Jinyoung was typing on his laptop on Friday night when suddenly he got a call from his mom.

“Hello son!” Mrs Park

“Hello mom.” Jinyoung

“What are you doing?” Mrs Park

“Finishing some works.” Jinyoung

“Sorry if I interupt you with your work.” Mrs Park

“Nah, its fine mom. What’s up?” Jinyoung

“I just confirm with you sister and she will go this Saturday for the party.” Mrs Parks

“What party?” Jinyoung

“Are you forgot already? Jaebeom’s engagement party?” Mrs Park

Jinyoung trying so hard to forget about the party. After Mark leave his home and cut every ties with him Jinyoung decided to start a new. He knows the day Jaebeom leave him he lost his way a little. Now after Mark leave him he suprisingly feels fine. I mean yeah he has the relationship back after years without connecting with Mark (they suddenly meet for the same reason they meet at the first place) and when knowing Mark already married its make something inside Jinyoung mad so he decided to try and make Mark suffer a little bit (he never knew they will end up getting together).

Jinyoung admits that he is a worse human ever.

“Mom are you sure Jaebeom invite me too? I mean are you pretty sure?” Jinyoung

“Yeah I am sure about it. Jaebeom personally call me and ask to invite everyone.” Mrs Park

“Including me?” Jinyoung

“Yes.” Mrs Park

“Wait he call you? Don’t he usually just chat with you? International call is quite expensive no?” Jinyoung

“You are always forgetful. I told you right? Jaebeom is back last Monday? He actually arrive that day. Ouhh I can’t wait to see him.” Mrs Park said with an excited voice.

“Really?” Jinyoung

Jinyoung wonder why Jaebeom did not try to call him personally (he never change his number and he never delete Jaebeom’s number). Well he is a jerk no wonder Jaebeom run away from him.

“Yes so I wanted to ask if you wanted to come. We can go together.” Mrs Park

“No.” Jinyoung

Jinyoung don’t want to follow his mom cars, what if he suddenly wanted to go back and his mom decided to stay a little longer. What will he do?

“You don’t want to go?” Mrs Park

“No I mean, I will go on my own.” Jinyoung.

“I see, okay. I just wanted to confirm that and Jinyoung?” Mrs Park

“Yes mom?” Jinyoung

“Please try to look happy? I don’t want Jaebeom feels bad when he saw how unhappy you look. Its not his fault he found someone else. You are not together at that time and you also has a new boyfriend.” Mrs Park

“I will try and mom? I already broken up with that guy.” Jinyoung said and cut off the call.

Jinyoung knows its not Jaebeom fault they become like this but deep inside his mind he wanted Jaebeom to feel sorry. To see what he had done to Jinyoung.

Jinyoung look like a normal 30 years old worker who had enough money for himself and for his family. He actually quite rich not rich rich but rich. But Jinyoung always feels somewhat empty whenever he come home.

He still keep Jaebeom’s ring that he make as a necklace pendant. He always wears the necklace and never took it off. He don’t know why he keep Jaebeom’s ring while his own engagement Jinyoung already throws out of the window the exact same day when Jaebeom leave him.

 His feelings towards Jaebeom is already gone. Jinyoung is sure of it. Yeah the first month is hard. He keep waiting at their studio home hoping Jaebeom will come back. He waited for almost a year. Avoiding Mark and any of  Jaebeom’s friend. He is pretty sure that Yoo Youngjae is the one who throws all the trash at Jinyoung’s car.

Then when he finally realize Jaebeom will never come. He moved one. By moving on he regularly sleep with stranger that he found at the bar or even some of  his collegue. Then he stop having regular and just focus on his work. Until he meet Mark again.

Jinyoung try at first to ignore Mark but when he knows Mark already married with his lover Youngjae, he becomes so furious. Jinyoung who lose his fiance and suffer for almost 2 years and there is the happy husband figure Mark Tuan. Why Mark lover accept him?

Jinyoung get the answer when Mark confessed that Youngjae never know what happen between them.

So that is the reason.

Jinyoung thinks its not fair for Mark to be happy with his lover.

No with his husband.

Jinyoung wanted revenge. He try to make Mark falls for him so he can trick him and will take photo to show to his husband.

But Jinyoung never know that he craved all Mark attention towards him.

The , the love talk, the promises. Jinyoung love everything about it and he forgets about the revenge (also Jinyoung bumps into Mark and his husband one day and they look so happy). Jinyoung don’t have the heart to broke them apart.

He never blame Mark when Mark decided to end they relationship, Jinyoung actually give a lot of hint for Mark to realize that Jinyoung is not right for him. That he is the reason that Mark will lose his happiness (Youngjae).

Jinyoung is feel a lot lighter when he ended everything with Mark. But now he has another worries. Jinyoung don’t know if he ready or not to face with a certain Lim Jaebeom.

He don’t know if he can take it to see Jaebeom again or seeing Jaebeom happy with other guy. Jinyoung knows that he is selfish when sometime he wish that Jaebeom will actually come back next to him because he still remember how Jaebeom said he cant live without Jaebeom.

 

FLASHBACK WHEN JJP IS AN UNI STUDENT

Jinyoung can hear his fiance voice (Jinyoung love when he can address Jaebeom as his fiance) outside the dorm room. The he heard the loud bang. He look away from his note book and there he is his Jaebeom looking so tired and hazy.

“I hate examination week and I hate that suddenly I cant remember any poems written by Miss Minkyoung when I always recite it to you.” Jaebeom

“Even why the rock is hard?” Jinyoung

“Yes” Jaebeom said while throwing himself at Jinyoung’s bed.

 Jinyoung and Jaebeom stay at different dorm and building but its never stop them to crash at each other room.Luckily their roomate is fine with it except when they caught eating each other (its only happen one time).

“I think you just over thinking it as usual. You always at the top off your class.” Jinyoung try to reassure Jaebeom. He stop drafting his note and went to hug his fiance.

“Am I?” Jaebeom

“Yeah remember how you freak out when you think you wrote a different answer for your french exam last year?” Jinyoung

“And you willingly coaxed me right?” Jaebeom

“Yeah I had to if not you will make a mess at your own room and nothing actually happen. You even get a full mark on that paper.” Jinyoung said and slowly carresses Jaebeom’s head

Jaebeom who is now resting his face at Jinyoung’s chest let out a big sigh.

“Maybe…I don’t know what will I do without you Nyoung ah.” Jaebeom

“You don’t need to think about it. I will never leave you.” Jinyoung

Jaebeom just laugh and cling on Jinyoung necks and kiss him.

“You need to stop that. I need to finished my note for my next exam.” Jinyoung

“Okay, you know I cant live without you right?” Jaebeom

“Yeah baby, you always told me that over and over again.” Jinyoung rolled his eyes.

“That is good.” Jaebeom

Enf of flashback

 

Jinyoung chuckle when he remember Jaebeom’s words.

Now Jaebeom already leave Jinyoung for 4 years almost 5. Jinyoung don’t know what happen to Jaebeom but he comeback with a new fiance while Jinyoung?

Jinyoung still don’t know how to live without Jaebeom. Its been 4 years but he still remember every words. Every memory. Everything about Jaebeom.

Jinyoung shuts off his laptop after he finished his work. He need to forget and focused so there will be no lingering feeling. He need to sleep now. The drive between Jaebeom’s engagement party location is a few hours from his house.

Jinyoung just hope that he can get through the next day peacefully.

Jinyoung wakes up as usual on 6 am. He stretched a little then do his morning routine such as taking a bath, making breakfast and enjoyed a little morning news.

Jinyoung go out exactly at 9 am. He just wear his blue checkerd shirt with the black jeans. He forgot to ask his mom if there is any theme for the engagement party and then he realize that Jaebeom love simple things so yeah there will never had any themes at all.

He drove his car calmly. He watches as the view changes from the tall building to some greeneries. Jaebeom’s booked a little private place outside the town.

Just like what Jaebeom’s like.

Jinyoung don’t know if his playlist mock him or what because suddenly song change into Clean Bandit with Marina and Luis Fonsi song Baby played.Jinyoung don’t know when and how this song end up in his playlist but this song always hit him in the heart.

His skip the song. Today he just wanted to listen to some calm song.

He park his car at the venue.

He look at his watch. Exactly 11 am.

Yesterday his mom told him that the estimate time his mom will arrive is at 11 am. Jinyoung just waited for his mom to come.

There is not a lot of cars here. They must only invite theirs close family and friends only. Its soothes Jinyoung heart when Jaebeom think of him as close friend.

Jinyoung’s mind snickers.

You used to be his fiance, the one that supposed to be there next to him.

Jinyoung just realize something. They never had an engagement party.

 

Flashback

Jinyoung just watching his boyfriend….fiance who was just laying at his bed and staring at the ring on his fingers.

“Stop looking at it. Its been a month now after I propose to you.” Jinyoung

“Never! I love it. It was so pretty.” Jaebeom

“Don’t lie, its just a cheap simple one that I can buy now. Sorry about that.” Jinyoung

Jaebeom abruptly get up.

“No way! 100,000.00 won is so expensive for us student and you stupidly buy this ring for me. I love the simpleness in this ring. You know how I love simple things!” Jaebeom

Jinyoung just laugh. He don’t know how he is so lucky he have Jaebeom beside him. Jaebeom always feel thankful with anything Jinyoung done to him even with a simple things like bring his book to his class when he forget about it.

Jinyoung sometimes feels he save a country with his past life. It was easy when he fall in love with his family friends son and the said son also love him. The have been dated since the were 16 years old and 5 years later (one month ago) Jinyoung propose to Jaebeom and never thinks Jaebeom agreed because they just had a big fight a few weeks before because Jinyoung was jealous towards Jaebeom’s seniors who keep flirting and touching him and what not.

The fight make Jaebeom avoid him for days because Jaebeom thinks Jinyoung did not believe in Jaebeom.

Its not that Jinyoung did not believe Jaebeom, he just don’t like the seniors exression whenever they talk or look at him. Like a wolfs. Jinyoung try to persuade Jaebeom to tell the seniors that he already had a boyfriend. Jaebeom already mention that a lots of times but they just shrug it off.

Its make Jinyoung restless.

He was worried if one day Jaebeom finally realize that Jinyoung is only a normal guy. He doesn’t have anything to offer Jaebeom.

 He get the idea to propose when his mom just whine at him how  his sister friends already get engange while his sister is still single (a normal korean mom worries). So he finally knows what he wanted to do.

He works really hard and save up a a lot so he can buy the cheapest ring that he can find and he found a perfect one for 100,000.000 won. He never told anything to Jaebeom and try to hide it even when Jaebeom keep asking where he had gone and worried when Jinyoung look so tired whenever they had time to meet.

When he finally get enough money to buy the rings. He straight away propose to Jaebeom at his own dorm room without any clues or preparation or anything.

He just open the door and kneeling in front of a shocked Jaebeom.

“I know that I may look silly right now but please marry me.” Jinyoung

Jinyoung can hear Jabeom gasp before he feel Jaebeom’s body on top of him.

“Of course silly! I will!” Jaebeom.

Jinyoung remember everything on that day.

“So should we do some engagement party?” Jinyoung

“Are you crazy? We are just a student now and you already spent a lot of money to buy this gorgeous ring.” Jaebeom

“Well I can ask my parents some money.” Jinyoung

“Do you want to die? Our mother already nagging at us just because you buy this ring for me. I don’t want to hear they saying it was to fast and we are still young to get engange.” Jaebeom

“But your father is so happy for us.” Jinyoug

“Father adore you and I don’t know why.” Jaebeom

“Its because he saw how much I love his son who he also cherished. That is why he love me.” Jinyoung said while wink at Jaebeom.

“Whatever. Just skip the engagement party and save the money for our real wedding ceremony.” Jaebeom

“ I can’t wait to get married to you.” Jinyoung

End Flashback.

 

Jinyoung flashback were interupted by a knocking at his window car. He look at his passenger window and see his mother waving at him. Jinyoung give his mother a smile with a nod then turn off the car and went out.

“How long do you wait for us?” Mrs Park

“Not long, I just arrive.” Jinyoung

“How are you?” Mrs Park

“Im fine mom. Thank you.” Jinyoung

“Your sister and your dad already go inside because they thought you waited us inside the venue. Luckily I spot your car.” Mrs Park

“Thanks mom, I don’t think I can go inside alone.” Jinyoung said while trying to calm himself.

“Jinyoung….Mom always be here with you. I know you were hurt by this buts things happen. Lets just wish them a happy life?” Mrs Park

But what about my happiness?

You don’t deserve any after what you have done.

Jinyoung cringe with his own thinking. He take his mom arms and link in with his own hand.

“Lets go mom!.” Jinyoung

They walk inside the venue. A bunch of peach coloured flowers were there along side the entrance. Jinyoung like the decoration. It is so simple. Its scream Jaebeom’s idea. Jaebeom favourite colour which is peach is going well with beige colour ribbon from the decoration.

The decoration is so pretty. It is really a small party. There is only a few people there not more that 30 peoples and Jinyoung know each of them.

Jinyoung and his mom were greeted by Jaebeom’s aunts. The aunts intive them and try to call Jaebeom’s parents.

“You come!” Mrs Lim shrieked and hug Jinyoung’s mom.

“Of course I will. Jaebeom personally call me. I know he will sulk if I am not here.” Mrs Park

“Jinyoung, thank you for coming.” Mrs Park

Jinyoung can hear a little hint of sadness inside Mrs Lim voice. He knows how both of their mother dreams to see them get married but what to do? Jinyoung is a jerk when he was younger.

“Jinyoung!” Mr Lim call him and hug him.

Its always a warm thing when Mr Lim hug him. He can feel how strong Mr Lim grips around his shoulder. Likes he wanted to give Jinyoung all the support.

“Mr Lim. Its been a while.” Jinyoung

“Don’t stop calling me father please? You were like my own son Jinyoung.” Mr Lim

“Sorry father.” Jinyoung

“Mr Lim don’t push Jinyoung like that. What if he think it was awkward when you ask him to call you father?”  Mrs Lim

“Its fine. I mean I am not awkward about it. Mrs Lim.” Jinyoung

“So you can call my husband father but cant call me mommy like usual? I am hurt Jinyoung.” Mrs Lim

“Sorry mommy.” Jinyoung chuckle

Mrs Lim give Jinyoung a big hug.

“Ouh..How I missed you Jinyoung!” Mrs Lim

“Where is the star of the party?” Mrs Park

“Ouh Jaebeom had a litte accident while coming down here. You know how clumsy that guy is. He will be back soon. While waiting should I introduce you guys to Jackson?” Mrs Lim

“Jackson?” Jinyoung

“Ouh you don’t know? Jackson is Jaebeom’s fiance. Wait I look for him.”

Jinyoung can sense his mom come near him and stand beside his left side while holding his arm and his sister Joohyun were standing on his right side.

“Don’t worry little brother. I am here to protect you from the monster that take Jaebeom from you.” Joohyun

“Joo ah, don’t talk like that. Jaebeom are free to have anyone after he broke up with your brother.” Mrs Park

“But they only broke the engagement not separated? This look like Jaebeom is cheating on Jinyoung.” Joohyun said with a grunt

Jinyoung know his sister love him so much and Joohyun already saw Jaebeom as the one that broke Jinyoung heart and she despise him for that.

“Joohyun, don’t said like that. There is no cheating involve here.” Jinyoung

Before Joohyun wanted to talk back they can listen Mrs Lim come near their place. Jinyoung can see a guy wearing a peach shirt tugged inside a black pant. The shirt that closely fitted onto the guy body make him look buff.

“Guys meet my future son in law. Jackson.” Mrs Lim introduce him with a smile.

“Hi nice to meet you guys. I am Jackson. Wang Jackson.” Jackson said while bowing.

“Nice to meet you. Remember me? We saw each other at the supermarket.” Mrs Park

“I remember! How can I forget such a pretty looking lady.” Jackson

“A charmer huh?” Mrs Park laugh

“I need to make an extra point so that I look okay beside the ever so perfect Jaebeom.” Jackson

“I forgot to introduce you with my family. Over there is my husband, you can call him Mr Park or Uncle whatever you decide. This over here is my eldest Park Joohyun and this one is my youngest Park Jinyoung.” Mrs Park

“Nice to meet you Uncle if you don’t mind I call you that.” Jackson said while shake hand with Jinyoung’s father.

Jackson just bow at Joohyun and he bring his hand towards Jinyoung.

“Hey there man. How are you?” Jackson

Jinyoung was surprise for a while when he saw how nice Jackson treat him. This make him realize if  Jaebeom told Jackson about him.

“Jinyoung?” Mrs Park

Jinyoung look at her mom and her mom squint her eyes at Jackson hand that is in front of Jinyoung.

“Ahh, sorry about that.” Jinyoung said while shake Jackson hand and grip it a little hard than usual.

Both Mrs Lim and Mrs Park excuse themselve and went to see other guest. Joohyun and Mr Park already went into the buffet section.

“Whoaah, you are strong Jinyoung.” Jackson

“You are a joker Jackson. I am just a normal guy” Jinyoung

“Nah you do not look like a normal guy to me. You are so handsome and the air around you make you look like an exclusive man.” Jackson

“Thank you for your nice words. You look handsome too.” Jinyoung

“Really? Peach is not my colour but honey really love this colour.” Jackson speak with an endearing  voice.

“Honey?” Jinyoung

“Ouh sorry I always remind myself to never said that. I mean Jaebeom. My fiance? He really hate me using nicknames in front of other people.” Jackson was smiling at Jinyoung.

Jinyoung heart tighten a little bit when he heard Jackson said Jaebeom’s name and it make his stomache churn when he saw Jackson fluttering eyes when he call Jaebeom fiance. He can actually see himself in Jackson. Because even though he never see himself when he watch Jaebeom. Joohyun always how his eyes will brighten up when he look at Jaebeom.

“Sorry if me hanging around you make you feel awkward. To be honest I don’t know anyone here so mommy just introduce me with the family and everyone here is older that me and I do feel left out when thet talk about last year christmas because I am not there and if you don’t mind Jinyoung can I just stay here with you until Jaebeom arrive?” Jackson said pleadingly.

“I don’t mind but I don’t think Jaebeom will like the idea?” Jinyoung

 “Why not?” Jackson

Before Jinyoung explain his relationship with Jaebeom to Jackson he can hear the voice that he missed so much.

“Honey!” Jackson waving at the person behind Jinyoung

Jinyoung did not look back and he think Jaebeom also don’t realize it yet because he can hear someone walking towards them.

“Jacks how many time I told you don’t ever call me that in the public?” Jaebeom said while walking towards Jackson and hit him on the arms.

Jaebeom walk pass Jinyoung and he subtlely ignore Jinyoung when he keep hitting Jackson after Jackson trying to reason with him that technically there are not in the public.

Jinyoung finally saw Jaebeom after 4 years and he was shocked. Jaebeom does not look like his usual Jaebeom. Usually Jaebeom will look like your ordinary next door guy with his usual t shirt and lazy hair do but now. Now he look more matured and his body become more and more fit? He wearing a similir clothes like Jackson but in beige. His hair were keep in a man bun. Jinyoung never realize how long Jaebeom hair is.

“Jaebeom say hi to my new friend.” Jackson

Jinyoung staring at Jaebeom were interupt by Jackson voice slowly he see how Jaebeom expression changes when he see Jinyoung. From the silly smile straight to the expressionless face.

There is a silent for a while but then he saw Jaeebom’s smile.

“Hi Jinyoung.” Jaebeom

Jinyoung just nod and bow to him.

“So the new friend you talking about is Jinyoung?” Jaebeom

“Yeah.” Jackson said while nodding his head like a puppy.

“Do you ask Jinyoung about it or you just assume he wanted to be your friend?” Jaebeom

Jackson was quiet for a while.

“Sorry but this guys always assume this thing whenever someone treat him nicely.” Jaebeom

“No I don’t mind bout it.” Jinyoung

“How are you?” Jaebeom try to be polite but he cant hide the strain from his tone.

“Jaebeom? Are you okay why do you sound like you choke on something?” Jackson ask worriedly put his hand on Jaebeom backs.

Jinyoung were taken aback with Jackson action and when he realize his own hand were trying to touch Jaebeom he withdraw. Jinyoung totally forget about where he is now when he saw Jaebeom. He is not Jaebeom fiance or lover and now he don’t know what is his relation with Jaebeom.

Jaebeom did not look mad at him.

Yes  Jaebeom look quite taken a back by Jackson statement but who doesn’t? Jackson who Jinyoung just meet a few minutes ago and know him as Jaebeom new fiance but he never felt angry or mad at Jackson. He just don’t feel any hate feelings towards Jackson. Its so different from the time when he imagine Jaebeom fiance last night.

 

TO BE CONTINUE