It's been 8 months now.

I still miss you with all my heart. If you could come back, I'd find a way to tell you how you saved me and that i understand your feelings.

Your voice still sends me to sleeps on nights like tonight, when i can bearly sleep.

Ironically, Green Rain has just come on to my playlist and i can hear the fans as well, i wish i could have had the experience of seeing you live before this.

I came to terms with you being gone long ago, it doesn't mean I've stopped longing to her your voice. The way you sing, the way you talk even the way you laugh.

You've been an influence in my writing and in my life. I'm tryimg my hardest to prove my anexity wrong and make sure i can be a good teacher.

For now, I can promise you that i will improve my writing and my mental health and defeat whatever is holding me back.

I want to be the best I can be, i'll do it with the memories i have of you!

Thank you Jonghyun, rest well. I'll continue to do my best!