As each month, as each year passes by, I'm getting older, and if time shall allow it then one day, I will be 28, but no matter how many of your birthdays pass you now remain as that 27-year-old idol who shined upon the world.  

The star that will never age. 

Your impact is eternal, your music, your art, your legacy, just you as a whole can never be forgotten. 

I wonder how it would be if you were still here, you would probably be with your other brothers in the military, I wonder how you would’ve celebrated? 

I wish all those who loved you and all those you loved be at peace even though it hurts because I know they meant so much to you and definitely I know how much you meant to us. I always wish well for those close to you, I hope they know it’s okay to hurt and cry sometimes but I also hope they know it’s okay to be happy and laugh too, without guilt, similar to what Key said, rather than using the term ‘moving on’ I hope everyone can accept what happened and remember you fondly. 

I watched the performance ‘From Now On’ and ‘Diamond Sky’ today once again. The pain in the member’s eyes, the tears, the emotion in their voices, their feelings are so clear. Key who was the gold medallist in crying no longer has the shoulder of our silver medallist crier, and the other three members who rarely cried and just laughed and provided comfort, we’ve seen them cry many times too now since you said goodbye. It’s okay, they don’t always have to be strong, we will always be supporting them so don’t worry, and nobody is blaming you, you fought with everything you had and I know you’re always there cheering the members on, not seen but felt. I hope you’re celebrating well today, I hope that place you’re in brings you peace and is everything you imagined it to be. I may not be able to write to you on every big day, and sometimes I will write to you on any random day but at the end of the day I still remember you and have that same respect for you.  

Happy birthday to the most beautiful moon.  

“Look at my eyes, I whisper alone as I look at you from far away 
Just smile for me once, I can endure it just by seeing your face 
 
If you are standing at the end of my life, if I can get closer to you 
I can throw away everything and run to you 
 
Though I extend my hand, though I extend it with all my strength, I can’t reach you 
It seemed like I got closer so I called you with a fluttering heart 
But there’s no answer, I guess I can never reach you 
 
Every day changes so quickly and you are warmly and brightly shining 
I’ve never seen that turned back – is curiosity also part of my greed? 
 
Since when did I start being with you? From the moment I opened my eyes and started to breathe 
I was with you every night but I can’t approach you 
 
Though I extend my hand, though I extend it with all my strength, I can’t reach you 
It seemed like I got closer so I called you with a fluttering heart 
But there’s no answer, I guess I can never reach you 
 
Even if you tease me by saying this is foolish, I can’t turn this heart around 
 
I shout out loud, I get angry but it’s no use 
I’m just one out of the many people that pass by you  
I’m not special to you 
 
Though I extend my hand, though I extend it with all my strength, I can’t reach you 
It seemed like I got closer so I called you with a fluttering heart  
But there’s no answer, I guess I can never reach you 
 
I guess I can never reach you” 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1aVkANVr6I 

-Selene 6.23