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Me
mom, iโm going outside for a bit
u donโt have to bring me food
iโll be back late
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Mom
Okayy
Finally going out with your girlfriend, arenโt you?
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Me
bye, mom.
Mom
Lol
Donโt come back so late
And use protection lol
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Why was I born from such a cruel mother?
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Shaking my head to myself, I pocketed my phone as I slipped on a pair of sneakers and walked my Fixie out of the front door. After making sure everything was safe and the house was locked properly, I put the key in my jeansโ other pocket and mounted the bike.
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I couldnโt help thinking to myself about the spur-of-the-moment decision that I had made earlier. How everything had changed so suddenly from my having to pull out every methods I knew to comfort myself to being on my way to Irene Baeโs place to have dinner with her.
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It wasnโt a surprise anymore that this truth only just now sunk in for me.
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I was going to Ireneโs place.
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I was going to be in her place with her.
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Alone.
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Just us two because she said she didnโt live with her parents.
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A uniform-clad Irene Bae was already a smack on my lesbian heart. How would I have stood a chance against her looking and smelling domestic in her own place?
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I had half a mind to stop and turn my bike around to cancel our plan. I could say I suddenly caught a cold, or my cousin from the other side of the world just visited, or maybe my house was on fire and asteroids were falling from the skies and it was โthe dinosaur tragedyโ all over again. I just felt like a disastrous storm was coming and I knew I couldnโt have survived this, but my hands were tied. I was panicking. There were so many things that couldโve gone wrong and I would have to have a repeat of the past again. I didnโt want that.
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The anxiety only got worse with each pedal that got me closer to her. And by the time I would have finally gained enough courage to turn around, I realized I was too late. I was already in front of her apartment building with my nerves all over the place.
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Keep calm, Seulgi. You got this. Itโs okay. Everything's going to be okay. Just keep your damn hormones in check and donโt look at her. Sheโs as normal as any other girls. Youโve just got to stop thinking she's more than that. You'll be okay.
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Taking a deep breath and preparing myself for the worst case scenario, I left my bike next to a poleย and chained it in place. I gave the chain some tugs to make sure the lock was secure before turning to walk towards the entrance of the building with a middle-aged man in uniform keeping guard dutifully.
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โGood evening, Miss,โ he greeted me warmly as he opened the door for me. Something about the way he smiled told me he probably knew everyone there like the back of his hands.
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โGood evening,โ I said, stopping in front of him.
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โThis is your first time here, isnโt it?โ he quipped in interest.
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โYes, actually. A friend from school invited me over,โ I answered. At least I hoped we still were after we had gotten through our misunderstandings earlier.
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โWell, you can go to Ally over there,โ he motioned towards a kind-looking lady behind a long wooden counter on the left side of the lobby. โAnd tell her your friendโs room number so she can confirm it with them.โ
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I nodded. โOkay. Thank you.โ
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โYouโre welcome, Miss.โ He smiled again.
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When I stood in front of the counter, Ally matched the manโs energy as she greeted me even warmer than he did earlier. It wouldnโt be a surprise if Irene turned out to be very close to them both. She probably thought of them as her own family. The way the woman talked to her when she called Irene was a proof enough.
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I didnโt realize how my nerves had calmed down a whole lot when I talked to Ally and that man earlier, because they werenโt really shy about coming back and hitting me full force throughout the whole elevator ride to Ireneโs floor.
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My limbs felt jittery, and the urge to stop the elevator and go back down was overwhelming. Surely Irene couldnโt have gotten mad at me if I told her I couldnโt come after she had made me wait for her earlier. But my feet were glued to the floor and my hands wouldnโt move from my side. There must still be a partโa pretty huge partโof me that was anticipating what the night would bring. What Irene Bae would look like in her home clothes and what her home looked like.
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So when the elevator dinged and the door opened, I thought about what Sooyoung wouldโve told me if she were here:
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Just woman the up and get the out of here.
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And with that I walked down the hallway looking left and right searching for the number โ27โ on a golden plate with an eagerness that got my heart jumping to my throat.
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Here goes nothing, I thought to myself as I knocked on the door.
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I grew impatient as the door remained unanswered after more than six seconds, so I knocked again with a little bit more force. This time there was a clicking of the lock and the door was thrown open revealing one Irene Bae in a white Adidas shirt and some very short black shorts.
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But I couldnโt have cared less about the shorts. What actually knocked the wind out of me was the round glasses on her little face framed by strands of hairs straying away from the bun on
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