.... It wasn't supposed to be angst-y I swear. I have no idea where that came from. It was supposed to be fluff! Argh. One failed fluff more to the list of my attempts. Anyway, please love mblaq. Especially now that they are finding their happiness, let them have it and support them. I can't bear to see them hurt anymore.

Mir is frozen stiff on the kitchen floor. He swears it was an accident, he never meant to do it on purpose, but it doesn't alleviate the dread inside his heart. He is so close to just breaking down in desperate tears because his knees hurt and his hands are still shaking but he can't move them from the position they were right before the accident happened. He feels like crying, really, but he has no right to because he caused this himself by being careless. He doesn't really understand why something like this could make him want to cry so bad, but he blames it on the stress. 

He doesn't want to alert anyone even if he hurt himself again, so he tries to stifle his sobs by covering his mouth with his hand. He doesn't even care about the pain, not as long as the laptop remains just out of the reach of his stretched hands, broken. He doesn't know what to do as he just sits there, mind filled with despair. Accident or not, one should not break other people's valuable property. 

He tries to think of happy things, of his puppy and of his hyungs when they have a good day. He tries to think of his family at home, the fresh air of the countryside and his ugly sister that will run there in a heartbeat even if they pretend to hate each other. Mir hates crying and he tries so hard to not to. Yet the tears seem determined to push through his eyes, reminding him of how pathetic he really is. 

Why? How? He is always so careful with the things his hyungs borrow him so that stuff like this won't happen. So that he won't upset them. But there he is, crying on his knees as Byunghee's laptop silently mocks him on the floor.

He doesn't know how to get himself to move. He knows someone will see him there soon, it's only a matter of time, really, but he's frozen to the floor. The computer isn't even his but that is all the more reason to be this upset. At least it isn't Seungho's. Now that would be a nightmare. No, it's just Byunghee's, which makes his reaction even more pathetic though no one else would ever understand why.

"Byunghee's nice."

He is. Too nice, in fact. That's not what he's worried about. It's the fact that he knows even Byunghee is not all normal in this house, if human even. He's worried because he is more than certain of that and he's scared because his hyung won't be mad. He won't yell at him, or ground him or anything.

Instead, he'll just wrap his arms around him and give him one of those suffocating bear hugs he gives when he wants to comfort him, assure him everything is all right, or he just simply feels like it (or he just tries to smother him unnoticed. Mir still isn't quite sure what to believe). 

It's because he is scared that that kind of understanding and warmness will make him crumple and he doesn't want to be weak when he has no reason to. Mir is doing just fine. 

On the outside, however, he dislikes how Byunghee treats him like a mom, scolding him like a child and making sure he has everything he needs all the time. It's sweet, really, but it's not enough to distract Mir from seeing what he really is: a mama bear reborn as a human being. Or something close to a human at least. Some might think he's stretching it too far again and Mir admits it took him a while to realize he actually is right. Now he's more than assured and he isn't lying this time either.

Or then Byunghee intentionally wants him to think that way so that he can hide what he really is, which means that he knows Mir suspects him and then suspect he’ll try to hide something and that he really is what Mir thinks he is and that would give him the perfect cover. Or so he thinks.

Yup, a mama bear it is. 

By now he's learned not to tell anyone his "stupid" assumptions – they wouldn't believe him anyway. He is more than okay with knowing the truth himself. After all, it seems like it's dangerous not knowing what kind of monsters walk around him, pretending to be human. 

He often wonders how on earth is it possible for all these strange people to gather under one roof and live with him of all people on top of that. Then again, things always get interesting and Mir is at times just so utterly fascinated by his weird hyungs.

Then he sighs. His knees are starting to show the bruises he got from the fall but he keeps ignoring the pain when the guilt inside of him grows bigger and bigger every passing minute as he stares at the lifeless, now useless piece of electronics in front of him.

He tenses as he hears a door opening somewhere and even more as he listens to the steps. Learning to differentiate each members’ way of walking is an automatic process when you live together for years: It is easy to learn how each member walks and how much weight they put on their steps. And that is why Mir panics when he realizes the person coming towards him is none other than the owner of the computer himself. 

He shuts his eyes tight as he drops his chin to his chest and raises his hands in the air, already ready for any kind of punishment thrown at his way as he tries hard to bite back the tears again. 

He hears the steps round the corner and then stop. He must've seen the disaster he had caused by now. The tears swell faster in his eyes. He doesn't dare to raise his head and risk a look.

"Mir..?"

The soft call of his name almost makes him raise his head but he ignores it as he just shuts his eyes close even tighter. He hears a few steps and then the sound of scattered pieces of metal when Byunghee lifts his laptop from the ground, inspecting it. The lump in his throat gets bigger and a sniffle he had managed to suffocate till then breaks out with his tears.

Maybe it's unfair to react like this when Byunghee has never yelled at him before, but Mir knows that it's only a matter of time till it happens for the first time. Mir is, after all, a trouble maker.

And now he has broken his computer.

He hears when Byunghee drops the computer back on the ground. "Mir," the older calls again, a bit stricter. Mir takes a shaky breath before opening his eyes and looking straight at Byunghee with his teary eyes and soft hiccups.

He doesn't look mad but Mir hates that. He hates the understanding look in his eyes and the arms that spread open, telling him that it's okay, that he isn't mad, that he'd rather comfort him than see him cry.

And he hates how he relents to that as he starts sobbing for the pain, guilt and fear he didn't even know he had. Byunghee just smiles as he wraps him in his suffocating, warm embrace, whispering 'it's okay' calmly to his ears as he rocks him back and forth and caresses his back with calming . He isn't sure if he imagined it or not, but Mir swears he felt a light kiss on top of his head, too. 

After holding back for so long, the tears refuse to stop and Mir can only cry even more because his hyung's never ending kindness and love sometimes really creeps him out, but then there are times when he's hurt or lonely and he would do anything to get his hyung to hug and comfort him again.

"I-I'm sorry," he apologizes still. "I tripped on my feet and- and- and-"

"Shh, shh, shh. It's okay," his hyung assures as he his head. "It's okay. Did you get hurt?” 

Mir nods and lets Byunghee look at the damage. Byunghee scolds him a bit when he sees the cuts on his hands, caused by the little pieces of metal he had fallen onto. Mir hadn’t even realized he hurt his hands, too. He only remembered his knees that already sport a purple color.

"Where's this from?" Byunghee asks as he eyes the plaster Sanghyun had put on him. Mir hides his grimace and shivers as he recalls back to the incident that caused him that. 

"It's nothing."

However, Sanghyun with his sixth sense somehow manages to appear right then and there, and he corrects him: "Oh, Mir just cut his hands with glass, so I put that on him." And then he's gone. Mir silently yells "traitor" inside his mind, angered that he's made the weak one again. He swears he feels Sanghyun smirking somewhere inside his room.

His glare and the obvious lie gain him a slap on the back of his head and he yelps in surprise more than pain. 

"You need to be more careful," Byunghee tells him with a scolding look before suddenly turning to a soft mama bear tending to her cub all over again. Mir sighs. He'll never understand his hyungs.

But that doesn't mean he doesn't love them anyway.