Don't you sometimes walk on the streets and wish your eyes could take pictures ? 

A beautiful night ? A cute puppy passing by ? An empty chair in a coffee shop that just looks pretty ... you want to take them with you, like a little jewelry box and hide them somewhere safe. 

Safe, that's the word we are looking for.

Safe ahs so many meanings to alot of people. It can be a nice warm safe place, safe as in having a good job that covers all your needs, safe when you lock your doors and windows tight, safe in the arms of your lover ... and many other definitions. 

To me, safe is when I'm calm, not thinking about my life's what ifs. I have been through so many things. That girl who died wasn't whom I wanted myself to be. I had dreams, safe ones, but the world wasn't safe for me. I had no home, no door to lock, no lover to protect me ... I was that girl who was left abandoned at the age of few weeks at some house's door step. Another meaning for safe. Who ever put me there thought that I was safe, or maybe they thought they are now safe after getting rid of me but I wasn't. They didn't want me and put me back where they found me. 

They maybe thought that I was safe with the social services and the social services thought that I was safe in the 5 different homes they put me in and I thought that I would be safe if I lived alone. 

But I wasn't  .... Never was and now I'm dead ... dead is safe, dead is definitely safe