then. But he didn't even finish his statement when he saw Gulf, Mild, and Run sent him a death glare. "I mean P'New is strong enough to carry you, so you don't have to worry about it." "Hmmm, he's right. Climb up on my back, so that we can leave now." Gulf did what New say, he wrapped his arms around New's shoulder and climbed on his back. New wrapped his arms around Gulf's legs to prevent the younger from falling. He stood up and began trudging, following the guide as they headed back to their van. First and Kaownah looked at New as he was giving Gulf a piggyback ride. It was supposed to be him, if he's just strong enough, First thought. Other than First, Kaownah was also not happy seeing Gulf enjoying his piggyback ride on New's back. While the two of them were not pleased with what happened, Gulf was smiling secretly. He was happy that he got to do it again with Mew. Back then, Mew loves giving him a piggyback ride or carrying him in a bridal style. He missed those days, he thought that it would never happen again after Mew's accident. But at that time, New carried him once again after almost a year. Once they arrived home, Tong treated Gulf's foot. It wasn't really that serious since Tong held Gulf immediately when it happened. Gulf loves playing football and that kind of injury isn't new to him at all, so he knows how to handle it. On their last day in Khao Sok, they explored the beauty of Cheow Larn Lake by riding a long tail boat with their guide. At first, Tong adviced Gulf to just stay at the vacation house since he got injured from their activity the previous day. But Gulf is a stubborn kid, he disagreed at Tong since he wanted to enjoy the place and he also told the older that he just tripped his foot and not sprain, so it wasn't serious. Together with Khao Sok's skilled paddle men, they explored the river by canoe and they also spotted some wildlife creatures. Gulf didn't regret his decision to go with them after he was paired with New by his friends in a canoe boat. Kaownah wanted to be in the same boat with New, but because of Turbo, he grabbed Kaownah to be with him in the boat which gave Gulf a chance to be with New. Three people could accommodate one canoe boat, including a paddle man. So Tong was with First, Mild was with Boat, and Run, he was alone with a paddle man, but he preferred being alone than being paired by one of his friends. They had their lunch under the rainforest canopy before they headed back to the vacation house and prepared their stuff for them to leave. After spending their weekend at Khao Sok, they headed back home safely and Tong dropped the kids in front of their respective homes before he reached his house with Gulf and his friends who's sleeping peacefully inside the van. "Pi, are you going to use your car today?" Gulf asked the older as he leaned at the counter. "Can I borrow it for a while?" "I was planning to go to the supermarket with First today to buy some things we need here in the cafe. Why? Where are you going?" "Hmmm..." Gulf hesitated to tell the older about his destination. "There's a place that I want to visit." "Where? If you don't tell me, I won't let you use my car." Gulf sighed and rolled his eyes at the older. "So stingy. Please Pi~" "Tell me where are you going?" "Fine! I'm going to the hospital." "Hospital?" Tong raised an eyebrow. "Are you sick? Does your foot still hurt? Let me just go with you." "A little. It's okay, Pi. I can go by myself." Gulf extended his hand, showing his palm to the older as he waited for the older to hand him the car keys. "Okay, but... let First go with you. The hospital is just near to the supermarket. Just dropped him there before going to the hospital." "Why are you going to the hospital?" First asked. Gulf was driving the car as they were heading to their respective destinations. "Just a check up on my foot." "I can go with you to the hospital and then we can go to the supermarket afterwards." First suggested, but he received a no from Gulf. Gulf shook his head. "It's okay. It would be faster if you go to the supermarket then I go to the hospital. If you're done at the supermaket, just wait for me and I'll pick you up." And just like what Gulf said, he went to the hospital alone after dropping First at the supermarket despite of his nonstop nag at Gulf to accompany him at the hospital. Gulf went straight ahead to the information after entering the place. "Good morning, what can I do for you?" One of the assigned nurses greeted him with a smile. "Hi, ahm... do you have a doctor here that specializes in diseases of the brain?" "Hmm, you're looking for a Neurologist, right?" "Ohh~ yes." He didn't even know what was neurologist but he just answered and gave the nurse a nod. "Yes we have, our Neurologist Mr. Chantaviriyavit, his office can be found at the 2nd floor. Do you have a scheduled appointment with him today?" "No, I am here as a walk in patient." "I see. He's at the 2nd floor. You can use the elevator going there. When you reached the 2nd floor, on your right, there are two rooms. The 2nd room is his office." "Okay, thank you." Gulf thanked the nurse with a smile before he left the information and headed to the elevator. "You're welcome." The nurse responded before Gulf left. She beamed and turned to the other nurse beside her. "Aww~ he's so cute." "Right! Mr. Chantaviriyavit is really lucky to have handsome and cute patients." The other nurse said. "I agree. Just like his patient named New. He's so handsome." "Oh! I remember that patient. I agree, New is handsome." Gulf found the office of the doctor that he was looking for, but instead of entering the room, he just stood up outside. He has a lot of questions on his mind and the doctor inside, was the only person who can answer him. But he was scared to enter the room as he was not ready to whatever the doctor would tell him. After a few minutes, he let out a deep breathe before he knocked on the door, twisted the doorknob, and bravely entered the room. As he got inside, the doctor looked at him and asked him to sit down. He obliged, and nervously sat on the chair. "Hi, what brings you here?" "Hello... ahm... actually, I came here to consult about a certain brain disease. I hope you could help me. It's about amnesia." The doctor sensed that Gulf was nervous, so he put on a small smile to make the younger feel comfortable. "Are you the one experiencing the amnesia?" "It's not me honestly. It's someone that I know." "Okay, tell me what do you want to know." "The patient has dissociative amnesia base on what you've said. Usually, amnesia may last for weeks or months only, but in rare cases, it can go on for years. Treatment with therapy can help recall those memories that were lost, but it may take a long time as well. But in most cases, amnesia can resolve itself without treatment. Some memories may be inaccessible, but they're not completely gone. They could potentially be retrieved. But you should also know that amnesia... can be permanent." After his conversation with the doctor, Gulf was spacing out as he was leaving the hospital. He was trying to sink in all the information that the doctor told him. Knowing that amnesia could be permanent, it scared him. Even though it could be resolve itself, he knew that he needed to do something. Because those information absorbed him completely, he suddenly bumped into someone as soon as he exited the hospital. When he looked up to see that person, he furrowed his brows. The person whom he just bumped into looked so familiar to him. "I'm sorry. I wasn't looking---" "Gulf?" It was New calling him. He was walking behind Bosser when the older accidentally bumped into someone, which turned out to be Gulf. "Aw! You know each other, New?" Bosser asked New after calling Gulf's name. "Yes, Pi. He's Gulf, he was a friend of the bar owner where I'm working. I also went to Khao Sok with him." "Ohhh~" Bosser cooed as he looked at the younger then Gulf greeted him with a wai. "Gulf, he's Bosser. He's the manager at a resort owned by Kaownah's family." "Hello, Pi. I'm sorry about what happened earlier." And that's how his curiosity was answered. When he saw Mew going out from the milk tea shop in Bangkok, he was with Bosser. That's why Bosser looked so familiar to him. "It's okay." Bosser smiled. "You don't have to worry about it." "So, Gulf, what are you doing here? Are you sick?" New asked the younger, he also took steps closer to Gulf and placed his hand on Gulf's forehead to check if he's sick or not. "I-I'm fine, P'New. I just came to have a check up on my foot." He said, trying his best to compose himself after New held him in front of other people. "How is it?" "It's better now. How about you? What are you doing here?" "I have a monthly check up and Bosser came to accompany me. So, how will you go back? Do you want to come with us? I will go to the cafe after this." How he wished that he could go back to the cafe with them, but Gulf remembered that he needed to pick up First at the supermarket. "It's okay, P'New. I borrowed P'Tong's car to come here and I also need to pick up First at the supermarket." "Oh I see. Okay, so... see you at the cafe." "Hmm, see you." He waved goodbye to New and also to Bosser. "Bye Gulf, it was nice meeting you." Bosser said before they entered the hospital. Once the two got inside, Gulf plastered a sad look on his face. If he used public transportation going there, he might be going back to the cafe with the older and they he could spend just a short time with New. He released a deep breathe before heading to the supermaket to pick up First. When they entered the lift, Bosser immediately nudged New on the side as he said in a teasing way. "Nong New~ Do you have a crush on Gulf?" New saw Bosser gazing at him with a silly look on his face, he avoided the older's gaze while saying. "No." "Ohh~ Denying is not new to me. I can see it in your eyes, you like him." "You're imagining things." New continued to insist but he could feel hid cheek blushing, so he continued avoiding the older. "No, I'm not imagining things. Maybe, if I'm going to bet money for this, I can surely win." New didn't give the older a response and he just snorted. When the elevator reached the 2nd floor, New immediately got out, leaving Bosser from behind. "Why did you dragged me here?" Gulf whined. When he arrived at the supermarket, he saw First waiting for him. First placed all the things that he bought inside the car before dragging Gulf to a Thai restaurant. "I remember Tong saying that you like stir fried basil, so I'm bringing you here. They have the best stir fried basil here in Surat Thani." "I'm not in the mood to eat it today." Gulf said right away, he turned around to leave First and was about to go back to the car but First held his wrist. They were like a married couple bickering in front of the restaurant. "Hey! I promise you it's really good." Gulf glared at First before letting out a sigh. "Really? If it's not good then I'm going to let you pay everything." "Aw! Who told you that you're going to pay? It's my treat!" "Why didn't you tell me right away? Come on, I'm hungry." He said before entering the restaurant. While First was left outside, laughing at Gulf who suddenly changed his mind after knowing that he would pay everything. "His car exploded after it fell off the cliff." The contents of First and Gulf's conversation on that day still lingered on Kaownah's mind. Ever since he accidentally heard it, he has been suspecting that maybe Gulf's fiance was actually New. To clear his mind, Kaownah tried to find the truth by searching Gulf's name on a social media. He didn't know Gulf's full name, so he just typed his name and searched it. As expected, there were lots of Gulf that came out from his search. He tried to scroll it down, until he stumbled on an account named Gulf Kanawut with Gulf's photo as its profile picture. Kaownah didn't understand his feeling after finding Gulf's social media account, he was curious but nervous and scared at the same time. He dragged the cursor on Gulf's name and clicked it. Gulf's profile opened and Kaownah's heart sank after seeing it. He felt like all of his strength suddenly disappeared. He suddenly felt so weak. He didn't even notice that a tear started to fall from his eyes as he was so busy staring at Gulf's banner on his profile. It was Gulf and New. They were both wearing suits, New placed his hand on Gulf's shoulder, and behind them was a forest. The photo looked like a pre-wedding photoshoot based from their clothes and the setting of the place. But he didn't want to believe it, he wanted to see more proof. Despite of feeling hurt and weak, Kaownah still scrolled down Gulf's profile until he saw Gulf and New's wedding invitation that was pinned on Gulf's profile. "Mew... Suppasit?" He mumbled in his low voice as he read Gulf and New's wedding invitation. "His real name is... Mew? No." Kaownah shook his, convincing himself that Mew is not Mew. "They just look alike. He's not New." The information he had just found was slowly breaking him and his fear of losing New was increasing rapidly. He knew that the more he would look into Gulf's profile, the more he's going to feel hurt and scared, but he didn't want to stop. He wanted to see more of Gulf and Mew's relationship. And so he continued to scroll down, he saw lots of photos and videos of Mew together. Kaownah watched them all and found out that Gulf and Mew were living together and have been together for 5 years already. As he was watching their videos and photos, something had caught his attention, Gulf and Mew were wearing the same bracelets and Gulf even posted a close up photo of those bracelets. Kaownah suddenly remembered something. He walked to his closet and pulled a drawer at the bottom part of his closet. There, he found a ziplock plastic bag that he was hiding for almost a year. He went back to his bed and opened the plastic. He pulled out the clothes inside it and a bracelet as well. He brought the bracelet closer to his computer screen to compare it to the ones that Gulf posted. And his tears started to fall once again, the bracelet that he was holding was exactly the same as Mew and Gulf were wearing. It was their couple bracelet. The clothes and bracelet that Kaownah kept were owned by New. Those were the things that he wore when they found him and the hospital staff gave it to him, but he forgot to give it to New when they arrived at the province. Seeing those things, Kaownah finally confirmed that New is Gulf's fiance.