not the end… but…a beginning

I’m not supposed to feel this way…

I can’t seem to calm the screams from my heart…

There is no way to stop thinking of a love so wanted…

It might be unknown still… but in my heart and dreams it has grown…

Love can be our guiding light…

Love can break us into pieces…

With each breath I take… I continue to try for and believe…

I wish… I want…. I wait…

Another day gone… another piece of me dies…

Every day I wonder if it can be true for me…

I try to hide it…

But as always… my feelings will not subside…

A gasp for air… and my thoughts begin…

Will it be today…

Do you really exist…

Are you just a dream…

It seems like I can’t stop thinking about you…

And how we can be…

The dreams we will build together…

The memories shared that symbolize you and me…

I know all these answers… I can feel them in my heart…

You are worth all the tears… the objections and fears I have now…

The search and longing for you is like my fairytale story waiting to be told…

Ever after is all I see ahead…

And I know that ever after is going to be me and you…

This moment… this time… it is just the first chapter of our life together…

DONGHAE'S POV: MARCH 17,2005

It's been one week since I last saw her, Everyday I always make sure to wait 30 mins, at the place where we accidentally met, before my training starts...but she never came...What happened to her? Why am I worried to someone whom I don't even know...Starting nextweek I might not have time to visit this place 'coz our schedule will be tightened and I'll be moving in with my bandmates tomorrow...But I'm still determined to search and wait for her....