It was a Tuesday when he left me....in the moment I couldn't believe it. I asked myself hundreds of questions, did I do something wrong? Did I say something that bothered him? Why did he suddenly decide we wouldn't work out and why didn't he give me the opportunity to defend the love I had for him.....

Have you even dreamt that you were falling? You feel emptiness in your chest, but then you wake up, breathing heavily and feeling relieved that it was only that, a dream. Well, something like that was happening to me, except I couldn't wake up....my whole world was falling apart. What was I going to do now? All my friends were his friends first. We shared classes,seats...his locker was right next to mine and we always ate together with our friends,which we shared. What was I going to do now? 

Pretending not to care was hard, Siwon was my whole world....he was the love of my life and he left as if I was easy to forget.....

Could it be that he never cared? 

When Heechul and Kyuhyun, my friends and also his, found out they couldn't believe it. "You were the perfect couple, what happened?" They asked....We were in the same position. None of us knew what had gotten into Siwon.