Mina's POV

I miss him. So bad. I know it is my choice but damn, it's hard! I tried going out with friends, even went on a blind date once. But my system is so full of Taemin. Every corner of my house reminds me of him. And right now, God knows how much I want to be in Teamin's embrace. The way he looks at me doesn't help. He loves me, I know that. That's exactly the reason why it's hard to move on.

I've been doing crazy things lately. Like cutting my hair that I know he loves so much, maybe he won't like it and somehow he'll find a reason to try and forget me. Crazy, right? He wouldn't ask me to marry him just because he loves my hair. He's seen me in my worst state. So many mornings that I woke up beside him, with my disheveled hair and puffy eyes, he would always say I'm the prettiest woman he'd ever seen.

If I could just turn back the time. 

"Lee Taemin! Lee Taemin! Lee Taemin!" the fanchants stopped me from my crazy thoughts. He'll be performing soon, his vcr already playing on the screen. Well, he already performed with SHINee. They are simply the best! Everyone was so hyped with their performance. But, I must admit, I've been waiting for his solo stage.

When the vcr ended, all lights were turned off. And when the instruments started to play, I saw him standing at the center of the stage, all the spotlight towards him. Then he started singing. I felt my heart literally ache when I recognize the song.

Hypnosis.

You will fall asleep now
Let go of me so I can fall into a deep dream
I lay me down inside the calm abyss
And erase the circuits to my memories

I know he's also hurting. 

Every scene in my head is a memory of you
I don’t think I see a time without you
Even when I take out the secret note within my heart
It’s filled with stories about you

It's the same with me, everything reminds me of him. Sweet memories of us, together.

When I open my eyes I’m always in the same spot
I hypnotize myself so I can forget you
But I want to see you so badly
When I come back to reality it’s still you

After all it’s you

All this time, from the moment I saw him in that room, my heart knows, it will always be him.

Memories of us that were dazzlingly beautiful
I keep emptying them but it fills again
I don’t think it’s ever going to end
The more I endure I get sicker in thought of you

No matter how hard I try to forget him, my heart will always ache for him. My Taem.

When I open my eyes I’m always in the same spot
I hypnotize myself so I can forget you
But I want to see you so badly
When I come back to reality it’s still you

I still love you baby. And it hurts. 

I don’t think I was ever this desperate
I can’t hold onto you nor can I leave 

Exactly how I feel right now. Torn between staying and leaving.

When I wake up, it’s here, under your shade
Maybe actually I don’t want to wake up

I just want all of these to end. Wake me up from this nightmare.

I don’t think I can overcome
I don’t think I can in the end
I’ve fallen under your hypnosis
And can’t forget you
The only person who can free me
Is only you, you are the only one

When I look at him on the screen, his eyes are closed but tears are falling nonstop from them. He's crying, in front of everyone! And only then I felt my damp cheeks. We both felt it. The longing. Sadness. And love. 

I had to go. I need to go far away from him. Or else I will forget all reasons and go back to him. I stood up and went out of the venue.

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Ji Yeon's POV

He's crying. He's hurt. And it's all because of me. He's been nothing but good to me, and here I am, ruining everything for him. But what can I do? My child needs a father and I have nowhere to go. I turned off the television. I can't stand watching him singing and crying his heart out. My conscience has been eating me since day one. I saw how he pleaded to make her stay.

Just like how I kneeled in front of my child's father. Asking him to take the both of us with him. But he won't. He left us. He left me not knowing where to go.

I was so desperate when I knocked on Taemin's dorm that night. I haven't eaten any proper meal. I haven't been sleeping well in the sauna, the only place I can afford. And