To: Donghyun

Donghyun, Donghyun. You make me suffer so much. How can someone like you make me feel all sorts of things in one go? You make me feel happy with your cuteness, you make me sad when you cry, you make me mad when you start going to everyone else that is not me.

Maybe my love for you is no longer healthy anymore. Maybe I’m just going crazy. Maybe I need you, I don’t know but I am not myself anymore.

During Produce 101, you roomed with Donghan and I honestly hated that arrangement. You kept getting closer and closer to him that it seemed like he could easily replace me any time. When we get together to watch the newly released episode, I felt like my blood boil when you caressed his knee cap. I thought that the gesture was only for me but it seems that I have only been deluding myself. At the corner of my eye, I will see the two of you sneak a smile at each other while communicating with each other like that. I will be lying if I said that I'm okay with that, because honestly, I'm not. I hate it when you touch others intimately, even if others say that it is just a friendly gesture, I'll feel my heart tighten with the unwillingness to accept their reasoning.

During your performance at the concept evaluations, I was all happy and excited because it was time for you to shine. I was kind of aroused when you bit your lips and was even more so when it was time for the killing part. I have to say that I had almost run out of the room to snatch you away from the stage so that I can ravish you because my dear, you are too h