Dear Donghyun,

A year ago, I wouldn't have thought of you as anything more than a friend. Back then, you were just a very cute Daejeon boy who was (and still is) too cheerful and bubbly for the world.

But as time passed by, I saw you in a different light. What seemed to just be a smile became something more to me. Your smile suddenly looked like it could brighten up my dull world. I tried to deny it at first but I am not all that dumb. Something told me that this is love. But even then, I tried to keep it to myself, since this was the first time I have ever felt this way to someone, much less to a good dongsaeng. 

And sometimes, when you need me to do something for you, you would sneak up to me and bump your head towards my shoulders, looking up at me happily with your eyes sparkling and your hand moving to cling onto me. You would start to shake your body and call out to me, "Youngmin-ie hyung... Won't you help me?" Just your presence alone makes my knees go weak, let alone your cute whiny voice. I'll then let you have your ways, agreeing to your sometimes extreme and ridiculous requests. And when I do agree, you would suddenly hug me tightly and shout a loud "I love you, hyung!"

Those frequent and clumsy confessions only give me false hope that maybe, just maybe, you truly do love me, romantically too. And somehow, you seemed to be further away from me, like how I, the moon who is unable to reach out for his sun (that is you). But even then,