Dear Donghyun,

It’s been more than a year since I got to know you, but it feels like our relationship is years older than that. We’ve only become even closer than before after the eliminations, and with us doing activities as a duo, I can only say my feelings have gotten stronger. I can even safely say that I am at a point of no return.

I love you like a brother, no, I’m not bro-zoning you, I meant that I love you so much that I could give up for you, as much as I would for my brother, for my family. It only goes to show that my feelings for you is so strong that I can even give up my life for you. People may call me pathetic, but they don’t know real love. Months before, I would have doubted and scoffed at myself for thinking about the possibility of me liking you, but now, things are different. Now, I know that when you love someone so much, you will be a willing party to give up your entire existence for them, and I would. For you.

I treat you like a friend, again, I’m not friendzoning you. I’m just saying that while I love you, although I get all tingly and uncomfortable and red, you still feel like home. Being away from my hometown was hard for me. Trying to speak without my Busan dialect was so tough and all I felt was tiredness, discomfort and stress. What if I spoke carelessly with my dialect? People will hate me then. And so I sacrificed the ‘home’ that I have, and tried to adjust to Seoul. And then you came. I am naturally a shy person but you came to me with your signature eye smile and opened up to me. For me to feel comfortable around you at the very least, you exposed all of yourself, so that I could do so, and I did. And then I started to talk in my dialect and even talk more, and without knowing, we became closer and you became my new found ‘home’. You