Jennie's POV

Flashback:

"And that's a wrap on 'Star Road' Ladies! Well done!"

I sigh in relief at those magical words. I scan the room slowly seeing everyone cheering and smiling causing a small smile to break out of my face. However, hearing a laugh come out of my favorite person causes me to turn my gaze towards her and begin to feel this ache in my chest. Lalisa Manoban, the woman I have been in love with since our trainee days. Just watching her smile and laugh insantly makes my heart flutter in happiness. I slowly scan her beautiful features, to her adorable big brown eyes, to her cute button nose, and to my favorite part of her face, her plump lips. Gazing at her lips causes me to imagine what it would feel against mine, the taste, I quickly shake off the thought and frown slightly,

'Stop dreaming Jennie, it will never happen,'

Remembering how she was laughing off our 'Jenlisa' fan shipping caused me to feel a slight pain in my heart, knowing that it was impossible for her to feel the same way. She doesn't know how much she has affected my life. I quickly avert my eyes away from her as she was beginning to turn her face towards me.

'I just can't seem to face her.'

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It's been 5 days.

5 days since I have been avoiding Lisa, I just can't seem to look her in the eye without feeling pain in my chest. I would feel the ache in my heart increase whenever I would see the hurt in her eyes every time I would snap at her or simply shut her out. I don't mean to, I just can't help but feel anger, knowing that she will never be mine.

'I miss her,'

I was soon cut off from my thoughts by a soft knock from behind my door. Silently hoping and praying it was Lisa I begin to ask, slightly excited,

"Who is it?"

"It's Jisoo!"

I frown, feeling disspointed but slightly relieved that it was Jisoo. If it was Lisa, how would I even face her? What would I say to her if she asked me why? Because, I don't think I am completely ready to tell her the reason. I sit up from my bed and cross my legs hearing the door open. I smile slightly, seeing Jisoo's head peak out into the room,

"Can I come in?" She asks. I nod,

"Of course, What's up?" I ask. She shrugs and replies nonchalantly,

"Nothing, I'm trying to avoid Chae, she bought more mangos and," She quickly stops talking and looks over her shoulder, hoping Chae isn't around to listen. She leans forward towards me and whispers,

"I threw it away," I stare at her in disbelief and chuckle lightly,

"Why?" She smiles evilly,

"Because I'm the Unnie I can do whatever I want," She winks at me playfully causing me to roll my head back and begin to laugh at her stupidity. I can always rely on Jisoo to brighten my day. I shake my head and chuckle,

"You're an idiot," I said. Grinning, she replies,

"Yeah but you girls love me," I flinch at the word 'love' involuntarily. Jisoo furrows her eyesbrows in confusion seeing how my body suddenly tensed up. I quickly avert my eyes away from her curious gaze to the doll Lisa gave me back when we were trainees. I unconsiously begin to smile as the memories I shared with Lisa began to appear in my mind. Jisoo follows my gaze then begins to nod in understanding,

"Jen can I ask you something?" Keeping my eyes down I silently nod,

"Why have you been avoiding Lisa?" She asks, causing my heart race nervously. I take in a deep breath and sigh, lying to my Unnie is something I don't necessarily enjoy. I shrug as the lies roll off my tongue naturally,

"I'm just waiting for this Jenlisa thing to die down," Jisoo rolls her eyes and scoffs not believing my words, hell, I wouldn't have either. It was definitely a stupid reason, she then replies,

"Are you really letting that ruin your friendship with Lisa?" Annoyance suddenly surges through my body, causing me to scoff. I wasn't annoyed by Jisoo's question, I was annoyed by this whole situation. None of this would be happening if I didn't fall in love my band member! I angrily reply,

"I'm just so sick of this Jenlisa ordeal! When will they realize that it isn't real and that it will NEVER happen?!" I said, as if I was trying to convince myself. I then bite my lip, feeling my tears threatening to fall out of my eyes by the pain in my chest increasing drastically, I then continue,

"The idea of Jenlisa makes me so uncomfortable!" Each word that was said from my mouth was like a slice in my heart. Of course, I didn't mean it. Jisoo sighs and shakes her head, she meets my gaze and says,

"No, it doesn't Jen," I gaze back into her eyes and begin to feel my heart shatter even more. I look away and quickly wipe a tear that escaped my eyes,

"No, it doesn't" I weakly whisper back, cringing at sound of my voice breaking slightly. I continue,

"It's not fair," I whisper. I feel Jisoo shift closer to me and begin to rub my back, trying to sooth my tensed body. She carefully asks,

"What's not fair Jen?" I sigh in frustration,

"This! Everything! This whole situation isn't fair! Why her? Why did I have to l..love her!? Out of everyone why did it have to be Lisa?" I say as I begin to feel multiple tears cascade down my cheeks rapidly. My body was trembling with anger and frustration. Jisoo sighs sadly and begins to wipe my tears away, she then gently says,

"I wish I knew Jennie, but avoiding Lisa isn't the answer, you should talk to her," I furiously shake my head,

"No, not yet, I'm not